I poison my heart with the lies on my tongue,
I can't let you know I still think you're the one,
It's a special day, that my lies are askew in
Oh what a big deal, a huge moment to ruin,
But I can't have you think and can't have you know,
That it's you my dear who I still love so.

You were hardly even worth the time,
Such wasted days when you mine,
You said I wasn't enough,
I didn't care to call your bluff,
You said he was your happy ending,
So sad to hear that that's all ending,
If into my arms, you expect to come running,
Well then my dear, you've another thing coming.

She belongs in the poetry of someone else now,
I loved her so much, and yet lost her somehow.
So perhaps this could be it, an end to my verse,
for I've no longer muse, but hey, could be worse.

I lived to write, so here's my last,
I'm haunted by the days gone past,
your image never left my head,
but perhaps it will when I am dead,
probably won't, but it's worth a shot,
you're the one, but we know I'm not.

Goodbyes typed, with shaking hands
the pain in the chest, that slowly expands,
till it consumes, every last thought,
all the hope, has lead to naught.

Maybe one day, this feeling will die,
but then on that day, so might I.

The deep dark red, bleed onto back,
I know she's never, coming back.
I thought we agreed, to leave it alone,
so that I don't want to cut down to bone,
I thought that you might understand,
giving up's not going, quite as planned

I love her enough, to pretend that I don't,
I want to do something, but I know that I won't.
I'll just sit here and pretend, that it's all okay,
because if I did tell her, she'd not care anyway

Woken by a pain, I should no longer feel,
still nursing old wounds, that refuse to heal.
And in the cold, dim light of day,
I know I'll always, feel this way.
But thought I try, I can't make things right,
I still miss my angel, every night.

You see my world goes dim,
at the thought of you and him,
I was sure it was meant to be,
the perfection that's you and me,
but you don't care, not anymore,
that you're the girl I still adore,
and if I lived ten thousand times,
I'd spend them all thinking up rhymes,
so I'd find a way to let you know,
that I'll forever love you so.

I don't have any words, no not any more,
there's some guy I can't stand with the girl I adore,
she's ignoring my messages because now she has him,
she doesn't need me any more, I was cast out on a whim.
So here here it is, another poem, because I don't know what to do,
Could you please just tell me, why I'm not enough for you.

The words are right there, on the tip my tongue,
but I can't get them out  and I'm coming undone,
if I take chance, perhaps she'll feel that way too,
and I will whisper the words I love you.

The angel fell and her pure white wings are turning black,
the way that things are now has got me wishing I could turn time back.
I'd unsay so many things, and I'd do so many more,
I'd live so very differently if I knew what life had in store.
But for now I'll sit alone, and dream of a purer day,
what was the point in anything, we stopped talking anyway.

I've run out of luck,
it's just not fair.
I reach out,
and you're not there.
But just for a moment,
I had some hope.
We could just be friends,
and I could cope.
But then you left,
once again.
And now all there is,
is just more pain.

Oh New Years Eve, what a perfect kiss,
with a girl that I've now come to miss,
I really do hope you're doing well,
though the pain of your absence is hurting like hell,
if you'd only reply, just one more time,
I'd tell of you of how, I wish you were mine.

I know you are gone, you're so far away,
but I'm sat here still dreaming, of that last happy day.
I know we are victims, of what life had in store,
but I'm sat here just wishing, for at least one day more.
I miss your **** smile, it lit up the night,
I can't bring it back, though I try with my might,
you won't even reply, to my messages now,
I'd ignore you the same, but I've no idea how.

You and I both knew, it was never to last,
but the end came so soon, it was all gone so fast,
you deserved angels, singing your praise,
now I question why I still sing it these days.
But I still look at the moon, and remember your face,
and gentle, warm touch, that made my heart race.
You belong in the poetry, of someone else now,
and I'd stop writing like this, if I only knew how.
But before I am gone, I'll make a closing remark,
I'm still in love with the girl, who I kissed in that park

I'm not gonna lie, my dear I wanted more,
but it seems forever's not what life had in store.
No it seems for us, there was so little time,
just those few perfect days on which you were mine.

No matter what, you'll never believe,
but the one thing I now hope to achieve,
it to convince you of what I know to be true,
if anyone has been gorgeous, it's you.

Well I won't say it's nothing, cause it feels like a lot,
but they're feelings for a girl, who I haven't even got,
and I hope your day's perfect, yes my dear, I do,
but nothing could be half as perfect as you.

Sappy and stupid, that's what love is,
but I'm not anymore, these words are his.
But perhaps I will say, that all thanks to you,
well perhaps maybe sappy, describes me too.
Your giggle is perfect, beyond compare,
and on the subject of perfect, there's your flawless hair.
But beyond all else, there's the way that I feel,
when thinking of you, I know this love's real.

Either I'll love you forever, or one day I won't
and I'm not sure which option, scares me the most.
Forever feeling, the pain of losing you,
or that one day, your Ade, might just be a ghost.

If you've ever the chance, you should just run away,
you'll put in so much effort, and she'll leave anyway.
But for all of my talk, and my warnings of this,
I'll always be staying in hopes of a kiss,
with those lips are dancing in all of my dreams,
with the girl who's perfection is more than it seems.
When you fall for this girl, there's no running away,
so you'll pay no attention, to these words that I say.

I don't want you to miss a single one of the poems I write for you,
they are so many words I left unpublished that she never even knew.
I'd written of the moment that light crashed to the floor,
and I've wrote a thousand words of her being the one I do adore.
But she's missed so many lines, and I wouldn't wish that upon you,
so for as long as I keep writing I'll keep sending you them to.

Maybe she's not an angel,
but perhaps she's what I need.
And I know that she's not you 'cause,
she's not making my heart bleed.
But she's gorgeous and she's funny and she's one of a kind,
and I just can't seem to get her out of my mind.
I can't say her name, without the hint of a blush,
I know it's not love yet, but it's more than a crush.

