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"lockets" poems
Time is in your pockets, Hurry up and light the rockets, Put your emptiness in the sockets, Spread smiles and add jollity to the list of dockets, Make a wish today, and wear your lucky lockets.
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Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 7:46 PM UTC
Make a wish
With the red lights in my eyes And the gray haze in the sky With the fire red reflecting back The neon skin distracts me from where I am And where I should be In the winter clear, I sit And I'm sick of it As the snow falls on cars On pedestrians and bars Wrapped in pea-coats and *** Under the foggy winter sun I slowly stroll With a woman in my soul Like a gypsy king and queen In a lucid fever dream Up in the offices and desks With stress in their chests These people think of home While their lovers are alone and stuck with screens Like windows into scenes They thought money could buy As they drift and die Pouring out from the walls Of worship chapel halls With hands in their pockets Stealing trinkets and lockets to give to the men Who promise the end But all will be right If you pay the right price From the streets of gods That will one day rot Under our wandering feet When we longer speak but are just memories Passed on like a disease On death, I've made my peace Until then, let me be free
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Dec 10, 2015
Dec 10, 2015 at 7:04 PM UTC
Peasant Gods and Righteous Thiefs
Here's to the women who have been let down; touched or pushed too hard broken lockets, broken hearts the empty feeling of loneliness as if we are an empty vase we shine in the light yet we are hollow with doubt with past fears, have you ever tried to break a vase with your hands? fragile, yet sharp eager to bear blood not a lot, but just enough but unlike a vase, we can be fixed we can piece together our existence like a puzzle for the woman who cried herself to sleep for the woman who was betrayed for the woman who felt like a shattered vase here's to you here's to her.
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Dec 1, 2010
Dec 1, 2010 at 6:26 PM UTC
Here's to Her
Melting madness and shimmering isles The bubble-gum boils in drug pedophiles Let's teach the East to love Western style We come in with strap-on's and pillage with smiles The rest of the world watches their watches People keep saying we're at hour eleven We're changing the design on our gold lockets From a heart to a blackjack, Seven Seven Seven! The college boys assure you that they know the lyrics And the meanings behind them for they've been enlightened They swarm out like locusts and pretentiously parrot Verbatim the textbooks they read when they're frightened That they'll die with nothing to show for their efforts They want everyone else in the world to remember That they did exist on some scale of importance Even though we're just spun yarn of grass, dirt and oceans Intelligence streams the consciousness seeds and conscientious objectors it seems So pardon me for the fallacy of pardoning tyrannical dictator queens It seems these days to be discovered you need to cheat on your spouse or your lover You'd think that with all the war crimes we've seen we would have hung at least one or the other We've got two parties, so pick one or scram! (Look at them squirm as fast as they can!) They're starting to think for themselves again! Quick, strangle the market and feed this man Acid and bath salts and give him some tear gas and send him on in to disarm the smear traps And **** everyone so we'll jump to conclusion with no where to turn, the final solution! I'm drunk again and we're falling in, the shoreline is riddled with explosions We don't speak of the war, we have no comment, we're almost out of original content We're frantically searching for a brand new contest to prove that our nation is still the best Whether you're China, Russia, Israel, Pakistan, the U.K., or India, the U.S. or Japan Let's take all the gangbanging **** out of Oakland and drop them in to the Atlantic Ocean Or better yet, set them loose in Uganda, let's see how long they last in Rwanda. I'm done with religion and socialized medicine, this aristocracy of pull and deception So for once in our lifetimes, let's seek a vision, because God knows people can't make ******* decisions.
