In her arms I found,
I could face the failing ground,
I could chart the noon day sky,
And keep the hours from passing by.

In her arms I lost my home,
And found them in her arms alone
Her palms a bed her elbows doors
To places only we know.

And then I leave them
And I'm like a hem
Torn at the sleeve
Whenever I leave
And the only way I'm darned
Is when I'm back in her arms.

I lost a piece of me
Sometime after we met
And you were the sea
That rushed through the cleft

And it felt full
As you filled me
And slowly pulled
Me into the sea

Now I'm floating out
Beneath the sounds
Just the dull thud of waves
beneath your surface I'm saved

I'm pressed not crushed
By your weight
And the cracks are hushed
As I wait

And it's dull
And shallows
In the lull
Of the shadows

Now I'm floating out
Beneath the sounds
Just the dull thud of waves
beneath your surface I'm saved

Dissolved
Nothing left
But the rush
of your depth

Resolved
Of me
In the hush
Of the sea

Where did you go?
Little punk that used to feel,
Who challenged what was real
The heart that won't keep quiet

I used to know
The person you'd become
When did you get so numb
And go on autopilot

I don't know if I'm still the enemy
But if I am I already love to hate me
But you want me to love me enough to let go
I don't know if I can become who I was
My back is breaking from all the last straws
Cause I'd hate to love the person I know

As me
Cause me
Is a little bit short of patience
a little bit prone to lie

Cause me '
As me
Is a little bit prone to darkness
The secrets that I hide
That borrow up inside
Until I believe the lies

Can I really change and find
The heart of a warrior in my mind
I don't know
Anymore
But I know
You're more
than I know

You're still like the warrior I used to know
Hands full of scars and a heart full of souls
I'm giving up the facade of control
Into your hands I'll let go.

In your eyes there is freedom,
From the shadow's glare
From the wounded stares
From the mirror snares

In your hands there is healing
From the heart of doubt
From a life without
From a razor mouth

In your heart there is meaning
For the misunderstood child
For the violent wild
For the broken smile

But in your death there is nothing
Forever closed eyes
Forever cold hands
Forever silent heart

He sat in the periphery of his own life
(And asked 'are you okay?')
And he didn't know how to answer
Or who was asking for that matter

(Why won't you go away)
He whispered back to himself
And sat in silence

Outside and within
And watched the red light
Flicker across the window pane
(Am I okay)
He asks himself,
Really meaning, will things ever change.

I carved my name into a desk.
I didn't think much of it then
But looking back at the mess
I can see the innocence

No walls to hold him
Just a desk to learn
And mark on a whim
To know I was here

And the lesson began

So they took my hands
Beat them with the edge of a rule

Hard enough to hurt but not bruise
To cut but not bleed

Just skin

So I looked down at my desk
And my name in pain
Trying not to cry
Tears tried in my eyes

My name is blurred
The table is blurred
Like a white washed wall at twilight.

I see your voice and feel your eyes
In the void between my skies and soul

In the gap where life denies
In the wound between broken and whole

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

There where your bones meet mine
Where blood washes through

In that war between the divine
I feel you breaking through

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

Here's my altimatum
If you want my life so good
Make silence my anthem
Cause only you could
Make gentleness my fist
And forgiveness my kiss
Until I can't resist
Cause I will resist
A new heart
Set apart
Solid
Without I
Sold
I must die

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new
And I hope I don't survive you.

The only think that can keep us apart
Is right here with me
Separating my self from my heart
Until you see

You can't keep us apart
You can take the me out of what I mean
You can't take the I out what's mine

But you can take what you've see, and make it shine
And let the black slip into the back of your mind
Because the only thing that can keep us apart is me

Lover, Slide between me
And what I could be
And keep me comfy
Asleep and warm
Zeal brings great harm
You have me charmed.

Letters
A word
A phrase
That form a sentence.
It's a new beginning,
If you can see past the present,
At a glorious future,

Van gogh's crayon scribbles
Ramsay's teenage nibbles
Jordan's first shaky dribbles
And this thing,
A letter.

