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Dec 2019 · 191
saturday moring
Madalyn Dec 2019
i want to be your saturday morning coffee
Dec 2019 · 443
taunt
Madalyn Dec 2019
every touch was a taunt

your hand behind your back
palm up, touching
touching her hand, her back, her hair

i tried to look away but i couldn't help it
i am drawn to you
      like a moth to light
      like black & white

there is no grey in what i feel for you
Dec 2019 · 161
alt version
Madalyn Dec 2019
foggy concert lights echoed euphoria

dancing alone
dancing with him
in my mind,
we were one in that moment

so far apart, yet so close
a distant day dream

a dream we were at that concert together,
swaying to the melody, grasping on to each word like they meant something
like i meant something
like i could ever mean anything to him
Dec 2019 · 139
dance within your space
Madalyn Dec 2019
The fog in the lights echoed euphoria

You,
dancing to the beat of the drum in an open space

Me,
wanting  to dance within your space
Sway to the melody with your hand in mine
With your hand on my waist,
With your hand in the air
singing along to every word

If I closed my eyes it’s like we were

You,
standing there a few inches away
Me,
wanting so badly to grab your waist,
               your hand

and sing along to every word
May 2018 · 379
to the moon & back
Madalyn May 2018
Growing up your parents always made sure you knew that they loved you. Mom would walk up the stairs and say, “ Goodnight, i love you” and you would respond, “love you more” and a fight about who could possibly love the other more would endure.

These days, I know she loves me, but its not said as much. We don't fight about who says "i love you more" last.  She doesn't know me as well as she used to. She doesn't see what I’m going through. She’s blinded by the fact that she "loves me to the moon and back "

and she feels like that should be enough..
Apr 2018 · 468
I Wish It Was Me
Madalyn Apr 2018
I can't remember the exact words you uttered into my ear that night on the phone. All I remember is the feeling i got, i was giddy. I think you said, “my birthday wish is for you to get here now” but i also think maybe you said “yall” and i just hoped you meant me..
Madalyn Mar 2018
I’m scared that I’ll let you down
That I won’t be what you need me to be
I won’t be what you think I am
I’m scared that I could never be fully vulnerable with you, emotionally or intimately
So, I’ll take my cowardly heart and save you from the heartbreak that is bound to come out of this
love
Mar 2018 · 217
Love-less
Madalyn Mar 2018
Love
Love-less- lacking love in both the secular and the divine way
Love- who needs it
Love- who craves it
Love- who poured her heart out on the side of the road
Love- who mustered up the courage to say how she felt
Love- who, despite what her so called friends would think, fell for you
Love- who cries at night just thinking about all the opportunities she had
Love
Sep 2017 · 232
The River Styx
Madalyn Sep 2017
Wanting you would be a death wish but
I'd cross the river styx and look the devil in the eyes
just to know your every thought...
Sep 2017 · 189
The Moon
Madalyn Sep 2017
Maybe I trusted the moon too much. She always made me believe things were gonna be okay. But she spends her whole life chasing the sun, she can’t know what true love means.
Sep 2017 · 320
The Secret of the Universe
Madalyn Sep 2017
It was the first time I ever heard your voice over the phone.
I grabbed the phone, confidently, but when I put it to my ear, hands shaking, I heard you breathing on the other side and for a split moment I had forgotten all the words in the English language. There was something intimate about it. Almost like you were whispering the secret of the universe into my ear.
Feb 2017 · 1.2k
Will I Ever Know Self Love
Madalyn Feb 2017
On the 7 ways to make your partner fall in love with you list one stuck out in my mind. "Stare into each other's eyes for four minutes without saying a word," it read. So here I sit, staring into the eyes of my reflection in the mirror hoping that maybe if I am able to stare long enough I will begin to love myself. I'll notice my favorite attributes and learn to love my flaws. However, within 30 seconds of locked eyes, my vision was blurred as I began to sob. Within those 30 seconds I came to the realization that I do not love myself and I'm finding it hard to believe that I ever will.
Jan 2017 · 490
Arms Around My Neck
Madalyn Jan 2017
All of our awkward glances never seem to go unnoticed. In a city I barely knew, with people I barely knew, you made your move. At the time, I was nervous and worried about the gossip that would endure so I rejected your kiss and terribly regret it.

