we have never even touched hands
we just know each other
we laugh together
we share smiles, and glances for far too long

but i dream about the way ur breath would feel at the nape of my neck
and i think about how fast my heart would beat just sitting on the couch with u
and i even think of how ur kisses would feel like chapped lips but i smile
sometimes i imagine having real conversations with u...


about our pasts
about our goals
about our favorite songs
about our first kiss experience
about our number one desired meals
about our previous pets and current pets
about our views on if aliens exist
about our future with or without each other


but then i remember if any of those things happened i would fall in love with u






and then what would she do?

why do we hate when we should love
why can’t we forgive and just make up
instead we get mad and hold up guns
we fall into society and now look who’s won
so who’s really winning? the world. or us.

we’re surrounded by people yet all alone
trapped in our minds, trapped in our phones
we say we’re “ok”
but you can tell by the tone
we’re fighting, we’re scared, we just want to feel at home
so who’s really winning? the world. or us.
            
the truth is we’re trapped in society
and scared to be us
so we conform, we change, we try to fit there ways
but the reality is we’ll never be enough
we have to choose happiness, choose love
choose forgiveness and choose to trust
we have to forget society and choose US
So Ask yourself
who will you let win? the world. or us.

It's never the right time
for us,
and since there is more us-
not now, not ever,
I will cherish 'us'
from our past
and from my dreams.
I will cherish 'us'
with my poetry,
and with the photographs
I still have scattered
in the shadows.