I find with every word
I lose the things I've heard
And know more
The unknown before

I find I live for your reply
Die when it's denied
See to read your lines
Blinded by your mind

By your sentence
It condemns
By your words
My world ends

Your words are so much more
Your letters worth living for

Light breath and blood
Flood in like smoke
Choking on the haze
Raised in hope

Roped in with help
Scalpel separates us
Us is broken
Awoken from the night

Lighting up the sky
My heart persisted
Red from blue I bleed
Breathe unassisted

I survived
I'm alive

Oh hey the sky is blue again
All different hues of blues
And the clouds they fade away
The grey has washed away

Oh hey, Hi! it's you again
We're all different hues of blues
But the clouds just fade away
When I see your face

And when it's dark you're the silver lining
And I hope that I'm yours too
You're the sky, when the world's so black it's blinding
I look up at you
And I'm reminded
Light will come again

You've got me convinced
That forever is forever
The future is a journey
Where we are always we

I've never thought how since
This forever is forever
The man I used to be didn't hesitate or contemplate
That kissing you would be the death of me

And when it's dark you're the silver lining
And I hope that I'm yours too
You're the sky, when the world's so black it's blinding
I look up at you
And I'm reminded
Light will come again

Somewhere between the rain drops
Theirs lightning
Somewhere between the rain drops
Theirs wind

And we're moved to and fro
Between the clouds and the shore
But the sky is where it begins
And where our journey ends

When I say I love you
I mean like a friend
When you say I love you
It means without end

You mean it like a father
Loves His child
I mean it like a feather
Loves the sky

When you say I would do all
I mean in the figurative
But you're more literal
Your life you would give

Turn heaven upside down to get to earth
Turn earth right side up to get me to heaven
Turn your life to death to give me worth
Turn death to life to make us one

And you called me son
Not servant
Not one of the hundreds to come
Not pilgrim vagrant

You called me son
You say I'm free
You say eternity
Literally

And you're not being figurative
You're not playing with hyperbole
You're not using superlatives
You're just being wholly

True
When you say I died for you

Hello lonely eyes
Looking through the lies
Bright as the summer shine
She's easy on the eyes

We're in churches in chains
Singing of a love that's blind
Her chains are chained to mine
She's easy on my mind

Oh lonely eyes
If only our love were blind
She teases me with goodbye
But she's easy on the eyes

We swim in the rain
In the river we find
When we're drowning in pain
She's easy on my mind

Oh lonely eyes
Reflected in your eyes
And you're reflected in mine
You're easy on the eyes
You're easy on the mind
You're easy on the eyes
You're easy on the mind

Her mind a map, I'm lost.
Her mind, a map I lost.
Her lost mind, I map.
I map her loss.
I lost her.
Her loss.
Lost

I swear
If you lose my heart
I will tear your room apart
Until It's found
And if it's not around
I will split with yours
And hide it because

We'll both be lost hearts then
Following the one who lost them

I don't know what to say when I'm with you
Words pale and fail to say what my heart knows

I try to raise my voice, but it trickles into nothing more than words.

My spirit's longing but my heart is cold and silent
Turned to stone from years of giving up the fight

I try to make a choice to love you, but I've always said those words

I've wronged you
I'm sorry
I don't know if I can change
But I need you
I'm desperate
I know your the only way
I can love
And be loved
And find that maybe love is enough

I keep thinking of all the times before this
Blaming you or me for how I just can't change

I'll try to look beyond, so my love goes beyond only words.

