Life has turned it's back on us
We're each an abandon child now
Living the life no one could relate
Pick pocketing others' love
Wonder why we could never tell them we need some.

Love songs and sad songs are you,
Sun and moon are you,
stars too.
The flowers and trees are you,
The happiness and sadness are you,
The cure and pain are you,
The addiction is you,
The obsession is you,
The attraction is you,
The illusion is you.

What aren't you?
You are the drug,
The cure and the disease.

The water, the fire, the virus, the lies,
the truth, the bad, the best,
All are you.

If there are only two humans,
One must be good, one must be bad,
Which one should I be?
Both cannot be good
Neither both can be bad,
If both are good,
The world then too peace,too boring.
If both are bad,
The world then too chaotic,too tiring.
Just like in the movies,
We need twists and fun,
Then which shall I be..
Angel or devil?
Or.. either one with a mask?

You disguised as somebody else
So they won't leave you
So they'll keep loving you
But are you sure it's you?
The one they're staying with,
The one they love,
Or did you forget?
You disguised as somebody else.

Attention was all she need

She did hunger strike
She cut her wrist
She intentionally failed exams

For a very uncertain attention she's hoping from them
But no one bother pay a glance

The efforts, the hopes
All been thrown in the ocean of vains
Yes, her life too.

Is attention that great?
Does it worth a life?

One nice man and one young lady
They had been bestfriends since forever
One day he knelt down on his knees
And said "My young lady, will you marry me?"
She said "That's not funny, get up you fool"
He Gave her a serious look. His eyes showed pain
"You can't be serious!"
He held her hands and said "TBH I am, I love you"
"No we can't, we are bestfriends"
"Learn to love me as much as I love you. You won't regret, I promise you"
She laughed as in disbelief of what he just said
He stood up. He smiled and said "I dare you"
He walked away with a very painful look pasted on his face
She stared at his back and laughed awkwardly. She whispered "You don't have to.. Because I love you more than you do love me. I have always be".

There's not much left in me,
Stop trying too hard in breaking parts of me,
I had enough already.

I'm way too tired,
I might get a very bad idea,
How to end this misery in a very quiet way but would definitely stir the people around who'll then demand that they're close friends of mine.

*****.

He is one lonely man
He lives in his own world
The world where he can expands his happy imagination into wild and fascinating one
He talks when he feels the need to
He tweets when he wants to
He does what he wants to do
He talks sweet
Got ladies head over heels over him
His every word does hurt but it has point
He is one of a kind. A kind that attracts me
A lot

I can't love you back
simply because you love me,
I have to love your personality,
your true self,
So I can feel less cruel and
unfair to you and myself,
Miss you when you're away
and excited to see you,
And feel sad
instead of relief
when you leave

There are so many things that I didn't know,
Things that I don't even want to know about.

Because most of things I knew,
I wish I didn't know.

sorry
is easy

I'll say it
thousand times a day.

He used to call me every night
Just to make sure I had a pleasant day
When I'm sad, he cherished me up
When I cry, he lent me his shoulders and comfort me
Whenever we went out for date, he would held my hands
Before we say our goodbyes, he would kiss me and lean in whispering the 3 powerful sweet words "I LOVE YOU" which was never fail to send shiver down my spine

The way he moves, the way he acts, I'm just in love in every part of him
He showed me light when I'm lost
He is the sun, The unforgettable one
With him near, Sky was never dark
The light he brought along, Brighten up my whole world at all time

One day he walked away
He said he had never love me
He told me not to call him again, he won't pick up his phone, he won't call back

It has been months
I'm missing him, badly
I need those affection he used to give
I need those hands which were used to hold mine
I need him

Without him around, I'm dead
And I'm barely holding on

Then I found out he's dead
He got tumor, passed away a month ago
Half a year after our break up
His surgery failed
The fact that he broke with me because he was sick break my heart
About he had never love me, it was a lie
**** it! How can I know nothing about this?!

Without him around, I'm nothing less than an almost dead flower
Sways around whenever wind blows
I might fall at any moment

I'm scared and I'm barely holding on..

Saying you only miss me when you miss me
You only need me when you need me
Got me thinking
I'm not the one in your mind at all time
Because you have never say you miss me
You have never say you need me.

I need your love
I need your care
You don't have to pour a bath
Just a  little  drop everyday
I'll keep it in a bottle
For every single drop you gave
So on the day I cry
I can compare
What's more
The tears or the loves and cares
And ask myself
Does it worth to cry and fight
When I have bottles of your loves in hands