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Jan 7, 2013
Jan 7, 2013 at 4:20 AM UTC
The Other Half Of The World Raps
Melting madness and shimmering isles The bubble-gum boils in drug pedophiles Let's teach the East to love Western style We come in with strap-on's and pillage with smiles The rest of the world watches their watches People keep saying we're at hour eleven We're changing the design on our gold lockets From a heart to a blackjack, Seven Seven Seven! The college boys assure you that they know the lyrics And the meanings behind them for they've been enlightened They swarm out like locusts and pretentiously parrot Verbatim the textbooks they read when they're frightened That they'll die with nothing to show for their efforts They want everyone else in the world to remember That they did exist on some scale of importance Even though we're just spun yarn of grass, dirt and oceans Intelligence streams the consciousness seeds and conscientious objectors it seems So pardon me for the fallacy of pardoning tyrannical dictator queens It seems these days to be discovered you need to cheat on your spouse or your lover You'd think that with all the war crimes we've seen we would have hung at least one or the other We've got two parties, so pick one or scram! (Look at them squirm as fast as they can!) They're starting to think for themselves again! Quick, strangle the market and feed this man Acid and bath salts and give him some tear gas and send him on in to disarm the smear traps And **** everyone so we'll jump to conclusion with no where to turn, the final solution! I'm drunk again and we're falling in, the shoreline is riddled with explosions We don't speak of the war, we have no comment, we're almost out of original content We're frantically searching for a brand new contest to prove that our nation is still the best Whether you're China, Russia, Israel, Pakistan, the U.K., or India, the U.S. or Japan Let's take all the gangbanging **** out of Oakland and drop them in to the Atlantic Ocean Or better yet, set them loose in Uganda, let's see how long they last in Rwanda. I'm done with religion and socialized medicine, this aristocracy of pull and deception So for once in our lifetimes, let's seek a vision, because God knows people can't make ******* decisions.
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Weeds and flowers line my pockets As I got one foot out the door Memories fade in antique lockets Knowing you won't see me anymore When Saturn returns, I'll find my way Fumbling over roots and branches Always on the run All I know is what I offer Floating as a feather in the breeze I soak you in and tuck you under Lost in a swell of the sea As I turn to face my shadow I fall into the light Splashing pools of mirror stillness I meet pain with delight This life's got me all hot and bothered Grown yet singed by the sun Enchanted moonlight has me wondering' If you're the only one Calling birds mark the passage To the other side I begin and end this chapter With love and peace of mind Don't come to me if you can't hold me With both arms I am soft but wild in nature Weathering my own storms When Saturn returns, I'll find my way Fumbling over roots and branches Always on the run
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Aug 28, 2016
Aug 28, 2016 at 12:54 PM UTC
Saturn Return
I'm sitting here staring at an empty space It's not that I don't have things to fill it with In fact, I have an abundance of things Thoughts, memories, hopes But they're all jumbled together Tangled, like poorly stored necklaces The chains wrapped tightly around each other Almost impossible to separate I could take everything out Place it all out on a table Try to gently detach each piece of myself The problem with that, though Is that more than a few of those baubles and chains Were never meant to see daylight I don't want to reveal the tarnished and rusting metal The cracked glass pendants And the lockets never meant to be opened again Some things are to stay forever Stored away in the darkest corners of my mind I have a box on a dusty shelf there Where they live I guess I should look for a flashlight So maybe I can try to sort out the better pieces I know there must be some treasures there Maybe I'm just hoping I might have something good left I don't want to face the possibility Of finding nothing but debris Tattered trinkets on a dusty shelf In the back of a damaged mind
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Aug 27, 2014
Aug 27, 2014 at 1:18 AM UTC
Costume Jewelry
what i would miss most is the way she says my name calls me "sweetie" calls me "meggie" says "i don't know what i would do without you and your sister" i've been collecting these words since the day i was born (her birthday, too) been storing them in locket after locket jewelry box after jewelry box always worried i'll run out of space but for her i would buy a thousand jewelry boxes ten thousand lockets so i can remember her voice until i'm two hundred years old so i can show my kids how grandma whispered how grandma laughed how grandma loved
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Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 8:34 AM UTC
Nancy Carol
Technology marches forward, Never stopping, Technology marches forward, Always progressing. It permeates our homes, It resides in our pockets, The big company's own Sherlock Holmes, Seeing deep within our lockets. It gets us where, We want to go, Through the air, Or through the traffic flow. It runs our lives, Leading us along, Like bees in hives, We follow it's rhythmic song. Technology marches forward, Not caring for its creators, Technology marches forward, As humanities technological dictators.
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Nov 4, 2019
Nov 4, 2019 at 2:08 PM UTC
Technology
I believe hearts are similar to lockets you can open them and insert special items in them they'll both tangle into knots when being misplaced for some time They're both picked and pried at by generations or simply different lovers Though a locket is lucky that it isn't alive for it's chains would be broken by now
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Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC
The Locket
London subway metro train station connection, busy off-peak City rush, escalator packed, another northern crush. Ticket barrier blockade, pass through tomorrow not today. Police at the exits, a black sea of law abiding abyss, protectors of the peace. Another announcement over the crowd, “Platform 2 is closed for the storm cloud to be cleared”. Body parts have spread over carriage doors, torn from their sockets, slipping pictures from necklace lockets.