Now you seem to be unable to make eye contact except for that night we stayed up til 5 am talking about life

So maybe I'll just avoid your gaze so that maybe I can catch my breath and make a move myself but that was until I saw another girl's arms around your neck and wanted so badly someone's arms to be around mine, suffocating me.
Jan 2017 · 644
No One
Madalyn Jan 2017
No one will ever love me
No one will ever count the constellations of freckles on my body
No one will ever hold me close and whisper they love m e
No one will discover the galaxies hidden beneath years of heartache
No one will ever beg me to stay
No one will ever love me
Oct 2016 · 1.4k
You Are My Dusk
Madalyn Oct 2016
You made me feel like dusk makes me feel
Happy yet sad
Sure yet uncertain
Secure yet insecure

You were the light coming through the window but
I was so oblivious, I turned on the light
Oct 2016 · 1.1k
Online Dating
Madalyn Oct 2016
These days flirting is through Instagram likes and Tinder swipes
i hate this generation of "dating"
Oct 2016 · 3.4k
Lonely or Depressed?
Madalyn Oct 2016
A word often synonymous with depression. Are those lonely, depressed? Or are those depressed, lonely? It's the classic which came first? the chicken or egg question. Am I depressed because I'm lonely? Or am I lonely because I'm depressed?
Oct 2016 · 306
TIME
Madalyn Oct 2016
Seconds. Minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks. Months. Years. Slow but fast. Blink and they're gone. One day you're 22 thinking you have all the time in the world and the next minute your 75 wondering where all the time has gone
Oct 2016 · 453
Reckless Thoughts
Madalyn Oct 2016
I want to be the type of girl that wakes up at 8 AM everyday in silky pajamas and drinks coffee out of a cute mug but here I am at 2 AM wide awake with my reckless thoughts
Aug 2016 · 540
If I believe u
Madalyn Aug 2016
I've lost you, I know I have and I tried, I tried to find you again but with all the destruction in this world, I'm hesitant to believe in any power. A God of destruction is not a God I want to follow. However, as I sit here, lost beyond belief, I realize this is not your doing. Yes, the world is ******, but you are not a God of destruction.

I am here, I am ready to be your servant.
Jul 2016 · 289
Capable
Madalyn Jul 2016
Go ahead! Keep showing up in my life. Don't mind me, this knife has been here long enough. I'm starting to get used to it. I like the pain. It reminds me I'm human. It reminds me that I am capable of feeling something.
pain misery life boys sad heartbreak
Jul 2016 · 369
Lost.
Madalyn Jul 2016
I am lost. A loose petal in the wind, ripped from a flower by a beautiful boy. He loves me not.
Jul 2016 · 344
Hell
Madalyn Jul 2016
I never imagined Hell to feel like this
Jul 2016 · 298
Pain
Madalyn Jul 2016
I used to pinch myself every time my mind wandered to you.
I thought, maybe, the feeling of pain would make me stop thinking about you.

It didn't.

I'm starting to enjoy it.
Jul 2016 · 391
Moonlight
Madalyn Jul 2016
It is ever so peculiar how the daylight makes me feel tired while the moonlight makes me feel ALIVE!
Jul 2016 · 314
Atlas
Madalyn Jul 2016
Tonight I am Atlas.
Forever burdened by the weight of the world.
I stay there, with the weight of the sky on my shoulders unable to shake this pain,
this agony,
this total devastation.
Jul 2016 · 390
I Love You
Madalyn Jul 2016
I hugged you like I loved you.

I whispered "this is nice, isn't it?"

You replied, "yes, yes it is."

Then I woke up.
Jun 2016 · 329
It Meant Nothing
Madalyn Jun 2016
To him, I'm sure it meant nothing
but,
for me, for me,

it meant everything.
May 2016 · 653
PC
Madalyn May 2016
PC
I keep replaying that image in my head.
It was the last time I will ever see you.
That is,
if fate doesn’t bring us together again.
You saw me from across the bar but you didn’t see that I saw you.
The last image I have of you is you turning your head as I went to make eye contact with you.
It’s the image I see every time I close my ******* eyes.
Apr 2016 · 1.2k
Sealed Fate
Madalyn Apr 2016
Something with fate and the day it was sealed. Go back to a time where I could have changed his life and he could have changed mine. The day when I saw him standing alone. I was a coward. Still am.
Apr 2016 · 426
Touch
Madalyn Apr 2016
His touch reminded me of one of those prominent hand touches in period pieces, He hugged me and his hand lingered on my bare back for just a second or so, but wow! it felt as if it meant so much more!
Apr 2016 · 311
It Rained Today
Madalyn Apr 2016
As the rain falls, so do I.

With every drop, I fall deeper and deeper into an internal depression.