Don't give up hope, the news could be good,
you've had much more bad luck, than anyone should.
You deserve so much better, and I hope that's what you get,
so on the whole world that is hope, don't let the sun set.

A dear sweet muse, I've found again,
in the summery sun, not the cold dark rain,
she makes me laugh, she makes me smile,
she's had me writing, for a while.

I could tell you in ten words,
what he couldn't in a thousand
and I could write a thousand words for you
in the time he could barely say ten

But what would it matter, what would you care?
The girl I'm in love with, we both know she's not there.

And by now, you see, I think,
that you've pushed me to the brink,
of how much I can resist,
and yet you still, my dear, insist,
on being so very cute,
causing feelings I can't refute,
and so perhaps to you I'll say,
the way I feel...one day.

What I expected, was certainly not this,
you're stirring up feelings, that I can't dismiss,
You cute, and you're funny, and a whole lot of fun,
and it made my heart flutter, when you laughed at my pun,
and I know that I shouldn't, but perhaps I've a crush,
so I'll conclude with just this, I love how you blush.

I was everything that you were wanting,
and it seems that you've forgotten,
but it's too late now you see,
'cause now you'll never, ever get to me.

I'd take the release of death,
over this silence tonight.
I said was hopeless,
and it seems I was right

If I only had the words,
to say the things I feel.
If I could only let you know,
and explain that this is real.
If only I could find some way,
to take another chance.
If I could only hold your hand,
even for a single dance.
Well maybe then, I just don't know,
I'd love you for forever or so.

Goodnight dear friend, if that I can say,
though I hope you're more, perhaps some day.
But yes goodnight, and sleep so well,
and I'll keep this a secret, never to tell.

Eleven eleven. A me and you.
My constant wish, could perhaps come true.

She was the ever untamed tide,
and I the beaten shore.
She was always coming in,
then fleeing out, once more.

And as the shore, awaits the sea
so to did I await her kiss.
And much like a neap-tide shore ,
she's the one thing that I miss

Faith protects the soul,
knowledge protects the mind,
and armour protects the body,
but what then, protects the heart?

Angel of exquisite beauty,
wings stained, black as ink.
Though you knew me once,
you've no idea, just how I think.
Of you, of us, of all of this
of whom I dream, and want to kiss.
Just as it should be.

I fear that was, our last goodbye,
and I'll forever, be wondering why,
you took our love and threw it away,
while in my heart, that love shall stay.
I'd trade the world, for one last kiss,
or to just for a moment, be something you miss.
I'll see you soon, but you won't see me,
because you don't dwell, on what used to be.

I can't fight the thoughts I've had since the start,
can't hope to ease my broken heart,
but then the voice, it calls to me,
and reminds me that, I want to be,
so far far far away from here,
so far from love and life my dear.
It'd be so easy, if I were to try,
I could do it now, just up, and die.

You're over there, and the sun's yet to rise,
but here it's day and I'm still dreaming of your eyes.
I hope you sleep, so sound and perfectly,
you'll never know how much I want you here with me.
I've loved you for such a long time now,
and I know I'll be kissing you awake some day, some how

You never deserved any of the poems I wrote for you,
and I hope I never write you any more.

Your eyes are all dull and your cheeks are all red,
Forever with you? Ha I'd be better off dead.
You're such an ugly, manipulative, little piece of work
the thought I once called you perfect, makes me go berserk.
How could anyone love, someone like you,
how could I be so stupid as to once want to.

I should have known that our forever,
was just another lie you'd spun,
but somehow you had me thinking,
that you could have been the one.
You had me dreaming of your face,
each and every single night,
my head told me it was wrong,
and now my heart tells me I was right.

You left again, you do that a lot,
but I love you, in case you forgot.

We're not something, that I regret,
though now I feel, my heart's beset,
every poem was still, so perfect, so true,
though just like, each 'I love you'.

I don't regret us, it was worth the pain,
and given a chance, I'd do it again.

I see you in the ocean, as I stare out at sea,
and miss you when I sit, where you once sat with me.
When I awake from a nightmare, with my heart all a'race,
the one sight I wish for, is your beautiful face.
I miss your laugh when I think of, jokes I wish I could tell,
and I miss your gentle sweetness, when my life feels like hell.
I miss my little angel, when I stare at the rain,
I miss you so much, that my heart fills with pain.
I miss your perfect hair, as I watch the flames dance,
and I miss that first night, when we took that first chance.
But our story's not over, our story's not done,
I might miss you now, but I know you're the one.

And she's back and it's great and I'm top of the heap,
she says she loves me and I'm feeling complete.
But then comes the days, when she no longer replies,
and each time I reach out, a little more of me dies.
My head says I'm being stupid, by my heart starts to bleed,
'There's a logical reason...' 'but it's her love I need'.
So hey, maybe she's not gone, maybe I'm thinking too much
But I miss her so much, I crave her voice and her touch,
now I'm unsure if she's mine.

I assume you're gone, but I don't know,
you won't even say, why you've hurt me so.
Still alone right here, I miss you,
my angel's gone, what can I do?

When I thought of the future, it was always me you,
Together we were unbreakable, tested, tried and true.
But now you're just in memories of times better than this,
Yet I've no idea if you are still the same person that I miss

It's kind of sad to think, that it's been a whole **** year,
and I still listen to this song, as the clock reads 4am,
and down my cheek still slides, a single lonely tear.

And I'm still sat here missing you,
and I still don't know what to do,
and I still tearfully miss,
that last so haunting kiss.

Still you're out there having fun,
or more likely asleep,
I'll sleep with the rising sun,
because in love I'm far too deep.