There's sleep in your eyes with your lips on mine
Six bottles of beer and a checkout time
A pizza to share and a sheet of truth
Time stops that I wish that I could rewind
I close my eyes and feel our hands intertwined
I close my mind and see you by my side
Calling me beautiful every day and night
Hips pressed
Tongues stressed
You could break my heart any time

Will you continue to hum till I cry
And stare at you out of the corner of my eye
Before you kiss my tears goodbye
Going to bed without you feels like there's no end in sight
My heart can't take this
Please come back tonight
Distance is our biggest mistake
Why does home have to be so far away

oh hello old friend
did you honestly think this was how it was supposed to end
with a **** and a touch
a kiss goodbye
left glimmering in the floodlight
a sense of fear
and a *** of gold
trusting for you to not let me go

but you let the bottle slip and fall
and you let me leave to another show
you let the blankets fall back into place
and you lead your heart the other way

can you taste the tears on your lips
the stains of a happy summer
of a past you wish to remember
but forget
to hold and let go
a secret creaking on the floorboards
you thought i wouldn't know

the clouds might be gray
and the sea may be too
but nothing's as bad
as when i'm not with you

those 3am thoughts
those 5pm tears
with darkness ****** upon us
and lightness bled to white

notes left on chalkboard
and tears with no flight

no message
no call
no facebook acknowledgment at all

you want to stay friends?
that's all?

no hello
no goodbye
no, hey are you alright?
i was stupid to think you'd call
we aren't even friends anymore

I didn’t text you today and I’ve never been more proud of myself.

*If you want me in your life you’ll do it yourself

You weren't the only disappointment
Everyone around me wanted to tear me down
You weren't the only heartbreaker
My friends did that too
Only they weren't friends
Just like me to you

Yet you can't text
'We're not going to lose it'
'We mean too much to each other'

What a bunch of ******* *******

People hurt
And people break
And there's no one there at the end of the day
Because we're liars
And sinners
Taking pride in heart's breaking and soul's aching

a fragment of time left in classrooms alone
the taste of whiskey left barren in your bone
its almost like you went to hell
but in reality you're still standing still

its like the way you lick your lips
claiming that its just an old habit
the way the clouds roll into the day
its almost like you never went away

for titles leave unexplained absences
and stories leave wounds wide open
but the rhythm leaving your body
is one of a still heart

treading crystal water
waiting for lillies to grow
into my pure limpid eyes
he goes

Write with me
So you can come fly with me
It’s the ultimate key
To this worlds sorcery

i wear attention like diamonds
sparkling, glistening
admiring the reflection i show
you don't get to speak, only seek
validate just, what i need

There's nothing left
No texts
Photos
Archives of old chats
You're practically a fragment of my imagination now
You once were everywhere to be found
But now it's almost as if you never there in the first place

Changing your name on my phone was one of the hardest things I had to do
So how do you fall out of love?
Please tell me your secret
Because replacing the love with hate is not what you deserve
Nor is it something that I could perform

It's rebuilding and filling the spaces now there
It's haunting and hypnotic

The lack of words spoken
Not about romance
Not about tea
No longer wanting me in the way I knew

We were together
While forever apart
And we were strangers connected by broken hearts

I burned with a fever
While you held your degree
Friendship over love and *** over drugs
Loving you seems more than enough

To write you in colours that don't exist
And memories that are paid to fade
Isn't this just another stage of human decay?

Time and time again
I gave you reasons to say yes
All you had left in your heart
Was reasons to run left

You asked me for the truth
For months I held my heart
Til you said the words we’re hoping for
I said I love you yet

Friday's are for dreaming,
Monday's are for reality check's
They never said it would be easy

The best things in life weren't meant to be
They're tough
Painful
And raw

Love can be a fire that you watch burn to ashes
Because you like broken pieces more than he knows
Vicious and unapologetic
Dark and cruel
A light knocking on its door

The fear in every chuckle
The reason for tomorrow
The past hurts and, present is pain
When you first fall, you never stop

You're not as sweet as your name
But your lips are
A fury of limbs not even resisting anymore
But what makes you an even bigger ******* is the fact that you don't want more
You're happy with a tangle of words and thoughts and hearts
Pushing
Pulling
Unable to reach a point of conclusion
A cycle that keeps on turning
Struggling to accept the
The way that your pulse races into mine
Refusing for things to make sense
Because you seem to prefer the damaged ends
The open wounds
Much like the overly cliche stanzas that have become our excuse
Blame the distance
Blame the way your face only appears once in a thousand days
But you refuse to blame yourself
To accept the fear behind each touch
Because you don't want to be in love

rid me of my heart
and rid me of my soul
because I have become the girl who is lost in yours
the near and far of the future and the past
misconceptions and false hopes
tangled and convoluted
please don't make me let you go
my bed is on the gallows
as over 10,000 reasons took away what was left of me

You're just another cigarette that burned out too soon
And I'm just another girl left in the shadow of the moon
Two months too little
Two months too soon
Two months showed me I was better off on the moon
For a lack of evidence
A lack of proof
Aren't these craters then better than you?
Because we forgive in order not to lose
Conversing in apologies and mere thank you's
Afraid of taking two steps back
But the longer you dance with the devil, the longer you remain in hell
Hypocrisy was your finest excuse

lie a little better
dig a little deeper
spit out the words that are trying to eat you
don't let the caffeine hit you
link the chambers
and battle the weight
achieve tomorrow what you forgot yesterday

My keyboard remembers your name better than I remember the pain
I lie awake at night fearing no one will ever know my veins
There’s still a part of me that’s disappointed you never changed
And I keep telling myself, in another life..?
Maybe that time, I’ll come out with the right skin type
But this was it, there is no another universe
No matter how much I try to kid myself
This is all we had, all I could give you
And it wasn’t enough
I didn’t want to beg, but I did
I know you felt it, I came to my knees,
Longing, aching
Please, please, love my ***** skin.

my scars own me
deep and dark
building bridges
     future
        present
            past

my thoughts haunt me
spreading doubt
shovelling ditches
     pull
        us
           out

it comes and goes in waves
dragging you for days
riddled with cliches
set in one's ways

I'm not obsessed with the future
I'm obsessed with right now
         obsessed with the rain
            obsessed with your face
               obsessed with a moment
after moment

Why should I live in pieces?
I once had the best relationship with darkness
And you acquainted me with the light
I'm rejected by barren lands yet still alive in my breath
And how can you say you know about love
And how can one explain of a shadow and acceptance
Because until you share someone's pain
You don't get separated from your own
And that pain doesn't get separated from us

She wears black jeans and doesn't believe in love
But all that changed when she fell into your world
Not wanting to stretch time
Or revisit your hold
Hunting the ghosts of anxiety
Burning
Igniting
Why do I keep on fighting?

A storm surge
A call
Raising clipped wings
Soon it will all fall down

i'm not in love
far from it
not caught up
just sittin on it
wrap me inside
ribbon tongue tied
tugging on the corners of a very fine line

now staying up
let me stay alive
give me something
let me survive
please don't be a passerby
ringing this bell for the very last time

her heart was at a moribund
as she fell in love despite all his foibles
like a portmanteau
but her half was a deceitful equal
left vexed and nonplussed
forbearing a mellifluous tone

Alcohol isn't going to help me move on when my heart is begging you to change your mind
There is not enough ***** that could make me forget what it's like to wake up to your face
No amount of whiskey could wash the taste of you
And drinking beer...
Well drinking beer was all we ever did

angry red marks
for your angry red past
with a sliver of your heart
yea you’re tearing it apart

Truth be told it's similar to those little notes out mothers left in our lunchboxes.
We never notice them until they're gone.
They were just an ordinary piece of paper with swirly writing that was difficult to decipher.
Almost as if they're the full stops at the end of sentences we only notice once we read back over and they're not there
That's how I only noticed that you're not here now when you once were everywhere.

