I am an idiot.


Still we are searching for a light in the dark.
Forward we march and still we have no knowledge of who we are.
Higher we climb towards shooting stars;
We are lost without guidance
And evolution is one step for mankind too far.


Stuck in reverse; heading nowhere fast.
Take a step back, to take another look at what we had.
A thing that was never truly seen,
But imagined and so soon it was in the past.


So we keep on going in the wrong direction.
Blind to all future wisdom; lost without a kingdom.
No place to place my heart at your feet, for a home I lack
And I have no crown that is not broken, that I can use for a hat.


A false self-bestowed title of King I placed upon myself.
A lie about a man who lives in his own personal Hell.
A wish to be more; but impossible without your help.
A maze inside a garden is no place for the mind to dwell.


But stuck in a rut is my normality;
So tragic to see that you just can’t see me
And nobody can hear the words that I need to speak,
Because I am forever unknown to you
And that is the way it will always be.


Forget me not’s in your rose scented garden.
Remembering a voice; remember to share your wisdom.
For all are in need of your message of hope,
Because we lack any belief in anything and so,
We meander through your mind, splashing in every puddle.
A whispering wisp never before seen is showing you your double.
A reflection of your fate in the water; there is a presence.
We are now only a memory, for you are royalty
And I am simply a simple peasant.


No resentment on either side, but still no will to confide
And so inside a lie we hide the truth you wish you could find.
But we are not sharing, because you could never understand.
The words of a wanderer, who wonders;
Why are you not using the power within your hands?


Free me from my burden which I carry inside my head
And just let me forget you and the possibilities;
So I can just become oblivious.
I have a need to unload these words I have said,
But you refuse to listen; you will not take them,
Because you are a mystery to me
And we are the idiots.


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I will wait.


If love is searching for me, then I will not move.
I will wait here, doing nothing, until she comes into view.
I will wait here a million years if she is worth the wait.
I will patiently remain, even if she is a thousand years too late;
Because I hope she is running to be with me.
I desire her love, so patiently,
I wait to embrace,
To see her face,
So I can know the day I found her.


I will wait until she arrives
And if it takes until the end of time
And I only get a second to look into her eyes,
Then I will wait…
Because she will have tried to reach me;
So it must be,
Possible for her to truly love me.


If love is searching,
I will not be deserting.
I will wait patiently, even when I am truly hurting.
I will wait…

…For you.


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Until when will I wait?
Until when will I suffer?
Until when will I long?
Until when will I seek?

Until when should I lock myself up?
Until when will I long for the warmth?
Until when should I feel dead inside?
Until when should I walk alone in this life?

Until when should my heart be hard as stone?
Until when do I have to wait for someone to chisel it?
Until when will the winter of my life last?
Until when do I stay just to see you at last?

Until when do I have to suffer lonely nights?
Until when will I wake up in a cold, empty bed?
Until when will I feel anxious about a single's lifetime?
Until when will I fear connecting to someone else's life?

Until when do we have to wait?
Until when do we have to suffer?
Until when 'til I see your face?
Until when 'til I hold your hands?

Until when do I just see you in my dreams?
Until when 'til I see you in my reality?
Until when 'til we finally meet?
Until when 'til we passionately love?

Until when will I be alone?
Until when will I be isolated?
Until when will my emotions be suppressed?
Until when 'til I finally bask in your embrace?

I am stuck here..

Waiting for you..

Are you stuck somewhere else too?

If so, then tell me how to find you..

And if Fate blesses this search..

If the gods open the path which leads to you..

I'll never ever let go of you..

So tell me..

Until when 'til I find you?