I still feel the shadow creeping up inside me
But I also feel your life breaking through

I know this heart will fail but please prevail, please be more than words

I've wronged you
I'm sorry
I don't know if I can change
But I need you
I'm desperate
I know your the only way
I can love
And be loved
And find that maybe love is enough

To change a heart
To change my life
From wandering darkness
To living light
Than can warm hearts
And light lives up
More than words
But changed inside

I've wronged you
I'm sorry
I don't know if I can change
But I need you
I'm desperate
You're the only way
I can love
And be loved
And my heart knows that love is enough
(When times get rough)
My heart knows your love enough
(When I fall)
My heart knows your love enough
(When I'm weak)
My heart knows your love is enough
(When I'm lost)
My heart knows you love is enough

Just love on display
Ever dismayed
Stripped ripped
Undone
Shunned

Love hidden in secret
Overcomes the violent
Vindicates the silent victim
Ends the torment within
So we can know freedom

Yes we all need to decide
On the path we'll abide
Until the love inside can live outside

Love what you do, and what you do will be loved.

There between my mirror and me
Is a darkness, a dislike
Between the same and opposite I see
Is a sense of spite in-spite of me

I'll close my eyes
And try to see
The humor in a raspberry
But I still see what I can't see
Who I am
Is not who I'm meant to be

Media is the muse of our generation
Media amuses our degeneration
It's in the air abusing our obsession
If you cared it would feel like an intervention

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

The TV tells you a stolen story
That the advertisers asked to put before me
And paid an extra dime to change your mind
Cause it's laid on prime time

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

I forgot what sunrise looked like
What mama's sundays cooked like
What I really like
Before I went on this mindwarp hike

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

The moon like a lily,
Blooms from the clouds,
Carried on a wispy cirrus shroud
Floats on the sea of the sky like the foam
And sinks to the depths of the ocean her home.

She says I don't understand what it means to be alone
I guess that's been true since the day I met her
She sat out in the storm on her own
And as I watched her I knew she was wrong

She always said the wind reminded her of home
Until I asked her to stay
I knew she was a rebel but how could I have know
That she would turn away
That she would run away

Nothing hurts more
Than standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
As the sky opens
Wishing you weren't on the other side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

And she's off on another adventure
Somewhere between the lines
And I'm here trying to find where we were
somewhere between the lies

She's sitting at home in silence
And I'm walking in the rain
It's more than the distance
I guess somethings do change

Nothing hurts more
Than standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
As the sky breaks opens
Wishing you were still on my side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

And I'm sitting out in the cold on my own
I never felt this way before I met her
I understand what it means to be alone
And I guess I will forever

Nothing hurts any more
I'm standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
And the sky's broken
Wishing you weren't on the other side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

This is who I was
Lost in who I was meant to be
Found all I was not meant to see
In between you and me

This is who I am
Still picking up my tab
Even the one you said you'd grab
But debts are all I've ever had

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

This is where we stand
Inseparably apart
Your love pursues my racing heart
And when it stops is where we start

This is where we fall
Half way to where you are
Slipped as I start to pass the falling star
At least the ground is not as far

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

If this is all this is
I just want you to know
I know you loved me more
More than love could ever know

There is a patch of sky
That I know better
Than any student of the weather

I know every mood
And every color
From grey brood
To amber wonder

Musing whiffs
of white and grey
Purple pride
That fades away


But the sky was never mine
The storms go rolling by
The Mornings turn to blue
The afternoon tired sighs
Noons scorching golden hues
The thunder roars and fades
And blackness veils it all
As the stars and moon parade

You are my patch of sky
Amidst the joy and pain
I love watching our lives
Shine as the weathers change
And when the night is nigh
Our memories like stars
Remind me that this sky
Was never mine but ours.

The Sky was always your home,
You just came in and lit up my room for a little while.

We were out on the streets
And you were listening to me
Over the sound of feet
And the din of the city

I was caught in your eyes
And to my surprise
There was no one at the string

So I sang you a song
Of a love long lost
But the song wasn't strong
Cause the feelings were frosted

Over with lies
And new butterflies
There was no one at the strings

And they rang out with the chords
Of a heart lost in song
Of a mind in the void between here and the lord
And it all came out wrong
And it all went right
That's the thing, when there's no one at the strings.