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Dec 10, 2012
Dec 10, 2012 at 6:42 AM UTC
LONDON UNDERGROUND SUICIDE
Lockets are beautiful. I let you keep mine. A gesture so kind and benign... I miss it so much; Missed the dangling on my chest. But I gave it to you so at night you'd have rest.
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Mar 15, 2015
Mar 15, 2015 at 12:33 PM UTC
That Locket
she lost perspective before the glass, braces on lips, youth pulled too tight. golden hair like coins that pass into the banker's fragile sight. concealed in lockets, veiled from gaze, her beauty measured, hunted, framed. through dusty rafters, sunlit haze, he counts the value none can name. old men scatter mints upon the floor. some whisper fate had cast her pain, others murmur devils opened the door. starving's the only way to be a seeker of affection that's just a hoax.
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Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 1:23 PM UTC
Banker's Loss
Winter-welded hands to pockets Midnight suburban Davey Crockets Shuffling feets, thoughts on gold lockets Meet nodders, speeders, window peekers Out and about, we candid seekers
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Mar 22, 2010
Mar 22, 2010 at 12:26 PM UTC
Early Morning strolls
Cut the wire words tethered to my tongue, A resemblance of a schizophrenic’s, If Death walked sullenly, could we run Scream and scatter, cleave off limbs to lockets The burdens and blood plump things that slow us, What’s of organs to living always, Ever existing to face away from Shadow and sun, cut way the instruments Of muscles congealed among movement Fatty slabs and raw bones weighing our hold, Just fleeing, blood draining to keep moving Just a few more strides to flee unholy Death near lingering ever encroaching, Lop off all just to stray, till left is the Soul on shoulders, welcoming judgment day
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Aug 28, 2011
Aug 28, 2011 at 12:28 AM UTC
Cutting Anchors
Take this hand. May I guide you within the depths? So traggic to view her this way. White in a doll of china's mask of death. Tormented did a candles light cast doubt's with no hand to grasp a wrist bled slow. Tea leaves and incense. Masked air of rosemary the record scratched and was inturn left unherd. Thoose eye's captured want yet never could clasp a heart or lockets match. Was it as planned? A slow regression into a blackend fade. A cloth over lamp. It dimmed the light but never the flawed beauthy. that I knew well. Sleep in a life none would yern to awake. My heart did linger in a thought as overcast skies blue eye's did paint my thought's gray. Cold was perfection a raindrop viewed from inside. I kissed you last as first I bid farewell. That night you took from many yet only thought as one. A tormented love a single rose. So tender you were stained of many. But a portraiht to me. Your words a soon to be epitapth of my pain cast memory. Thank you for never seeing me as so many befor. Many works of art are cast in pain. Dove's of life often cry a tear when met to dirt. I held you close once apon a empty floor only not tight enough. Music that cast a passion lights so dim often gliow with soul. I see you now and think of that time. Tender in a stone that is a chamber I call my heart. I wish I could have brushed away the pain. As I did a hair that night from your face. Thoose eyes a void of passion life often does **** If you had taken that hand would we have found ourselves? Or simpley lost it togather in a vague chance at bliss? I remember you still. A painting of a woman known to many but who's heart was shared only with me. That moment apon the bar's empty floor forever fill's my thought's
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Sep 9, 2011
Sep 9, 2011 at 7:17 PM UTC
Flawed Perfection/I knew You Once
Take this hand. May I guide you within the depths? So traggic to view her this way. White in a doll of china's mask of death. Tormented did a candles light cast doubt's with no hand to grasp a wrist bled slow. Tea leaves and incense. Masked air of rosemary the record scratched and was inturn left unherd. Thoose eye's captured want yet never could clasp a heart or lockets match. Was it as planned? A slow regression into a blackend fade. A cloth over lamp. It dimmed the light but never the flawed beauthy. that I knew well. Sleep in a life none would yern to awake. My heart did linger in a thought as overcast skies blue eye's did paint my thought's gray. Cold was perfection a raindrop viewed from inside. I kissed you last as first I bid farewell. That night you took from many yet only thought as one. A tormented love a single rose. So tender you were stained of many. But a portraiht to me. Your words a soon to be epitapth of my pain cast memory. Thank you for never seeing me as so many befor. Many works of art are cast in pain. Dove's of life often cry a tear when met to dirt. I held you close once apon a empty floor only not tight enough. Music that cast a passion lights so dim often gliow with soul. I see you now and think of that time. Tender in a stone that is a chamber I call my heart. I wish I could have brushed away the pain. As I did a hair that night from your face. Thoose eyes a void of passion life often does **** If you had taken that hand would we have found ourselves? Or simpley lost it togather in a vague chance at bliss? I remember you still. A painting of a woman known to many but who's heart was shared only with me. That moment apon the bar's empty floor forever fill's my thought's