My soul aches for the loss of what if and the agony that has followed
Apr 2016 · 426
I'm Drowning
Madalyn Apr 2016
The more I try and push the thought of us away, the more I feel myself drowning.
Apr 2016 · 277
4 years
Madalyn Apr 2016
I met you fours years ago today and here I am, having the same thoughts, still wanting to know every single ******* thing about you.
Apr 2016 · 426
PS
Madalyn Apr 2016
PS
On days like today I am only reminded of my regrets. My mind is filled with the loss of what ifs. When we started there was hope, God was there hope. Now, this hope has dwindled. I've spent four years of my life stuck on the possibility of what if and it has drained my being, my soul aches. As everything must come to an end, so must this. I must truly, completely give it up. I am utterly exhausted.
Apr 2016 · 427
Insecure
Madalyn Apr 2016
Having insecurities is so ******* exhausting!!!!!!!!!!!
Mar 2016 · 421
Goals for twenty two
Madalyn Mar 2016
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Stop comparing yourself to others.
Jan 2016 · 454
I'm Failing
Madalyn Jan 2016
I dreamt of you last night in all my drunken glory. I can't seem to escape you. I usually don't dream when I'm drunk, but for some reason you were there, you're always there. I'm trying to get over you. I'm trying.
Jan 2016 · 476
Trivial
Madalyn Jan 2016
Don't say I'm hot. Don't say I'm beautiful. Those words mean nothing to me. Just words used over and over to win a girl's heart.

I see it happen everyday.

You won't win mine with such trivial words, trust me. You will never win my heart. It will never belong to you.

I am not hot, I am not beautiful.

I am the stars in the sky, I am the unexplored galaxies of the universe.
Jan 2016 · 723
Growing Up, No Turning Back
Madalyn Jan 2016
Slowly, we are becoming adults and we have no choice.
We are cursed with growing old
It's quite depressing
We have no way of stopping it
We have no choice
We are destined go grow old
There's no turning back
Theres no point in fighting it
How could you even fight it?
It's inevitable
We live our lives how we are told
Graduate high school, go to college
Get a job, get married, have a family
Everyone's end goal is the same
It's strange that everyone can be so different, yet we are all destined to the same fate:
Death
Madalyn Jan 2016
First touch
You were drunk and I was sitting next to your date. You sat on her lap, and as you did you ran your hand over my knee.
Second touch
You were drunk and you were talking to my friend. You noticed me and touched my face to get my attention.
Touch three
You danced with me after I stole your beer from you. You offered to buy me one but i declined. I told you to remember my name and I didn't think you would.
Touch four
Saw you at the party, we made eye contact and you went for the hug. You said "Hi" and I couldn't help but smile.
Touch 5
You hugged me and then I took you to see a dog you said reminded you of yours
Touch 6
A party. You gave me a full hug. No awkward side hug,full hug. I died inside cause I wasn't expecting it. You even told my sister hi.
Touch 7
Not really a touch, but my heart felt it. You dipped your head into our conversation and said hi and smiled in the cutest way I've ever seen a boy smile. If It was possible, your smile could end all hatred in the world.
Jan 2016 · 373
Two Souls. One Fool.
Madalyn Jan 2016
I think when I cry about you, it's not
my heart that's crying, it's my soul.
Each day you get further away and each day a little piece of my soul is torn away.
Our souls miss each other. Mine just wants to go home.
Madalyn Jan 2016
If I can't stop thinking about you, I will get a rope, tie it around my neck and jump off the highest building. Because even strangling myself seems like a more tolerable pain than this.
Madalyn Jan 2016
You had just as many chances to talk to me last night as I did. It's obvious you had no desire to. I'm just surprised it took me so long to finally see it. I've spent too much time with you in my head. Now it's time to let go of the imaginary you and face the real you. It's crazy how deceiving the mind can be.
Jan 2016 · 297
Hope
Madalyn Jan 2016
Those who have it are a dying breed. If only mine could die.
Jan 2016 · 358
Not the Praying Type
Madalyn Jan 2016
I pray every night that I forget about you. Who am I kidding, I'm not the praying type
Jan 2016 · 297
Boys
Madalyn Jan 2016
Boys have feelings too.
Boys have feelings too.
Boys have feelings too.
Jan 2016 · 381
Life's No Movie Script
Madalyn Jan 2016
I don't know if I feel this way because I felt a connection or if I'm just imagining the perfect movie play out in my head. Awkward 18 year old girl meets hot, awkward boy at college orientation. They have a few set backs, but ultimately end up together and live happily ever after. I'm going with the latter, however bad it may hurt.
Jan 2016 · 359
Endings
Madalyn Jan 2016
Endings.
They're inevitable.
Everything comes to an end
School,
Relationships,
Life...
Jan 2016 · 598
Finally
Madalyn Jan 2016
I think I am finally free.
I've spent the last three years imprisoned by the thought of you and me. I've dreamt of what our lives could be, what we'd name our first dog and I don't even know your middle name.
I'm finally letting go of you.
I'm finally ready to let my heart out of captivity.
I'm done being a slave to what could have been, what we could have been.
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