Kzéia Cheshire Estérel

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Murderer

My hands trembled,
looking at
how bleak my world seemed.

I looked down to see
a red line,
running down my arm.

Closing my eyes,
swallowing the same pills
for what i hoped was the last time.

My hope of eternal sleep,
eroding as i awoke
dizzy and empty of all things.

Maybe i killed her,
or maybe
I killed me.

#suicide #pills #life #world #lost #hopeless #cuts #sh #bleak #lasttime

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Rooted

The skies cloud over,
the smell of thunder taints the air,
and the rain begins to fall
from my eyes.

There's a book of poetry
in the lines of my hands,
that no one wants to read.

I've lived my life,
rooted in her darkness,
arms catatonic as a tree.

Unable to run or cry,
when her other prunes my flowers.

#life #eyes #tears #fall #rain #darkness #thunder #skies #noone #rooted

Dec 2014

halfheartedsoul

Untitled

They're all moving on.
Better lives,
Better them.

I'm happy,
for them.

Yet I can't help,
but despair.

Who's gonna pull me out?

None but I.

But for the life of me,
I can't bring myself to.

Help,
for I'm sinking deeper.

Help,
for I can't help myself.

Help,
for this self-pity to end.

None that knows this misery,
for it'll be they who hurt.

Enough that I'm the only,
left in a destructive shell.

Time after time,
I thought I'm moving,
finally,
to a peaceful,
healthier life.

Time and again,
I fall back,
into this pit of darkness,
as though screaming,
yet unheard.

It hurts,
to know none bother,
Or notice.

I beg,
for the day of eternal release.

#pain #alone #help #left #redemption #moving

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Solo Tu

Se soltanto per un attimo
potessi averti accanto.

Forse non ti direi niente.
ma guardo solo ,
da vedere ...

#love #need #you #nothing #moments #see #watch #said #withyou #unseperable

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Fragments.

Petals flew through the wind
among the overcrowded
morning sky.

Patches of clouds splashed
onto the canvas
that’s my sky.

A seemingly perfect picture
really broken pieces
of glass shards.

#you #me #glass #canvas #skies #petals #fragments #overcrowded #perfectpicture #seemingly

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Breakout

It is not
a good idea.

But

This is not
a cliche.

Truth

I’m pulling
no prank.

Please

I mean it
free me.

#suicide #truth #broken #freedom #lost #break #please #cliche #ideas #pranks

Kzéia Cheshire Estérel Dec 2014

Still

People never realize,
Or recognize,
The touch of a broken soul.

The despondence,
Fear and need,
Skilfully masked beneath.

Pain never shows,
On their poker faces.
How battered they still fight,
Still live.

#broken #fear #pain #hurt #touch #hidden #facade #skilfully #pokerface #despondence