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I knew I was in the burning building with her – and it was like Limburg, maggoty but obliged its fortress of a rowboat life. Without its ice, I am in pine-high, to dull selves which will later stiff upon these floors. He was hell. He did this to us. Not even a masked ****** shown needles for his dog expression, and I am prodded rather with teeth than a nose drill. But she did dissolve before I could have, must have had thin bones, of maturity, an osteoporosis ache. It saved her, perhaps, although she passed: a kidney stone philosophy book, these death-doctors will read numb. I do wonder if it were their hips in fire, why could they not sit in a mausoleum place. Just how we did so many instances – practicing a routine in the bathtub, like knowing. Had the correct arrangement, too, I pretended I was in a womb with you. And mother’s was like that claw-tub so we, fetus, sensed like castle buffs, carrying the rings of gold and lockets of princess blood. Then, she became papier-mâché statues before a meadow of hell’s dust: I had to kiss each curve because one ash was not enough. I knew I was in the burning building with her when I could not recognize her stumps. She was an emblem of past upon fair carpet, or the haze I inhale to shadow – knowing that he sees our wallpaths and catches the hum of infernos taking bodies, then say that he is a monster even more than I.
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Oct 28, 2012
Oct 28, 2012 at 5:30 PM UTC
sexton
Eros walked into the chamber, garnering all eyes Lust and Limerence walked by her side They stopped before a panel where Venus did preside And Cupid next to Venus, gripped his arrows like a prize And the Muses made up the rest And all muscles in the chamber braced for unrest Glances and gazes did continuously dart As all sported lockets of fire by their hearts Venus declared mankind must suffer in pain For all efforts to show the world love have been in vain And to continue gifting love would be insanity, a chore Cause they’d take their piece of it and still declare war, On themselves and on one another Slaughtering their self-esteems, siblings, fathers, mothers Yet Eros objected, keeping her eyes peeled Declaring love has always been a battlefield And Cupid fired an arrow at Ero’s way And Lust led the limp arrow astray Then those enlightened ones lit fuses that day And the shrapnel from that fight still makes it way Through hearts of men and women with feelings at play
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Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 10:07 AM UTC
Fate Of Humanity’s Insanity
There's a box down in my basement It's not hidden far away It's a box that's full of history things from, well....another day It sits there like a statue Never opened, all forlorn Holding pictures and their secrets from a time when I weren't born It's blue with brass side stapping It takes up two cubic feet It just sits there in the corner Yelling...OPEN ME....but, be discreet Love letters and photos unfinished projects from the past Newspaper announcements Lots of things you want to last It's a box that is worth sharing Stories living in a box It sits there closed and oh, forgotten It sits there closed, there are no locks There's few around who've seen the contents Even less who know the names Of people in all the pictures It's not just sad, it is a shame The box is full of untold stories A love story that should be heard It's written in two lovers writing No need to translate, not a word It is the tale of two fine people Parents of my wife, they say This box tells of Margaret and Charlie They both are gone, before this day It's musty when you smell it But, isn't that how things should be There's school reports and lockets A father lost when she was three I think of them when I look at it Artifacts stored for none to see I never met them, but I miss them They'd be proud of who she came to be this box is Megan's life force It helped make her strong and proud It shows she is an Edwards The contents scream it really loud there is a box down in my basement It' a box of writing, reams and reams I look forward to our meeting One quiet night inside my dreams The people who filled up the inside Are my family, though we've not met I'd like to take this chance to tell them Their girl is safe, they need not fret.