And so we opened our hearts
To the things we denied
And I showed you the parts
That I'd normally hide

Cause no one understands,
But you still took my hand
Now there's no one at the strings

And they rang out with the chords
Of a heart lost in song
Of a mind in the void between here and the lord
And it all came out wrong
And it all went right
That's the thing, when there's no one at the strings.

Now I'm holding your hand
And it's good to be here
Somehow I understand
That even though we're near

You're far away
And I want you to stay
But there's no one at the strings

I used to see pictures in the sky
Drawn by your hands
Smeared with the light of the universe
Like a love sick lullaby to dawn
As she lies in the sand
Dreaming of the stars in your verse

That darken her eyes
Darken the skies until day turns to night
Your song covered her eyes
And filled her with light so she'd shine when she rises
And light up the sky, like she was meant to
No surprises here

But these skies feel so empty
Like half empty glasses
Like a writers poem at midnight
In shadows frantic and sleepy
Each hour that passes
Reminds him that even his thoughts have grown quiet

They darken his eyes
Darken the skies until night turns to day
Your song covers his eyes
And filled them with night so he'd never shine when he rises
And light up the sky, like he was meant to
Still no surprises here

On this side of the sky
The cash before my eyes
Are paper blinds
Over my windows

On this side of my room
I'm hiding in the gloom
It's just easier
In the shadows

But you're the blue up high
The storm in the rain
On this side of the sky
You're the joy in the pain

On this side of the sky
The storm is rising high
There are no silver linings
Except the lightning

I'm running through the storm
My eyes are clouding up
It's blurring out your form
But I'm still searching

You're the blue up high
The storm in the rain
On this side of the sky
You're the joy in the pain

I lift my eyes up
To the mountains
A sunset of bloods
You turned to fountains
Your skies went black
So mine turned blue
On this side of the sky
The light is you

You're the blue up high
The storm in the rain
On this side of the sky
You're the joy in the pain
And when the storms fade
And I fade too
On that side of the sky
My light's still you

Open Casket.

Letting the grains slip away through my fingers
The dust never settles the pain only lingers
It still feels like we never closed the door on this

You were afraid that the wound never heals
Then you moved on to a place that’s too real to be
True in my hollowing heart, can I follow you from the dark

Bury me with my casket open
Cause’ my bones were never broken
Just out of joint, but that’s not the point
You never let continents keep us apart
What’s six feet of earth between eternal hearts
You must be joking, Jump on in the caskets still open.

Cotton and lace I want all of the frills
If life is a lesson then death is a thrill
Who ever said that there is no hope for the dead (to find love)

If you’re still afraid that the wound doesn’t heal
Put your hand on my heart you’ll see that the promise is real
There is peace right in there but it still wants a piece of you
Bury me with my casket open
Cause’ my bones were never broken
Just out of joint, but that’s not the point
You never let continents keep us apart
What’s six feet of earth between eternal hearts
You must be joking, Jump on in the caskets still open.

The grains slip away
It never changes and you’re still afraid
That my heart will re-arrange the truth
Bury your doubts
In cotton and lace
Til’ you can’t get out
The grains slip away
It never changes and you’re still afraid
That my heart will re-arrange the truth
Bury your doubts
In cotton and lace
Til’ you can’t get out
But just trust me on the other side
You’ll see me
You will see the light
You will know that the truth was always inside
Bury me with my casket open
Cause’ my bones were never broken
Just out of joint, but that’s not the point
You never let continents keep us apart
What’s six feet of earth between eternal hearts
You must be joking, Jump on in the caskets still open.

