take my secret
and bury it in
your chest,
you can visit it
every now
and then,
just don’t give
it too much
attention,
it feeds on and is
greedy for
grudges,
it will not hestitate
to steal the
spot light from
your heart.

You are not interested in me. It is as clear as pure water.
I have someone else. It is as evident as the sun is shining.

But I fell for you. Secretly, but certainly. Although I have someone else next to me, you know he cheated on me. You know how much he has hurt me. However, you believe that I still love him and that my feelings for him are unwavering whatsoever.

Have you ever found me lovable, even in the slightest degree, in our 8-year friendship? I cannot help being anxious and envious of the sore gaze she can give to you. I cannot express any of these feelings of mine to anyone, though...

I am just happy to be with you. My heart soars when I see you smile. Sitting next to you is just enough for me. Please do not notice tears on my cheek.

i called him ash
as charcoal was a bit obvious
and i loved him
so of course
i had to keep it a secret

u could see the brokenness in me.
u could see the darkness behind this mask.
u could see that i tried, yet i fail then lying on the ground, given up.
u could see i was overwhelmed.
u could see i was trying to fight against the war in my head.

the pain,
the suffering,
i am hurt.
u could see that.
u wanted me to trust u,
u wanted me to open up to u,
u said u could help.

when i gave u the keys to this locked door,
u ran up to me,
u held me up when i fell.
u shooed away what was there crowding and surrounding me.
u held up the sword and told me to stand behind u, u wanted to help me fight.
but we fought together,
and it was almost over.

now i’m picking up shattered glass.
one pricked your hand, u bled,
but u continued.

i hoped u didn’t see the glass bead tears under those light.
the light that u brought into this darkness.
i’m really thankful that u helped me,
if only it wasn’t over so soon.
could u stay with me?
i want u to, please?
i... i—,, 92&/@/&/&
i— love you.

I recognize the one telling me
That one guy in my old Algebra class 8th grade
He was stupid, but kinda cute
So why after all this time
Does he come back
But only in my mind

You, yes you..
I wanna share a secret with you,

     YOU ARE VERY BEAUTIFUL.