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Jun 28, 2012
Jun 28, 2012 at 9:13 PM UTC
The Box In My Basement
There's a box down in my basement It's not hidden far away It's a box that's full of history things from, well....another day It sits there like a statue Never opened, all forlorn Holding pictures and their secrets from a time when I weren't born It's blue with brass side stapping It takes up two cubic feet It just sits there in the corner Yelling...OPEN ME....but, be discreet Love letters and photos unfinished projects from the past Newspaper announcements Lots of things you want to last It's a box that is worth sharing Stories living in a box It sits there closed and oh, forgotten It sits there closed, there are no locks There's few around who've seen the contents Even less who know the names Of people in all the pictures It's not just sad, it is a shame The box is full of untold stories A love story that should be heard It's written in two lovers writing No need to translate, not a word It is the tale of two fine people Parents of my wife, they say This box tells of Margaret and Charlie They both are gone, before this day It's musty when you smell it But, isn't that how things should be There's school reports and lockets A father lost when she was three I think of them when I look at it Artifacts stored for none to see I never met them, but I miss them They'd be proud of who she came to be this box is Megan's life force It helped make her strong and proud It shows she is an Edwards The contents scream it really loud there is a box down in my basement It' a box of writing, reams and reams I look forward to our meeting One quiet night inside my dreams The people who filled up the inside Are my family, though we've not met I'd like to take this chance to tell them Their girl is safe, they need not fret.
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I do not have it in me to be the kind of empty and full that you need I carry secrets and liquid sad feelings in my stomach like an antique hot water bottle They are the colours of mashed up autumn leaves and ***** puddle water and decaying petals floating on some pretend witches potion Crimson rust lines the edges of my eyes, I use black eyeliner to patch the pinprick holes, where I have previously sewn, trying to forget These are the remnants of my rock heart which has been eroded away The powder sits regretfully in my veins When my heart beats I feel it scrape and catch the pink surfaces It aches too much My insides are losing their pinkness Your presence is abrasive Use a higher grade sandpaper and be done Take off the old circus ride paint layers, my nail beds are already saturated with chips of red yellow and blue Reach something clear and peaceful Cut lengths of my hair, and separate them into small twists, tethered with small satin ribbons to be used for some happier embroidery Or to be stored in tin lockets Or to be disposed of in rivers like those Georgian keepsakes that mothers leave at hospitals Let other people write with it Pass the used up glass needle like straws through calico or linen Felt tip the colour over Cut out my heart and let the elements sit.
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Nov 17, 2013
Nov 17, 2013 at 8:25 AM UTC
Empty Metal Vessels
we held hands, we stumbled in tattered coats, we mumbled in our palms, we held the time passing shattered windows in our bob-bobbing boats and we ran away from the rising sun now we are running away from the rising sun running away from it on creaky rotting docks over sneaky sharp rickety rocks (we) (wanted to see it) (rise forever) [throbbing throats] [throbbing throats] -we are the rising sun- (we are the rising sun ) >lockets lickety locked< and we grew tired >> we grew tired (we are the change) we had thrown away the key << (we are the ones) and __ we had slowed down __ (we have been waiting for) and ^the sun had sped up / and that time oh that time was slipping between our fingertips dripping (we are dawning) (we are dawning)
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Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 7:51 PM UTC
glitching apart
I wear your tags around my neck, my own personal lockets with your name engraved, where they hang low enough to hear my heartbeat pulse within the safety of my chest. The metal is cold against the skin that covers my ******* And they’ve folded the fifty stars and thirteen red and white stripes that protected your casket, even after your heart stopped beating into its triangle form, and they handed it over like a death sentence given to the wrong inmate, for a crime he never committed. I held the shield against my body, wrapping myself around the cloth, curving my body about the ripples which reminded me of the heart monitor that showcased your breathing before the line went flat. But it felt nothing like the way your body felt folded against mine in the darkness of your last night home before you left for your final tour in the foreign land that was as strange as the first time we made love, exploring the geography of our different maps holding buried treasures beneath the surface of our skin. In our strangeness, I lost everything to you, wandering without a compass. And ultimately I ended up losing you to the strangeness of the land, instead of in the familiarity of my arms. And I wish I could’ve convinced you to stay. But I was never good at tug of war, and Iraq was so much stronger than I. Standing next to your casket, dressed in a mask of tears, destroyed mascara and black clothing for your funeral as your fellow brothers in arms, who became my brothers too, hold their guns pointed towards you in the sky; your own salute. But it’s peaceful to know that your ears no longer ring with machine guns and you’ll sleep peacefully from here until forever instead of fighting enemies, even in your nightmares and daydreams. I am grieving but I am blessed that you are no longer suffering and miserable.
