She's the type of girl

That would make me go from
cold pizza for breakfast
to
raisin bran and almond milk.

Its fading.

Like the words on the
love letters
that you wrote to me.

It's fading.

Like the end of
our song
which we would leave on repeat.

It's fading.

Like the color of
our hair
as we've grown old together.

It's fading.

The powerful, passionate beats of
your heart
as you cling to life.

It's fading.

The reason for my life
and I just don't know
if I can do it without you.

It's fading.

My hope that you'll
pull through
and that I will be able to carry on.

Sweatpants on,
A Tribe Called Quest
make my ears
blessed.

Coffee in my hand,
smile on my face
no worries in my mind
means I'm in first place

It's Friday
and I'm not tryin' to boast
but I feel the best
from coast to coast.

I write until I tune my head
with my heart.
Words,
are the knobs
that twist my heart strings to the right
tune.

As the light shown through the blinds,
I realized that thats exactly what I was.
I was blinded by your facade
and it took the mistake of a lifetime
to see
that you're not the one for me.

Coffee with creamer
awakes this dreamer.

Mornings are just so calm
listening to the birds sing their songs
and the winds declare a Psalm.

It is in the morning
that I don't see any mourning.

There is your creation,
new, everyday
and it is here I will say:
My life is yours, have your way.

Lately,
the words haven't been coming.
It's like I've closed off my mind,
to look into the world deeper.

Its torture,
to the poet.
When they long to be inspired,
but the world looks grey.

I'm a hopeless romantic,
with no one to romance.

I hangup my charm
like a boxer hanging up gloves.

Because you hurt me,
I gave you my all and you took it,
never giving in return.

I'm left
hoping,
wanting,
desiring,
and I don't know when
I'll be able to love freely again.

I've been seeing angels
and I'm not afraid.

I've been seeing angels
and they don't lead me astray.

Their beauty invites me
and excites me.

Do not despise being single.
Revel in it.
You must know who you are
BEFORE
you can ever truly know someone else.

I search the crowds
looking for your face.

A glimpse here
a quick look there.

In a room filled with beautiful people
how do I find the one my soul longs to mate with?

I need a soul shower.
I feel laden,
tired,
and,
yucky.

A physical nap won't help,
I need to rest at the feet
of my
Good Shepherd.

Biology gets me in trouble.
spring rolls around and I’m…
restless.

Fighting singleness
like a blanket too small
that doesn’t cover my feet.

Pull the blanket away from your face, stupid.
You’re fine.
You’re not content because you are seeing the 
problem and not the purpose.

The morning is still night
as I awake.
Steps to the bathroom
I take.

Cold water
awakens my soul
Seeing you sleeping,
reminds me i’m whole.

I kneel by you
and pray.
Thanking Him,
for you and today.

Then I kiss your forehead
as you lay their sleeping.
Realizing their was purpose,
in all those nights of weeping.

I waited,
for you.
We are one,
no longer two.

I am tied to God’s victorious chariot.
He rides into the World as our champion,
and I,
am a bondservant and son.

Some days I am carried along by His horses
and some days I run alongside.
Some days, I just want to stop.
“Oh God, how much longer must we live in this fallen world?”
“Until, ALL have heard of my name.”

So I stand up, brush off the dirt
wipe away the tears
and look ahead to see those who don’t know Him,
and the tears fall again.

Why,
oh why?!

Do I constantly
seek the shade of darkness
when Your Son brings me so much warmth.

"I give you mountains,
to raise you up."

But Jesus,
I'm so tired.

"I'll carry you.
For I did not come
to be served,
but to serve."

So I rest in your arms
as your grace
carries me
to my resting place.

Yahweh
the God of Heaven, Earth, and Space
I choose,
to see your views.

I saw your aunt today
and it made me feel some time of way.
Like the way I felt
when I knew I'd found a family.

Why'd you take that from me?
Why'd you ruin the love we had?
You couldn't be open with me
and I couldn't open you up.

Now I'm stuck in meloncholy
I didn't just lose you,
I lost us,
I lost them,
I lost me.

The mountain
in its strength
Reminds me of your faith
solid, immovable,
And rising high towards the heavens

The field
In its beauty
reminds me of your eyes
green with hints of yellow
And full of life unhindered.

The sun
In its majesty
Reminds me of your smile
Bright and warm
And how it lights up a thousand rooms

You are the woman I adore
And my best friend.
You are proverbs thirty one
and my shotgun rider.
When asked to describe you
in one word I'd say
"Everything"
Yellowstone doesn't even
come close
To you.

That smoke fills your lungs
because that love stung.
Coffee and tobacco on your tongue,
because the next morning is still too young.

You can’t stop thinking about that boy,
who treated you like a toy.
Sweetheart, don’t you see
that this isn’t how it was meant to be.

You are royalty, and God made you that from creation.
That’s been the case from your faith's foundation.
Don’t follow this culture’s deviation,
For it is in Me, that you'll find your restoration.

I’m tellin’ you, as your "imaginary friend."
Don’t let your hope come to an end.
This heart ache won’t be a trend,
because your heart, I will mend.

Yeah this pain may sting for a time,
but out of this hole you will climb.
Not by your own strength, oh no.
But by mine.

See I’m more than what you think,
I’m here with you as you smoke and drink.
I’m not going away, its okay to blink,
I’m your God, and I AM not going to shrink.

So drink your coffee and put out that cigarette,
I’m not done with you, you will see it yet.
I love you so much, the best is what you’ll get,
Let’s walk together, unlike that boy, I’m no threat.

Your love,
was like a rose in the concrete cracks
breaking through the monotony,
and bringing hope to my hollow heart.