But you come over one last time
And we dance like it's a crime
Then we run out of air and we die, we just die

And I crawl out of our coffin
And dance all over your grave
And the sun rises but it's too late, it's too late.

We don't love us anymore
All our screaming fits are over
I watched you cry til you were sober
And that's exactly what we are
Sober and over

Everyone said it wasn't easy
But the truth is, the lies were very cozy
And your fake smiles made me feel less lonely
But the truth is bound to die
I'm just alone

Night terrors
A flash of  light in the mirror
Night terrors
Is it too late to turn on the lights

I'm scared and I know it
The shape outside the window
Knows it

Could it be,
Could it be
real?

Something about the way
You talk love live
Makes me jealous
Of a life I haven't had

Of a life I could never have.

Loud voice
Clearly spoken

Anyone can see
She's the one

The Chosen one
The one I chose to be

She is nervous
A flit of eyes
Wrangling hands

She searches for comfort
Music
Stranger's faces

But something is coming
She does not know what to do

Change
is a silent warning
that lights up her eyes

what am i now
am i someone you can live without

i wish i'm not
someone you can just forget about

i hope someday
you look back in the past
and remember me with a burning clarity
the way i stared into your eyes
like you were the one tethering me to this earth

but you let go
and i flew away
down the earth down the ocean

i am gone
and you let me be
and i hope you remember

i'm falling again
i'm falling
into abyss
wonder hands will grab me
raise me
but then
i'd be too far gone

i'm walking a fine line
between individuality and insanity

She likes her coffee
Sweeter than hot chocolate
She likes her men rough
But in the end they're the ones on their knees
She likes her women smart
So they walk away first

She has so many numbers on her phone
But she hardly ever calls
She hates being alone
But she feels so alone in a crowd

3am, she's on her feet
Fist clenched eyes closed
She wonders if she should jump

Depression,
her name is

Things pile up
They weight on you
You finish something to only find there's another

Why should I follow my responsibilities
Aren't they supposed to be for me?
And shouldn't I be happy?

But I guess work
Is the only way to keep asking yourself questions
And truly think for oneself

But right now

I want to go to sleep and not wake up

I want my lover to be someone I can trust
Someone who'll makes me smile and laugh out loud
Someone who'll never judge me
Someone who'll always be on my side
Someone even when we fight, sleeps next to my side

I want a lover like me

Yesterday I went to sleep
Dreaming of all the things I could write

And now the pen is in my hand.

But why do my thoughts
refuse to budge

From you

Maybe it is too late
Maybe I'm not cut out to be yours
But I can write
and I can feel
and isn't that important?

I sometimes feel like
I don't know what I want
Which is why I scream at the world
When a simple question would suffice

They speak of families uprooted hearts broken and pizza deliveries canceled

Everyone says I speak nonsense
Sorry
But it's the only language I speak

You love me
So you're afraid of me

But I don't know you
And I don't know love

So I'm going to hurt you
And blame it on your love

I am afraid
Terrified of the future to come

Sometimes I stop
In the middle of the street
Wondering where I'm headed

But as I stand there
I know nothing's going to change
If I don't move forward

So I just wander past
The lights the people the places

And hope for a world
Where I can stop and rest
And not fear for the future

Uncertain
She feels
A little chilly on my tongue

A drop of rain
How do I know
If the storm is coming

Gray murky
A puddle of tears
How can I step over

Sky's blue
As always
What if I go blind

I fret
My feet are
Always
Cold

I wish for an empty promise
I wish to hear it spoken out loud
I wish I didn't know it was a lie

I wish somedays I wouldn't cry
I wish those days I would laugh instead
I wish the world was a better place
I wish the people knew what it was like to be me

I wish for a whole mind
I wish for a fuller heart
I wish I wasn't as insane as they thought

And
I wish my wishes would come true

I'm lost.
I'm just so lost
Anxiety kicks in
And I overthink every breath
If my heart sinks to the floor
You'll throw it away, won't you?

Thanks a lot
Boyfriend

You don't have to do anything special for special occasions,
because normal is the most precious kind of special.

Sometimes it hurts;
Letting Time pass

I know too many strangers
My existence is rather unsure
If I die, will they cry?

I love too many strangers
I give them everything I have
Only if they know
If only they knew

No one knows me
I am a pale figure in the dark
Light has always passed me by

No one loves me
No one does
No one will

So I'll fade
away

Your hands are cream
They rub into me
Filling my skin with content

Your eyes are chocolate
They melt my gaze
My mouth goes dry with want

Your heart is jelly
I wish to take a bite
Would you let me,
even if my teeth leave a mark?

I'm tired
I say

She looks at me;
scared

I admit
I know where her mind is
Insecure, lost, and trembling with fear

Fear of rejection

Because I have been there before

But I still
turn away

Goodbye
I mutter

Sitting there
Embraced in all the noise
My heart was sinking

Again

Don't you know
Don't you know the power you have over me

A word can make me drown
A look can make me lost
A touch can leave me breathless

And I dare to chase you

My heart aches

For a road not taken
For a decision not made
For a life never had

They keep me up at nights

The glimpses
The laughter

Of the future I will never have

And I regret
And I indure
And I hope

I will live the right life.

If a dream comes true
I won't be here
Anymore

I'll be away to somewhere
Somewhere everyone smiles when the sun rises
Somewhere they don't bother to know my name
Somewhere beautiful

I'll leave everything,
everyone

Because
it's a dream come true

Step up
Into the flight
Her lips tastes of tangerine
-Thrill while it lasts

End comes
and way down
I call Him, who else
-I missed you

Ground was
so far away
And home was
-What's this

Threw Hope
in the bin
next to
His broken Heart
-It's not what you think

yeah but,
It Is.

the Truth;
that we never
had a Chance
-Goodbye.