It's a combination of the two
Of the loss and the pain
I'm almost out of tears
I'm almost out of rain
I'm coughing up the moments
I'm coughing up the laughs
I'm holding onto fragments
Of a deep and somber past

It's funny the concept of forever
Eternity
A lifetime
Day by day forming the rest of our lives
No longer intertwined

Is this the rest of my life?
Hands ticking, passing the time
Brush those teeth, part your hair right
One large sip, frozen in mind

Is this the rest of my life?
Hands ticking, passing the time
You say maybe, I say fine
Trap my sorrow, hold me tight

Why do the monsters hide away,
till my heart’s decided it’s time to play

Why do whispers slither past,
a brain that’s convinced it’s never going to last

And why does the chorus yell for you,
when I’ve already decided we’re practically through

For someone to say I don't know you could be pretty accurate
I don't know what you do in your spare time
I don't know a lot about your friends
Hell I don't even remember the name of your college
But what I do remember is how you like the colour peach
It's an absurd word
And an even more absurd colour choice if you ask me
I also know that you can't stand it when I have mehndi on my hands but you still give into kissing me
You say it smells horrible
And that it's stupid
But you still keep me in your arms even after complaining about it
So why am I not in your arms now when everything is relatively okay
Isn't this what we've been waiting for
Because we favour the sad songs over the happy ones
Our chemistry is fuelled by the complexity of our scenario
The day we lose it
Is the day we lose each other
Simplicity was never our forte

to carve lines in your skin
hurting less than my whims
my instinct unmatched
for the words I never sing

if you convince me of a story
i’ll fall deep into your core
actions scream louder
than the world I beg for

longer apart than ever together
caught in moments
bittersweet weather
true to form
am calls
cutting the magic
ending your hold

Philosophical on a scorching day
Write your thoughts, wasted away
Won't you share them with me?
To be what you want and not what you need
Maybe both
Maybe hope
Odd enough to be your number one?
The art of survival has left me undone

I smell like roses
taste like chocolate
because a fragrance can be a cure
joy and sorrow are equal transactions
in situations of silence
two eyes are stars
like stories are illusions
with blisters on your soul

k.g.

These half written stories
And half written goodbyes
And without the missing chapters
I'm just a lost stanza
A pretty flute solo
With a robust cello
Conjoining factors and hazardous laws
The pain and your breath falling together
If only it were as simple as a lone wolf
One times zero equals nothing
Wouldn't you know

And I'm really an hour ahead and you're in a state of denial
Your words laced with the remains of sober thoughts
But it's the stench of the truth that pulls through
Reminding
But leaving me lost in translation
Like those misplaced love songs
And stolen letters
Never reaching their intended place of acceptance
A broken limb being held together with string but what you really need is a shotgun
Only it's one with too few bullets
Those bullets that hurt but never ****

You're like a few hundred grains of salt
Make it a thousand
Stuck in my crevices
After a long day of you
Of your thoughts
Your brain
The way that your hands taste
Stuck in remains as I trudge home at the end of the day

the sun doesn't shine for just one person
but the moon sets only for you
the stars whisper secrets
giving you something to believe in
the wind howls, you can do this too

I whisper in the wind
Searching for the sun to win
I’m a pretty sunflower
Won’t you pick me for your whims

I’m full of stories that I’ll never wanna tell
They’ll discourage my daughter from loving herself
Full of ones touch that I’m not sure I want back
A damaged armour, far beyond cracked

its the burning after the cut
the sweet sensation that's tinged with sour regret
and you're lost out there in a different place
its a compass though
reminding you, you're not too far from home
however home is broken skin
and a lack of explanations
in every escape
you become far less obvious
watering a garden
that died last winter

Nature can survive without us
But we need nature
Just like you can survive without me
But I can't survive without you
Which renders you first
Tying in with the consequences of actions
And the significance
The biggest shift in demographics
However heart-centred they may be
A political right for me to say go
But you to say no
To outpost your lies
And join a revolution
But you're breaching my civil rights

Forever was real when it left your lips
you meant every breath you let into me
With an open heart and,
an open mind

Do I have faith in time
in the absence of a damaged mind

The thoughts of you keep me up at night
waiting on summer and a shining light

You were the sun
I was the grass
You made me greener
then left me in the dark

And I think I saw you flash before my eyes.
And constrict me from breathing.
Shutting off my lungs.
It hurt so much.
And its like my heart is a guitar because you’re constantly plucking the strings
Its driving me insane.

Now please don’t let me fall
Because we both know I’ll drown
There’s no easy way out

I can barely see the skyline
Its fading baby
You’re fading away
If I leave do you think you’ll stay
And I can’t find the words to finish this
But goodbye means forever