I didn't want you to leave
What happened last night
makes me want to scream
Why couldn't I have just
let things be?

You're everything I want
and have been wanting
Tell me why I had to go
and mess things up?
Heartbreak loves me.

Did you know I'm slowly rotting?
Just wasting away, hurting
How could I have made such a mistake?
I'm sorry.
Heartbreak loves me.

I'm grinding my teeth
trying not to think
about how you're
s t o m p i n g
all about the house.

It's as if I'm a mouse
and you're some kind
of
g i a n t

and all I want is a home
but you're too used
to living alone

So you try to stomp me out.

I'll settle down for what
I dont expect
I'll just have to be happy
Where I'm
Only settle for
The guy who wont
play rough
Games
I dont want my heart
In tiny pieces
If only you would
Be satisfied with
My attitude
My wants and needs
You still don't see
How I still have you
As a crush
I'll know who wont
Pressure me
Push me off a cliff
I don't want to have the
Feeling
Someone is stabbing
In my neck

Not even the purest of Jellies could save me now
okay, maybe if they stung me or caused me to drown..
I'm fading away inside and out all I wanted was to
w o r k   t h i n g s   o u t
but now.. I just want to make the pain go away
even if that means that I cannot stay- all of you
are better off without me anyways I'm just a..

(10 w x 9)


A glass of wine waits
beside a tureen,
..............where soup
......................

~~~~~

with twisted noodles
of choices
and reluctance
is
slowly simmering.

~~~

there's no fire,
yet,
ladle goes on,
stirring within
........amidst

~

quivers...
rivers of fear
..........of paths
circumstances may lead to...

~~~

to stagnate?
or rise from inner swamp?
::::: a recurring
dilemma

::::::::::

losing
people...things
most loved,
derails intentions,
w
  e
a
  k
    e  n
           s
     existing wall...

~~~

faces...voices,
wisdom gained,
all reside in
one's comfort zone

****
to move on,
or stall?
when?
tomorrow?

no!

not...yet...

****

doi­ng    n o t h i n g,
this humid evening
just swimming
~
~~~
~~~~~
in dark
waters.

~~~~~
~~~
~



Sally

Copyright May 31, 2015
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan