.retsasid sdrawkcab a diova yam ew oS
retsam ot su rof stsixe ssenkaew tuB

.deyarp ev’uoy ecno retteb hcum leef dnA
dial ev’yeht shtap eht wollof uoY
.dnilb eht eusrup dna kaew eht dnuop tuB
?dniknam pleh ot enod uoy evah tahW

.ecnatirehni yppah dniheb gnidiH
ecnagorra htiw kcom dna egduj uoY
.thgin sseldne dna ,niap ,regnuh fO
?thgir s’tahw tuoba wonk uoy od tahW

i threw a knife at ,my window instead of my heart
it was selfish really, to break something else
so that i don't fall apart.

You:
How selfish could you be? Do you know that it hurts me? Look at all the people you left behind. All the pain that you caused. I have to deal with you killing yourself. I am sad. I could've have been there for you. How dare you take your own life and leave me? You had no right to do that to me.

Me:
I hear what you are saying but listen to me. The only thing I hear in your statements is me, me, me. You tell me I am selfish yet look at what you say. My death has nothing to do with you how selfish can YOU be. All the pain that I caused does not compare to mine. Nobody was there before. I was all alone. You were too busy to care to see how my eyes were hollow. Why be there now after I'm dead? My life was my life not yours to keep. I see your anger as guilt. Now how selfish can that be?

I think your women have to prove themselves
You make them work for it and you do not
You know they are hooked

So you only go with it when something new pushes you along
Like the fact that I like ***** heads songs
Or that I read poetry
Or that I smoke ****

It’s understandable you want us to have things in common
But why am I the one always making the effort to find those things

Is it selfish of me to keep with you
When I don’t think you’re in it fully
Because I am.

Our similarities are undeniable
Even to you
And that’s why I know when every once in a while
You see what I see and it pushes you along
Along to me
And I’m okay with that

Maybe we are both a little selfish but either way
as long as I have you, I’m okay

Since when is it okay
To feel indifferent
I've kept my heart away
And now my mental health is distant
I am lost.

And that use to be fun
But its gone too far..

Who have I become.