I've been running in circles
Been dripping in sweat and rain
Making my way towards nowhere
Moving until I reach where you are

I'm losing my ******* mind
I'm giving in to my emerging fears
My mind in a repeating anxiety
Whatever happens, I can't lose you

My thighs feel tired from sprinting
My tears mixing with water and sweat
Why does it seem that wherever I run
I never get to see or meet you?

Racing towards where you are
Thinking of all the reasons I could say
All the things that could make you stay
Pushing my mind and heart to the limit

No matter how much I try to think
All my thoughts reach one conclusion
Its something simple and undeniable
Our love exists, and it still lives on

My resolve unbroken, even if my body is
I need to see you tonight, spilling my feelings out
I'm hopelessly and madly in love with you
So where, just where, could you be tonight?

I can't live without you by me
I can't be without your embrace
I can't forget those sweet, tender kisses
In other words, I need you too much

And I am ready to throw it all away
To endure the sad, sleepless nights
To endure the pointless, lazy days
Just to spend a minute with you again

But where are you now?
I'm almost desperate for hope
My breathing heavier by the second
Dear God, please let me endure further

Just when I'm about to give up
There you were, standing in front of me
Soaked in sweat, rain, and tears
Almost on the verge of defeat

My eyes lit up, my heart in relief
My tears about to burst, as were yours
Both with reasons to say to each other
As we run to lock for an embrace

I took the deepest breath in my life
As I tried not to choke on the tears
Saying "I love you" crazily on repeat
As the only reason to make you stay

You are my reason for living
And for tonight, and all the nights to come
I'll make you stay with me, and hold you tight
I'll love you for the longest time my life allows

Emptiness has built a home I inhabit trapped inside my shell
If I remain here at least I'll make it look a little less like Hell
My thoughts form with cohesive structure
Dancing with clumsy pictures that slice and puncture
Do the words I am saying make any sense?
Or are they just ramblings of a mind depressed?
Closing in towards the end of strength and will
The finish line seems further still
No one near cheering me on
As I stumble this one-man marathon

every time i close my eyes,
you find me

i run

my brain is reminding me
to fear you
to hate you
to despise you

i run

i've been a stranger
to myself
lately

i run

i hate what i've become
and it's because of you

i keep running

i run away

i run and i run and i run






but
you
always
catch up

He smiles
That dark, mischievous smile
It's a twisted grin
The kind you get when you remember
When you remember that life never goes to plan
You see, his past
It isn't a winding curious trail
it never really reconnects
He simply branched off
Over and over again
A hard right here
A slight left there
Always a new journey
Always a new road
He plans his future
And then veers off
Because to him
Linear isn't an option
There are to many what ifs for that
He could be a lawyer, or a chef
Maybe a pipe fitter, maybe an architect
There's just too many options
For him to stick to just one
Life is simply to easy to pack up
When nowhere feels like home
That doesn't mean he hasn't found it
Because he has
Home, home is that empty stretch of highway at 2am
Home is that one song he hears
Everytime he starts feeling lost
Home isn't really a place for him
It's just a feeling
So he smiles
the hint of a storm brewing behind his eyes
As he makes plans once again
And sees just how long they last