dead week hasn't even started yet
but i already feel dead inside

The threat that I'm gonna relapse is hanging over me
Like a dark cloud
I shiver knowing that I could fall
Off the small ledge I have made myself
At any moment I could take up
The blade that has done so much damage
I'm okay
For now
But will I be a week from today?

maybe turn your back
on the glaring light of day
these things could wreck
your mind and make it fray

bile and venom line your lips
a wall you throw up with your tongue
spit it out, make a rip
in the world that stung

It has been one week
But the days pass by like months
And I'm left waiting

Wake up
It's Monday
Lace up your shoes
Walk out the door
No one to notice anymore
There's no one here anymore

Wake up
It's Tuesday
Makeup your face
Walk straight to work
To get a good tip just flirt
Smile so it doesn't have hurt

Wake up
It's Wednesday
Comb out your hair
Go through the rain
The wet can hide the pain
That's on your face in stains

Wake up
It's Thursday
Look in the mirror
Avoid your eyes
Don't listen to empty lies
To whispers in their eyes

Wake up
It's Friday
Brush your teeth
Swallow all fear
No one left to listen here
None to shout, ****, or jeer

Wake up
It's Saturday
Click out your notes
Play back the laughs
You've recorded in drafts
Not much ever seems to last

Wake up
It's Sunday
Button your dress
Go pray at church
Tell yourself it all has worth
How could it get any worse

Wake up
It's Monday
Lace up your shoes

I want to run from bad
stay with good
get the **** out
I do wish I could
find an escape
to save myself
while I'm holding on
I'm being let go by everyone else

I'm intuitive
so I do know
that I wasn't good enough
even when I put on the show

And **** the lies
the cover up
**** it all
cause' no matter what I do
I continue to fall

So **** that *****
I'm not dumb
I know she won
the best **** thing that I now do see is done

Wrong is attracted to me
I'm trying to find right
this is the ****
that keeps me up at night
but even when
I find something good enough for ME
I'm not good enough for it
and don't you see
I'm nothing more than a week of fun
because after that
everybody's done

Rome wasn't built in a day
But your influence on me did

I ask you a thousand questions every time i talk to you.
I say the most randomness things ever. :P
You called me to just tell me you like me.
Since then ive gone crazy.
You told me im pretty.
I smiled for a week.
I have five days til i see you again.
Five days til i get to see you since you told me you like me.
Five days since ive began to slimy fall in love with you.
I've counted down the days.
Because I have been wanting to see you so badly.
That i cant stop thinking of you,or talking about you.
You are whats been on my mind so much this past week its crazy.
I dont want to wait five whole days.
Or i may go more crazy about you :P.
But this feeling I am kinda loving it.

Every day you wake up.
Are you the same when you close your eyes at the end of the day?
Look back just the day before are things still the same they were?
Now look back a week ago.
Are things still the same?
Now do something.
Reading this right now the time you taking right this second.
The second you eyes see these words.
Are you still the same right now.
Now do something else.
Go get a picture from when you where younger.
Or even a month ago or last year whenever but a picture from some time ago.
Look into a mirror.
Stare at your reflection well,
Now look at that picture stare at yourself start at that picture for while.
After a while.
Look back into that mirror and think did things change?
What's all happened?
Ask yourself this.
Am i still the same i was just this morning?
Am i still the same i was yesterday?
Am i still the same i was a month ago?
Am i still the same i was a year ago?
Am i still the same i was before reading this?
Are you?

I know my answers now what are yours?