They always met at his place
Because he didn’t know
He never expected
That when it ended
His walls would whisper her name

He didn’t know
That the absence of her voice
Would echo and bounce
Magnifying the space
To what would feel
Like infinite expanses

He would never have imagined
That the light
Would change
Fade and disappear
As if she had brought it with her in her eyes

They always met at his place
Never knowing they would ruin it
By making it theirs

I adore the lightness of your eyelashes
How they are the moment before takeoff
I adore your laugh
How it bounces like a cluster of balloons flying away
I adore your hands
How they electrocute me with warmth
I adore your arms
How they are strong enough to never let go
I adore your eyes
How they aren’t just a window to your soul, but to the entire universe
I adore you
Like the moon loves the sun
I adore you
Of a consuming caliber
I adore you
Like the summer needs just a hint of rain
*I adore you
with
every single fiber
of my being.

I am my own best friend
And my worst enemy
I love myself more than anybody else loves me
But I also hate myself more than anybody else could hate me
I am the gardener who helps me grow
But I am also the inconsiderate ******* who tramples me down
Without even looking back

I forget to eat
I forget to sleep
I forget to take care of myself

But I can't forget you

I don’t want a fireworks-love.
I don’t want that burst of color
I don’t want a love like that.

I want a love that grows like a tree
Timid
Careful
Blossoming
Big
Great
Steady
A love that lasts a thousand years
Roots deep
Strong and beautiful

I found someone
who didn't remind me of him
Someone much better
If only he wanted me

I’m sure
If you wanted me
I would be yours

I wish someone could take a flashlight
And illuminate
This void
So that maybe
I could see
That this
This isn’t a void at all
This is a storage unit

I looked up at the ceiling
and imagined the stars

as if I was lying on the ground
with the universe around me

As if the wounds
and words
never existed at all

I need to see your love
And I don't know how to ask for it
because I don't know if it is there
Sei la ragione di ogni mio sorriso
I love you to the very core of my being
Can you say the same?

Walking on a catwalk made of mustard leafs
Under the polluted sky illuminated by the yellow light of man-made stars
Bullets of water piercing my skin, not reaching my bulletproof soul
Every step and every heartbeat in time to the music pumping in my ears
Nothing can destroy me
Nothing
I
Am
Invincible

I want to kiss somebody else tonight
So that your lips aren't the last ones I've tasted
I bet every memory of me has already been replaced
That you have already been touched in the places that for a short period of time were mine
I know that your memory will linger like a tattoo under my skin
But I am dying for a cover up

I miss singing
I miss singing at the top of my lungs
So loud the whole neighborhood hears
I miss singing
Now that I live in this house that isn’t my home
A place that never seems to have enough air
For me to even breathe
I miss singing
I really do

In your heart
I see fire
I see gold
I see stories gone untold

In your eyes
I see secrets
I see lies
I see everything you despise

In your mind
I see anger
I see love
I see all the things you’ve ever dreamed of

I see everything that you are
I see everything you want
I see everything
Except me

I rearrange the furniture in my head
So that I can fit the boxes in.
It’s an enormous amount.
I am building towers,
But they are spilling over.
Your laughter is everywhere.
Everything you’ve ever said,
Spilled out on the floor.
Every time I’ve looked at you,
Cramped into too tight boxes
In a too full head.
I can't let anything go.

It is back
It's not supposed to be here
Why am I like this

I wish I was an otter
And that you were one too
You'd never drift away
We’d stay forever together
Always holding hands

I wrote you a letter
A love letter
I decided to send it
So that you would know
That somebody out there loves you
But I just couldn’t
Find
A
*******
Stamp

Kindness cannot be measured solely on its highest peak
Just like you don't measure the volume of an ocean solely on its depth
Anyone can be kind for a moment.
But what really, truly matters is the moments in between,
the absence of kindness
When a moment violently longs for kindness
and is met with nothing in return.
That is how you tell a waterfilled hole from an ocean.
True kindness is not broken with bursts of cruelty
It ripples but does not echo
True kindness is an uninterrupted stream

This is a time when
Words have lost their meaning
Jumbled together like a dismembered jigsaw puzzle
This is when
The melody in your head
has been replaced by noise
Nothing makes sense enough
To even be titled
As nonsense
This is when
lost
doesn't even begin to describe you

Let’s pretend
The thick layer of tape isn’t there
Covering up the cracks
On the newly manufactured heart

Let’s pretend
Until the tape
Yellows
And falls off
Like dead skin

You told me I wasn't broken
But then you acted like I was
Making it irrelevant if I was in the first place

I pretend I am in my mother’s womb
As I curl up into a ball under the covers
But it is a scary thought
Being born again
Fresh
And untainted
As if the moment I step outside the air will pollute me
And I’d have to live it all again

Lines have appeared on my face
It's uncomfortable
Evidence of a life lived
Even though it has just begun

And I wish that I when I'm old
And the lines have deepened
And my skin is sagging
I'll look in the mirror
And see only a life well lived

This song is about realizing the sun is shining
That deep down there inside you is a calm
There is a happy
There is a great big world
And the sun is shining
On you
And everything you’ll ever do
This song, it is for you
It exists only for you to go out and grab life by the shoulders
And live it
Live it
Live
Live your life
This song is telling you to live your life
Because you can
And you want to
Because you are living
Your life

I have more people
Better friends
Than ever before
But not having you
Or even a part of you
Makes me feel so ******* alone

When I was little
my mama
told me
not to move,
to stay
at the same spot

She told me
I must stay still
if I ever get lost

She told me to wait
until
somebody finds me

so
that's what i've been doing
ever since

They danced to the music
And there was no question about it
They were electricity
Sparks in the sky
Lightning
They were fire
Crackling beautifully
Warming fingers in a tiny cabin
Raging in a forest
They were rain
Calm and pure
Smattering on the windows
They were the essence of life
They were happiness
They were love

As the world crumbled around us
I found you
and you found me

I never knew happiness had this many shades

I want to pour everything I am on a paper or a canvas
but I can’t get my hands to move in the way they are supposed to
I can’t get my mind to focus
My head is filled with blurry photographs
It’s like somebody has short circuited the synapses in my brain
Something isn’t right
and I’ve got a feeling
that  it's
*me

I want to print out my poetry and paste it on the walls
Let them scream my emotions
In swirling patterns of fading text

I want to rip off the ceiling and sleep under the stars
Watch them glow like I’ve always wanted to glow
In a sea of midnight blue

I want to lie in damp grass and watch the clouds passing by
Fleeing across the sky while it catches on fire
In the most outrageous of ways

I want the music in my ears to be drowned out and silenced
By the music radiating from my soul