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Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

a haunting

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

MacKenzie Warren

she dances with the devil
she's a forbidden thing
a forbidden people
she converses with the master of manipulation
quite good at the language of lies
cloaking herself in kindness, in sweetness, and in light
she's watching you always, the things you say and write
waiting for the day your heart is not shining so bright
and when she sees you are hurting
she waits and waits
until the day you finally break
the day you collapse to the floor
and feel like the world is too much to bare anymore
then she walks right in, right through your front door
she uses your hurt and picks at your scars
she haunts you and haunts you
she's the shadow on the floor
she's a demon disguising herself among people
she spent too long dancing with pure evil

#evil #haunting #sad #hurt #ex #prose #poetry #ghost #demon

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Demonic

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Brianna Duffin

Demonic

I was raised in Darkness
So Darkness I became
You wanted to leave me in a world of Darkness
So now I belong only to the world of Darkness
I hope you’re happy
Because I finally am.
Cross my heart and hope to die,
Darkness is my master and my home
Because I’ve never had another
And I know comforts in Darkness.
And as for the man, my partner as I think of him
He saw Beauty in my Darkness
I saw Darkness in his Beauty
We belong together.
Which leaves me in a good place, you realize.
The only thing left is you.
You aren’t my mama, Darkness is my mama.
But you abandoned me. Big mistake.
We have unfinished business, you realize.
And I so hate loose ends.
But wasn’t that how you saw me?
A loose end to tie up?
A piece of evidence to destroy?
Don’t ever try to touch me,
Don’t even think about trying to get inside my head
It’s much too dark for you in there.
I’m not a baby anymore,
I’m a beast full of Beauty and armed with Darkness.

This poem appears in full here: https://medium.com/@briannarduffin/demonic-26584d6118a5

#demons #darkness #family #independence #confrontation #truth

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

I'm a Work in Progress

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Thomas

I'm a Work in Progress

I am a work in progress
Sometimes every step forward
I counter with two in regress

My insecurities come out
At my weakest times
When I feel trapped, insulted
Blindsided by my own reactions
They never show any signs

Assess before replying
I need to step back, take a breath
Instead of lashing, and yelling,
Giving stares of death

I am surrounded by great supports
Those that forgive my weaknesses
Pick me back up when I've tripped over my own landmines

To them I'm eternally thankful
Their kindness I can never repay

I am a work in progress
Doing my best to make them
And myself proud of me everyday

#sobriety #spiritualism #inspirational

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

4am

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Tehreem

4am

I lay here between cold sheets
Wide awake in dark room
While you are drowned in sleep
I can only envision your face
Saying your name on repeat
Broke as a broken record playing
Yearning for your arms to encompass
Like an addict on rebounds
A question with all wrong answers
Psychedelic story I lived you
Held too close to let you go
You are saturated in my bones
Your thoughts invading my mind
Razor sharp words ripping me apart

A friend of Misery.

#yearning #dark #mind #question #razor #cold #insomniac #close #addict #psychedelic

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Poem 06

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

craft of the bitch

Poem 06

did you really love me?
or were you too busy
making out with white lines
forced by the hunger
starvation
to feel something.
anything.
i'm sorry
i know its selfish of me but i
can't help but wish i could've been what you longed for.
and maybe i'll never be.
maybe it'll always be this circle of me loving
you leaving
me justifying and the
both of us lying to cover up the painful truth
that we’re both
dying.
you from a lackluster life
me from hypothermia.
cold from your shoulder
cold from your glassy eyed stare
cold from too many nights staying up alone
blood shot eyes
shaky hands
scribbling notes madly
not mad with passion
or love or even some
narcissistic desire to mark my spot before i burn out like the sun.
I write with pain
words ******* exploding out of me
making themselves known like an involuntary tic
lurching my body
my body ridding itself of a vile poison
of the vile words you put in my head in the first place
so you ask me why the hell am i still here.

and all i can say is that
i don't know.

i was hoping the saying blood is thicker than water

still counts
that maybe in some parallel universe
you could still be my mom
before your love for the ivory
took you away.

inspired by a cousins mother, an addict.

#addict #family #substance #abuse

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Story of a girl

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Namita Anna Givi

Story of a girl

There is a wave of sadness in her
But you wouldn’t see it
There is a dam of tears waiting to burst
But you wouldn’t see it
There is a dream suffocating within her
But you wouldn’t hear it
There is a confused soul crying for help
But you wouldn’t hear it

For more than riding the wave about to engulf
Or wipe the tears out to drown her life
Or revive the dreams off to die
She would rather keep up the façade of being strong
Die every moment than let the world see her weak.

#life #woman #sad #hope #realisation #strong #weak #tears #soul #philiosophy

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Downer

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

Aa Harvey

Downer

Downer

Grab me quickly before we fall,
I want to take you down with me.
I hate you and your version of love,
So you must share my agony.

I am on the ground because this is where you have put me;
Six feet under is where I am going soon.
You have burst open my rib-cage and driven me to insanity;
My heart is in your teeth now, you feast and I live in the gloom.

Kurt is talking, I am falling,
She is crawling and the angels are calling.
I am an eruption of feelings and a dead man walking;
You bring me down and my melancholy is my everything.

Pick me up out of the mud honey,
I am wasting away without you to care.
I am crying in my puddle of shame and you think this is funny?
I need you; I can’t live without you. Why so much despair!?

Hang me out to dry with the corpses,
I have nothing left to fear.
I have apathy for love and apathy for horses;
I hate everything you love, including me and why are you still here?

The rain continues to pour from every cloud
And hides the sunshine from this clown.
I look up at you from this downer I am under
And you can no longer stand to pick me up when I am down.

Tears don’t heal you; they only leave you feeling blue.
We used to have everything we could ever have needed
And now we are through?
The sun has exploded in front of my eyes
And I didn’t notice because I was crying.

(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

#love #down #hate #pain #death #depression #apathy #tears #me #ex

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

My Blind Heart (part 2)

Jun 2018 PEARL SMOKE

TheCatsOfAfrica Henry Blaise

My Blind Heart (part 2)

At the end of the day I am always the one in pains
The one crying
I am that lady who would prefer your lies than to get hurt by your truth
then when I find out about the truth I get mad at you for hiding it from me : I get hurt ... Yet I know I deserve better
I know the is a guy out there who know too much but not as much as he can hurt me
I think I have been pouring my affection on the wrong tree
and he has grown to always make me cry
I feel like am coursed... Cause though I know how much I am worth
Though you treat me ill
hurtful and cruel
My heart changes its destiny
I always cling back to you
I still follow my blind heart to your path
**** me to stop loving you cause
My blind heart will pull me towards you
forever!

I think that I am too Emotion to be in this body
I wrote in a female version of myself

#blood #hurts #love #lust #pain #aches #tears