I have loved you with my heart,
Not because I was after your flesh,
But I wanted us to be one,
For the beauty of your virtues, is my light.

I have always held you close,
Treasured you as my own breath,
Cherished you as my own soul,
For my love, abounds in eternity.

You have been the abundance of my heart,
The strength of my bones,
Always honored you as the queen of my life,
For my love, flows out of the heart.

I haven’t been the type that fades,
When they are pricked by thorns,
But I have always stayed beside you,
For my love, never, has it been seasonal.

Have I tarried to love you?
Have I ever run out of affection for you?
Have I ever left you alone, to bliss myself with others?
Have I ever let you, drop tears without me wiping them?

Today, you tell me to leave you alone,
You want me to forget the US,
Tell me, my Love, because I don’t know,
The reason to leave you alone.

the truth runs wild
the truth runs free.
i've never felt happier
than when you're with me.

I know that...
Deep inside those eyes so hollow,
lies a poor soul deep in sorrow.
Hiding from that feared tomorrow,
hoping for some time to borrow.

I know you...
Built these walls for selfless reasons,
and hid your heart in fear of treason.
You built your walls, you built a prison;
you built a shield against the seasons.

I know they...
Broke your heart and brought you down,
and for your soul they sent the hounds.
For years and years they stlaked around,
feeding to your endless frown.

I know I...
Gained your trust and passed your walls,
I found my way through endless halls.
I heard your whispers and your calls,
I saw the light grow ever small.

I know that...
there can be a bright tomorrow;
with no more pain, no more sorrow.

I know you...
can free yourself from this prison,
and find in life many reasons.

I know they...
will never again make your frown,
as long as I stand around.

I know I...
can help bring down those hollow walls,
and guide you through those endless halls.

And I know we...
can find a way to move together,
till the end and till forever.

i fell in love with
the way you
so passionately
rejected me.

{d.f.|05/01/18}

Drifting away by the stream of thoughts,
A painful wind brushes through my skin,
Gathering pieces of time while still clinging on,
But I can't save them from spilling and vanishing,
Ah, phantoms.
I can't move, my motions are restricted by my cut off conscious,
My mind is empty, there is no thought, no judgement,
But I can't leave you here, even if I become as mindful as a little rock,
Perhaps it has been decided, under the clouds that this should have been so all along, but even then, with my never changing life I can at least keep shining for you,
After overcoming even time and space, may my gaze though fraught with the most terrible sins, lead you on to happiness,
But it seems like your brilliant smile just now turned to ash,
As then spilled but vanished just like the time we spent together.
In the end I couldn't save us from drifting apart,
Was it because I couldn't see into your heart?

~ Umi