You call me a heartbreaker
I say-
Like father
Like daughter
You get good at breaking hearts
When yours is broken
By the one who gave it to you

I’m so sorry, Lord
I failed again
Even though I say I’m trying
It feels like I can’t

I can’t try
Without failing
And I fail
At trying

All the while I carry this cross
The weight seems so heavy to bear
And I stacked on the pounds
I was not unaware
But surprised when the last grain of rice tipped the scale
And I look back to see myself having failed

And then I stop and I think
(Not to dissipate the guilt,
But to accept my fate)
It was never written or taught
That you never tripped while you walked
Carrying your cross
To Calvary— for me.
And for a time even, you allowed
A friend to carry the weight
You, even, were not alone in your feat.

Lord,
I will look and behold
But strengthen my neck
To hold it up
Help lift my cross
So that I am not crushed
I want to dwell in your glory
But what do I know of Holy?

A year ago this was not me,
Somehow my direction changed
And slowly I turned from your face
And once you were just an arms length away
And now I’m in a valley
Looking miles up the Hill
Where you died for me

Today I am not the woman weeping
At your feet
But my Lord and God
I long to be


It was me
who nailed your hands and your feet.
Please, forgive me.

Forgive me Lord
It was me.
I am the cause of your sufferings.

Please show me what it is I need
To do to come to your mercy seat
Lead my feet And hold me

I will walk the road to Calvary
Or I will walk the road you paved for me.
I will collapse at your feet, begging,
Please forgive me.


I understand the one
Who washed your feet with her tears
And dried them with her hair

She saw your glory
And perhaps her misdeeds

And like so many heard
I long to hear the words
“Take up thy bed and walk”
Or, “thy sins are forgiven thee”

I will not pray,
“Please save me”
But “you have saved me.
Now please, please,
Change me.”

Make me more worthy
I know it might hurt
Cleaning the wounds imbedded with dirt
But you will wash me.

My liar


I need you to give yourself to me completely.
Anything less and we will not make it last.
I need you to have only one lover and it can only be me;
If you want me to love you and to give you all I have.


I need you to need me, like I need to want your body.
If you do not feel the same way,
Then there are plenty of other men out there for you;
Leave me to remain a nobody.


But if you think you want me to be your burning desire,
Then tell me
And be with me.
Be the fuel to loves Molotov cocktail
And the ignition that makes me glow;
Be the spark to my inferno.
Be the match to my forest fire.
Be the inspiration to my wishes,
But never be my liar.


Be honest with me
And you will have me as yours;
But I will always keep one eye upon the exit door.
For I will be gone if you decide to test our bond;
Love is fragile, so treat it kindly, or it will be gone.
I am fully committed to leaving, or love
And all it has to give.
But I will not stand still, to be knocked down,
By a cheat who cannot be true to their promise.


One chance only, to stay faithful, truly.
I am one step from leaving, so do not disappoint me.
If you cannot be truthful and truly stay faithful,
Then I will be gone and our love will die like a blown out candle.


Passionate about being passionate,
But not willing to take a chance, through fear of regret.
Honestly, I just cannot take another hit of a liar’s carbon;
I have inhaled enough false roses to build myself a fake garden.


I am alone, because love left me to my dreams;
But nightmares are true memories of what real love is.
So love me or lose me,
The choice is yours; so choose now.
Here is my soul;
Here is my heart.
Here is my mind…
So tell me; are you in…
Or are you out?


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