Never leave me in a place you can find
Hang up your curtains to shield me from the sun
I am your darkest secret
You better keep me in a place you can’t find
Never find me bleached from the sun
I am your darkest secret
Don’t let me rest in your head
Bury me in the ground instead
I am your darkest secret
Don’t let me ever be found

Honestly
I don’t understand
Why the hell you give a ****
Let them think whatever
They probably don’t even do
I’m sorry
But for most
There are things
More important
Than you

I know I might never have you
That you might never be mine
But in my head we have adventures
We travel the world
And we lie singing in your bed
Staring up at the ceiling
Where we have painted stars
To remember that time we slept outside
Or was that just in my head?

I know I might never have you
But that doesn’t stop me from dreaming
Or quietly whispering your name
When no one is around to hear
It doesn’t stop these cravings I have for you
It doesn’t stop my fingers from itching
Or stop me from wanting to run my fingers through your hair
It doesn’t stop my curiosity of what you smell like
But really, I would be happy just breathing the same air

I know I might never have you
That you might never be mine
But that doesn’t stop me from dreaming about you all the time

I’m drowning
I swear
I’m drowning
I’m drowning in the essence of you
Thoughts of you
Are weighing me down
Like anchors
Making it impossible
To escape
The deep waters I’m in

I don’t love you anymore,
but
the echo
is still there
from when I told you I did.

Empty sky filled with smoke
No more bursts of light
Suicidal snowflakes tumbling down
hitting tired ground
It's last year's funeral
This year's birth
The sun will shine again
Even though it hurts

I want to enjoy
the world
before
we ruin
it.

You’re an ever present ghost
Haunting my mind
Rushing pictures of you
Making me blind

Thoughts of you
Paint my dreams
Making ever present pieces of art
The melody of you
Beating in my heart

I’m not a stalker
I’m not
I just monitor your little green Facebook dot

I keep waiting for a sign
That you'll someday be mine
But all I see is you on her Facebook timeline

They told me the tale of a fairytale place
Filled with a beauty I had yet to face
The most harmonic tunes one would ever hear
And as many butterflies you’d like, my dear
Everything tasted better than your favorite ice cream
A more wonderful place than one could ever dare dream
I climbed up the ladder into the sky above
On my quest to find some infinite love

The clouds, they darkened, I let out a scream
Oh no I thought, it’s not what it seem
The lies, they haunted me to my core
A bit ashamed I’ll admit I swore
They told me the tale of a fairytale place
I was sorry to find out: it was not the case

A dragon appeared, spreading fire
I was filled with a fear that’ll never tire
But as the warrior I thought of myself to be
I knew I should not, could not try to flee
Looking around, I found a thrown away sword
Advancing towards the dragon, I tripped on a cord
Inspecting further I realized it was a chain
The dragon, in fact a prisoner in pain

I freed the dragon, making it tame
Unfortunately, the clouds still aflame
Rushing down the ladder there was no time to dwell
I couldn’t care less of how I ended up in hell
But I was happy; I had made a new friend
Surprisingly this is The End

They told me the tale of a fairytale place
Filled with a beauty I had yet to face
The most harmonic tunes one would ever hear
And as many butterflies you’d like, my dear
Everything tasted better than your favorite ice cream
A more wonderful place than one could ever dare dream
I climbed up the ladder into the sky above
On my quest to find some infinite love

Fall is beautiful
Every leaf
Cracking
Breaking with color
Exploding
Like fireworks

I feel invisible
I am on mute
Nothing I say seems to register
I am not interesting
I am nothing
I am just a filler
Filling out some leftover space
I am the introns in your mRNA
I just happen to be there
I just happen to exist
But I might as well could not
I'll be invisible 'til I rot

Three dimensions
360 degrees
A rainbow of color
A bang and a sizzle
Leaving only a cloud of empty smoke
A bottomless hole of nothingness

My plants are dying
I have lost my perception of time
It moves like the water I keep forgetting when to give them

Sometimes I feel myself staring into the darkness
And I can’t remember the last time I blinked
Or how long I’ve been there

I can’t answer the simple question of what I’ve been doing all day
Because I can’t remember if what happened,
Happened today or if it happened at all

I can’t tell my imagination from reality
I don’t know what is really happening
And what is just a dream

So, I think my plants will keep dying
But maybe some of them
Will even outlive me

The future lies before us
untouched like fresh snow.

I will say goodbye to the walls
And everything they have ever seen
I will say goodbye to the floor
And all the feet that ever walked on it
I will say goodbye to the lamp hanging from the ceiling
And all the light it ever shed
I will say goodbye to the house I grew up in
Without knowing if it is for *forever

Your eyes
I used to think they were grey
I didn’t see it
The black and white rainbow
The sulking mist
The cold ice
The foggy sky
The dancing moonlight
The filthy snow
I didn’t see the beauty
In bleak, depressing things
Till I fell for you

Waking up
Hands covered in blood
Chest aching
Nothing but a hole left
Seems like I
Drunk on dreams
Ripped it out
And mailed it to you