Hello
It's been a while
Since my pen touched paper
Or even remembered the stories I've written on you.
The ink's spilled and run dry
But in its reflection I view
That I am paper too.
You drew
Mysteries
And memories
And smeared tears into stains
That bled from the veins
Shed all the pain, yet
Kept the heart
Left me
Art

We are all paper pens
Stemmed in ink
What we write splashes back
And sinks in our skin
Cuts deeper than blood
And bleeds within
Finds a link in the flood
And is ink again

Then there's words that splash
And thoughts that crash
Upon our paper backs
And lash deep
Cut steep into the knib
Like a knife to the ribs
Or a lie to the lips

And from that lash
The **** makes the pen skip
But the ink still bleeds
Pools and words
Like tools to be heard
Tunes to the herd
That soothes up the hurt
Or destroys their worth

We are what we word
Or so I heard
Cause in the end
We're just paperpens
Stained while we stain
Until only ink remains

You found me east of the park
Just after dark
When the sky was still dyed red

No sign of external abuses
Just bruises
From my heel to my head

You knew you'd postpone this death
Though I didn't want to be
You drew your own life breath
And breathed into me
I rolled and choked on life as it stung
Air cold broke like a knife to the lungs

I looked into eyes I'd never known,
And saw a debt I could never own.
But you just smiled and sent me home.

Purpose is the thing between amazing and now,
And somehow I find that I am now the in between.
The seen and unseen not in the darks hold,
Held in the folds of fog, because I want to be light.

Waiting is difficult
But it is essential
Love too soon or too late
May never become love at all
Act too soon on your anger
And you will regret your call
But if you wait the hate will subside
And love will guide your actions

All I'm saying is that patience
Is a harvest sewn and waited for
That reaps a crop greater than the field
One that cannot be stored but produces a yield
Ten, Hundred, Thousand fold the time thrown away
And that time thrown away is never wasted
Because as the watchman waits for the dawn
When morning comes, he breathes a deep sigh
And smiles as the light warms his face and soothes his sore eyes
Patience proved right produces insight
That waiting can be for gain
Above all else what remains
We learn to cope
With man's most powerful curse
Hope

And nothing could be better or worse.

I often find that my darkest thoughts aren’t these evil machinations
That blur the lines of right and wrong, but rather it’s impatience
When someone reaches out to me the lack of any empathy
Or when I know someone needs my voice I pretend I don’t hear the choice

Ignorance and ignoring
Are two very different things
It’s like nodding
when you’re not listening
Instead of asking when you missed something
The first doesn’t offend and doesn't care,
The second offends but does.

But the thing that should scare is the because.

We are impatient because we care more for ourselves,
Than we do for the cause of someone else.
Even if our service costs nothing
Our annoyance betrays something.

It snitches on the stitches our soul never received
The wounds, deep wounds that we never grieved
Cut open by the patience we were never given,
We never learned to give away

But what if we started today?

There are two kinds of people, one thinks there are two kinds of people, one knows people are people.

You found me by the way side
And pushed me out to sea
Now I'm pulling in the fish
But there's just no room for me

I have to choose

I'm jostling through the crowd
Inches from your robe
I want to just stay hidden
But I want to know you

I have to choose

You have opened your heart
To all these scars all these hours
In the shadows teaching me to shine.
You opened my heart
To all I am all I can be
And closed it to the life I've left behind
I'm ready to shine!
Ready to shine!

You left the bright side
And came down to earth
You came by my side
And say I am worthy

I have to choose

You took up my cross
And forgave their wrong
Now I'm at a loss
If by them you meant me all along

I have to choose

You have opened your heart
To all these scars all these hours
In the shadows teaching me to shine.
You opened my heart
To all I am all I can be
And closed it to the life I've left behind
I'm ready to shine!
Ready to shine!

You found me by the way side
And pushed me out to sea

Rebel son
Born in the shadow
A fire in the hollow of night

You're the reason
That the angel's are singing
To terrified shepherd's tonight

Oh they did not know
And we don't still
That you came below
For your will fulfilled
Caused us to be saved
From ourselves and the grave
We will sing
To our rebel king

Rebel priest
Baptized in the river
By the one who you soon would save

You loved the least
Like your own sons and daughters
Like your blood flowed through their veins

Rebel love
That raises the standard
Changes our hearts from within

You are above
Sickness couldn't touch you
You healed us out and within

Oh we did not know
And we don't still
That you came below
For your will fulfilled
Caused us to be saved
From ourselves and the grave
We will sing
To our rebel king

