Ugh

I fell of the stairs for the 2nd time today.


(This is a joke ssshhh)
(I did fall off the stairs though)

I find myself tired
as in,
exhausted,
as in,
drained.
they will not talk to me,
I am unsure of what I have done.
I am tired of being this lonely all the time.

Maybe I can write myself high
Convince my mind to detach
To float off into another world
Where breath isn't followed by regret
With persuasive, sensual words
Searching for the right combination
My entire body relaxes
A grin grows on my lips
My eyes wander lazily
As I savor the rush
My mind empties
Breath slow and even
Hazy surroundings whirl
The ground bends under my feet
I laugh loudly
As my knees buckle and I stagger
For a while, nothing matters
If only I had the right words...

When the school day's going by fast
And I'm late to class
Guess what's swarming the halls?
Ugh, people.

When I want to be able to think
And there's screaming throwing me off sync
Who's making the calls?
Yep, people.

When I need my personal space
To get away from all the race
Guess who's here?
Dumb people.

When I'm feeling stressed and trapped
By expectations for my life map
What's the source of the fear?
Lots of people.

People can be nice
In small amounts
But when they're being annoying
It doesn't count

Can you feel the weight
Sagging on your bones
And the dead skin
Carrying your woes

Can you feel the pain
Run through your tears
And the eyes burn
Shining with fear

Can you feel it
Consuming your mind
And your thoughts
No longer holding the monsters inside