dear best friend,
    i miss you

love,
ex best friend

even listening to songs
at 3 am in the morning
doesn't help me forget you ;

everytime i visit you
i feel homesick ;

i don't know if i'am the only one
who ends up broken and sad
after anything happens

i don't know if i'am the only one
who stays up crying all night
and struggling to put on a smile in the morning

i don't know if i'am the only one
who overthinks things
and messes the wild thoughts running in my head

i don't know if i'am the only one
who ends up feeling used and
drained of all love that one can give

i don't know if i'am the only one
with a broken heart which is still beating
to be broken by someone someday

i don't know if i'am the only one ;

i just have a little hope
that i meant something to you
even though i know
i don't want to be a fool

and
suddenly
we
were













lost.....

i would spend my life
watching beautiful
sunsets with you ;

my thoughts are
wandering between
my deadly dreams and
beautiful nightmares ;

too much truth to be told
but feelings are left unsaid
voice drowns with my thoughts
and finally the darkness consumes me ;

I've wasted so much time
between waiting and
wondering ;

he had himself
permanently
etched in her
memory

no matter what,
no time,
no hate
would erase
the part of him
that he left behind
in her mind ;

let the pain and hurt
overtake everything
until you are left alone with
the numbness ;

i think the distance
we have,still
keeps us together ;

its surprising that my heart

is being be crushed,
crumpled,
broken,
torn and tortured
and burnt to ashes
inevitably

and it still beats ;

to the old crinkled paper,

i wish i could pour out
all of the bottled up feelings,
my messed up emotions and
my sinful thoughts to you ;

love,
the bleeding pen

long
lonely
hours
of
heart
breaking ;

I'm rare to find
but easy to lose

I'm hard to read
if I'm the one you choose ;

i can take a minute
and realize
the damage that you have caused
to me
but it will
take forever
for me
to wrong you;

Sometimes you have all of it in your head,
But your feelings are just too sad
That your thoughts drown
With everything else
And you can’t find
The right way to
Say things that
You’re feeling;

Dear friends,
I’m simply glad for meeting each one of you;

And I want you to love me even in the situation when you can’t;