You loved and lost.
I search for you,
In the light of love and hope.
Tracing u everywhere,
Exhausting my mind and soul.
Heart failed me first,
Mind later.

secret agent
nearing endgame
chessboard of patience
unraveling sapience
burning the haystack
the needle will come up
delivered in charred black
the countdown is on track

The pressure of having to be good enough..

..is a heavy burden.

Need get be better, accomplish.

The constant search for perfection.

But what am I searching for?

Me?

Lost in my mind once again.

The past comes back to haunt me.

To remind me, preventing me from forgetting.

I've felt enough pain.

Where's my peace? Still searching.

I need to breathe, I'm suffocating.

I hear the familiar screams inside.

The burning in my lungs.

Please let me be.

I need a place for my head.

Another way to feel alive.

In the search of truth,
I found GOD.

In the search of god,
I found love.

In the search of LOVE,
I found you.

In the search of YOU,
I found MYSELF.

Finding who i am and who i want to be
but i guess that isn't who i have to be
and what you all want me to be,
so maybe i should just stop the searching.
Feel like i should start apologizing,
for being who i want to be?
or for being someone i wasnt?
or maybe just being here in the first place?
it is all a blur and i need an escape.
At last I found the escape I need
It wasn't in the form I thought it would be?
But now I don't want to apologize
I want to be me
The me that I need to be
The me that you want me to be

I saw u I fell in Love, and you smile because u knew.

William Shakespeare.

I wish it would have been your smile But it were those eyes which have hooked me with your memory. And now I am counting down the days, hoping to see u again and break free..