For every day with a bright sun and a clear sky there seems to be a gloom reserved just for me.  In this familiar darkness I see all too well the demons within and without.

And so I wander through every day with a clouded mind as if in a maze
and every night reciting a prayer to mother pain and father torment.

The world is crazy in a perfect balance of naive non sequitur and delusional grandeur and I the tail that left the dog for the hat that just got madder

I admit I'm not good at math no matter what I try
Me + You should equal 2 but now it seems we're 5
Without you I am less than one, I can't take you from I
At least there's one I do real good and that is multiply

I'd love to be an eagle, soaring through the sky!  Breathing in the heavens, an ever watchful eye.  Surfing all the currents, wings beating strong and proud  Witnessing a sunrise, high above the clouds.

I'd love to be a dolphin, gliding in the sea.  Jumping over waves, playing gleefully.  Racing with my pod full of life and song, chasing after sunsets to see what lies beyond.

I'd love to be a rabbit, I'd love to be a bear.  I'd love to be an owl with an ever watchful stare.  I'd love to be a monkey, swinging all around. I'd love to be a horse, racing on the ground!

I'd love to be these things and the greatest part of all, is knowing that I will, when asleep I fall

All around me, darkness
I’m feeling so enclosed
emptiness and silence
feelings left exposed

A softly spoken whisper
my inner voice protests
There must be more to life
Then this lonely emptiness

It seems it is illegal to have a love like mine

The police went to question me and of our love I told
and broke the poor mans heart with a tale of love so bold
My lawyer came to give me council and asked me to be frank
I told him all about you dear and the poor guys heart just sank
And finally to the judge we went and I gave him my guilty plea
for it's true how much I love you and how much you love me
I spoke for what seemed days to cover all our past
From the first day we met, until I held you last
Finally the judge called to me and said that I must stop
for the sake of every broken heart from his back to the cop

Do you seek comfort from the rain
or dance before the coming storm
have restless slumber, hidden pain
or misery that would be no more,
fallen skies broken dreams
or hopes for something out of reach
shed a tear or brim with laughter
let your actions be your speech

Soft as a mothers glow, this star so warm and bright
from a place too far away to hold, yet warms a summers night
as evening falls to sleep it goes this stoic friend of mine
upon a new day she unfolds, hello my sweet sunshine

Many are the things I would say to you
if I knew I would not have you tomorrow

I would hold your hand
and laugh and cry
and share in your joys and sorrows

And as the sun sets tonight
if I whisper just right
I hope my words you will hear

I will always love you
and in my heart
you will always be near

I loved you for your broken soul, your frightened eyes and lonely tears
I offered you my shallow pride, my hidden scars and jealous fears

I fought with you and yelled at you all the while my eyes crying out Why can't you just hold me one more time?!!  

But you are not here, only the scars you left behind.