Rebel king
betrayed by a brother
Led out like a lamb to be slain

Torn skin
Until you didn't look human
You bore our shame and our pain

Without sin
You were tried as a rebel
Innocent and you bore our shame

We thought you'd win
But you died like a rebel
Bearing our sin and our shame

Every curse and blow
Every blood drop spilled
Oh the thorn torn brow
Oh the life I killed
But then death rebelled
And the grave did too
As the dead broke free
By your death renewed
And your life cries out
In our very souls
Destroying our doubt
Making broken whole
Let my heart of hearts
And my songs now sing
Lifting holy hands
To my rebel king

I've been blessed to know
And be in your will
Let my life be yours
For your will fulfilled
To be saved and save
From sin and grave
Until my life sings
To my rebel king

If you are reading this
You know nothing of me.
People who know me, know I hate being red.

If you are reading this
You think nothing of me.
Because I misspelled read as red.

If you are reading this
Know that I think nothing of me.
Because the thought of you reading this makes me red.

If you are reading this.
Know nothing of me.
For all I am will one day be red.

You always loved to drive.
I remember how it made you smile.
Made you feel alive
Mile after mile.

Your mind after mine
You are my dad after all
But I could never find
The drive to follow

I let you drive off
Into the night and never knew
That would be the last time I'd see you

Red tail lights, blurred, as I walk home.

There in your eyes,
Is a reflection of me.
And you stare at skies
Like your ma did the sea.

And you tell stories like nana
Without the pauses.
And cringe like my brah
When I clean your bruises.

You laugh like a man
And you smile like my dad.
I don't understand
How all they had,

Got into a heart
As small as yours ,
And still makes me start
Just because,

You have a spark.
That lights the dark
And reminds my heart
Of a work of art.

Red splashes and dark
Finger marks
Of someone
More than anyone,

More than you and I
More than this love of mine.

This poem leaves me torn.
Because I'm your father.
But you haven't been born.
But I'm full of fear.

That you'll never see my reflection
In your eyes.
So here's my reflection
On your life.

So you'll understand.
Before your life began.
I saw your reflection.
I saw your perfection.
And loved everything about you.
Through our fathers' eyes I know you'll know it's true.

She wrote me letters in smiles
That told me to while away
The lazy days and read each letter on her face.
But when I replied I was forlorn
It seems her mail address was wrong

My heart is still where the white dove sails
Looking for rest at morning
Apart from will light's love prevails
Seeking a blessed mooring

She opened my heart with melodies and maladies
And closed my eyes
With kisses
And whispers
That dispersed the doubt
Until the darkness came out
Then she left and my eyes opened like clouds
Squinting through the rain at the sunny day.

My refrain is sung with refrain, because one
Who was accustomed to customs at airports and ports
Was to deport, and depart from my home
And my heart tomorrow
To borrow time and leave me
Rhyming why's and lies and sighs
Just to get by, by falling back on moving forward.

Her sentence sealed my sentence
"It's never enough to be home
Without ever being home"
Her point pierced home.

So with all I had left she left,
To be seasoned by seasons
And return turned into what I understood
Might not love me, mightily.

But Mays and and Octobers don't last,
And at last, what passed became past.
And may have brought me closure, and her closer.

Spring sprang a surprise on me.
On a windy road on a windy day
April, June summer may or may not have been.
When like a flower I like she appeared.
Daisies dazed me with brighter brights
And the sky's blue hues were new hues of blues.

Because cause belittles the little bees and the birds.
Who get by trusting the skies and flowers.
And while I was wondering of hope wandering in misery.
She solved her mystery in Him and me.

The storm came out of nowhere,
And you were there
With wings ready to fly
And as the clouds broke the sky

You didn't leave

You were my shelter
From the rain and thunder
And when it ceased
And the wind eased

I didn't leave

The rain you stopped
Rained down your core
And every drop
Held like a store

It didn't leave

Until the gust shook it free
And you rained down on me
Cold and sharp but how could I leave
When you held it all of this time for me

I'll stay with you.