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Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 8:22 PM UTC
Homecoming
I wear your tags around my neck, my own personal lockets with your name engraved, where they hang low enough to hear my heartbeat pulse within the safety of my chest. The metal is cold against the skin that covers my ******* And they’ve folded the fifty stars and thirteen red and white stripes that protected your casket, even after your heart stopped beating into its triangle form, and they handed it over like a death sentence given to the wrong inmate, for a crime he never committed. I held the shield against my body, wrapping myself around the cloth, curving my body about the ripples which reminded me of the heart monitor that showcased your breathing before the line went flat. But it felt nothing like the way your body felt folded against mine in the darkness of your last night home before you left for your final tour in the foreign land that was as strange as the first time we made love, exploring the geography of our different maps holding buried treasures beneath the surface of our skin. In our strangeness, I lost everything to you, wandering without a compass. And ultimately I ended up losing you to the strangeness of the land, instead of in the familiarity of my arms. And I wish I could’ve convinced you to stay. But I was never good at tug of war, and Iraq was so much stronger than I. Standing next to your casket, dressed in a mask of tears, destroyed mascara and black clothing for your funeral as your fellow brothers in arms, who became my brothers too, hold their guns pointed towards you in the sky; your own salute. But it’s peaceful to know that your ears no longer ring with machine guns and you’ll sleep peacefully from here until forever instead of fighting enemies, even in your nightmares and daydreams. I am grieving but I am blessed that you are no longer suffering and miserable.
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my beautiful body is killing me, it longs to seek no rest. even without weighing myself every hour is a moral test. do i even want to be here? could i be here and just be me? but every minute is an endless sea reminding me that i'm never free. most days i feel like i was never meant to be because my beautiful body is killing me. my beautiful body is killing me, it keeps me as cold as ice. i no longer feel my fingers from the moment i arise. and even when i want to eat, looking at a plate of food usually suffices'. and i don't want to be this way anymore, i don't want to be alone. i don't want to wonder for the rest of my life wondering what its like to have a home... but no one holds me close enough anyways, so alone is usually the best way to go. when i fade away from everything i have ever known, my beautiful body reassures me its okay - that its probably better off to die this way. that i was a failure when i was around them every day. that i couldn't ever keep up with any game life ever tried to bestow to my name. and its just better this way. its just better this way. my beautiful body calls so much attention, but never any real recognition. no true understanding of how strong a mission it afflicted me with for total abolition. to leave my mother with all of my favorite sweaters, in an empty room with empty boxes, packing away her daughters necklaces and lockets and praying that it never ended up this way. that her daughter could just come back one day. that she had never become a spiritual stray. that i had never become an apparition with no face, or no name. my beautiful body is not beautiful, it ravages me whole. every day that could of been happy that anorexia stole. i can't help but face the reality that i'm no longer on parole i'm back in it again. and i don't want to be. so don't call me beautiful please. you just have no idea so you really can't see how much of a waste of life i grew up to be.
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Jan 22, 2025
Jan 22, 2025 at 3:58 PM UTC
my beautiful body
my beautiful body is killing me, it longs to seek no rest. even without weighing myself every hour is a moral test. do i even want to be here? could i be here and just be me? but every minute is an endless sea reminding me that i'm never free. most days i feel like i was never meant to be because my beautiful body is killing me. my beautiful body is killing me, it keeps me as cold as ice. i no longer feel my fingers from the moment i arise. and even when i want to eat, looking at a plate of food usually suffices'. and i don't want to be this way anymore, i don't want to be alone. i don't want to wonder for the rest of my life wondering what its like to have a home... but no one holds me close enough anyways, so alone is usually the best way to go. when i fade away from everything i have ever known, my beautiful body reassures me its okay - that its probably better off to die this way. that i was a failure when i was around them every day. that i couldn't ever keep up with any game life ever tried to bestow to my name. and its just better this way. its just better this way. my beautiful body calls so much attention, but never any real recognition. no true understanding of how strong a mission it afflicted me with for total abolition. to leave my mother with all of my favorite sweaters, in an empty room with empty boxes, packing away her daughters necklaces and lockets and praying that it never ended up this way. that her daughter could just come back one day. that she had never become a spiritual stray. that i had never become an apparition with no face, or no name. my beautiful body is not beautiful, it ravages me whole. every day that could of been happy that anorexia stole. i can't help but face the reality that i'm no longer on parole i'm back in it again. and i don't want to be. so don't call me beautiful please. you just have no idea so you really can't see how much of a waste of life i grew up to be.
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