I've been watching you
Holding hands with her
The way I felt
I could never describe in words

Yet, I still hid from you
I looked devastated
And I still do
Wonder
What did she do
To get to hold hands with you.

It's killing me
I swear you're ******* with my mind
Cause just the way you make me feel
Just by looking in my eyes

And then they'll fall off your face
And start admiring your body
But I'm too shy to look your way
I'm just hoping you'd be mine

Swore you were the best and that you really cared
But looking back made me regret some things I said
I know we should've been foreve, and ****.. you know it too
It shouldn't hurt me that bad, but when I look at you-

Said you weren't perfect, I know, I wasn't too
But my heart kept racing just for you
I cared when you said it was my fault
I kept quiet
Being your little secret
Kept in a vault
I admired your kindness and love
That soon enough turned into
Invisible hatred you hid inside you.

I could try to forgive
I could try to forget
I could try to ignore it, but I swear I'm sick of it
All the **** you put me through
Made me realize how much I mean to you
I'm done with the games of
Saying "I like you" waiting for
A response to come from you.

If you only knew that I'm writing this about you
If you only knew that, I still think of it, too
Yet, I wanna say
Thanks for making me feel that way
Otherwise, I would've stayed
Without knowing why
Should I throw my feelings for you away

And I could try to forgive
And I could try to forget
I could try to ignore it and push me inside the trap
All the **** you put me through
Made me grateful for knowing
It's time to get rid of you.

I have a secret obsession,
Which I could never admit.
It's like an unheard question,
That'll be forgotten to infinite

I have a secret obsession,
Like kids obsess over growing up
And adults over perfection;
Chasing dreams that never stop.

I have a secret obsession,
You'll never guess what it is;
But I'm guessing I could only give you this:
You're the truth I can not mention, due to my secret obsession.

The things you’ve said
The things that happened
Burned in my memories
I close my eyes
It all plays on repeat
Like a broken record

The one and only, my life's shadow;
Braided through the strings of rights.
You keep on seeing me like your doll,
So you could copy all my highlights.

Your hauntings lurk me every night,
Reflecting every thing I do,
But when the sun sheds its light;
Nothing you did stays true.

And when the moonlight's choosing me,
In the darkness when I barely can see;
You grow darker and stronger,
Consuming me and my every color.

Regardless how far I go;
You cling to me slow,
Claiming each part of who I am,
Without a hint of shame.

The way you kiss
The way you smile
The way you make me feel alive
Along with what you made me do
Makes me enchanted to know you

You feel, you care, you understand
****, I love it when you hold my hand
You know, you see, you want
For me to hold your heart
In the palm of my hand
Protecting her from the bad

And I'll forever miss
Your hot, sweet kiss
Burning on my skin
Taking me to places I've never been
And I'll forever miss
The smile on your lips
Cause I can at least say
I'm grateful we turned out this way

With all the tears, with all the joy
With all the memories we'll never destroy
With my ups and my downs
With my head up in the clouds
I can finally say
That this is my only way
To love you.