Once again you're invading my mind
I try to close my eyes and there you are
Like shining stars lighting up the sky so bright
There's definitely something about you that won't let me sleep tonight
Again I try to fall asleep, but this time all I hear is your voice
I guess I have no choice but not sleep tonight

It looks like we're gonna see the sun rise again this morning I can't help but wonder if you noticed as well that we will see the colors within the sky swell. The last time I saw it I was reminded of The Lion King it's so interesting the way the little things can get to me I wanted to watch it rise for a longer amount of time than I really had in fact; it makes me kind of sad that I didn't. And now my sleeping schedule is all out of wack wow, Rebecca. Why'd you do that? I just couldn't help it, don't you want to see the ocean of colors in the sky as well? I can't stop myself from picturing diving into the sky, I never learnt how to swim but I trust I'd only cause splashing to emerge from the happiness that these colors fill me with- I'd like to believe they'd hold me. **I won't drown.

What hides behind the tears of a clown
A man whos sanity has been lost
And cannot be found
Ive settled my demons
They no longer make a sound
As each waking hour passes
As time keeps counting down
What hides behind a happy face
Is a wicked frown
As all my twist3d thoughts
Keep spinning around and around
Why cant I escape from this
This carnival of hell
But thats a story id rather not tell
So until next time
I wish you all well
Until the day we meet in hell

Tired yet awake
Forced to medicate
Dreams of terror I can't escape
My only chance is to sedate
If my eyes close on their own accord
A monster's breath I've felt before
The same creature every night
I feel it's face so close to mine
What is this apparition and what does he want
To keep me awake with his evil taunts
His sadistic whispers burn my ears
From deep he summons my darkest fears
I clench my eyes and wait for dawn
When daybreak comes he will be gone
I don't know why he's chosen me
It's been years since I've had peace
I go to work like I'm alright
But I know it will be back tonight

insomniac to the weight of regret          
           I'm inclined to withhold.

It's 3am
I'm on the couch (too far from you)
Feet soaking in an old cooking ***
Filled to the brim with cold water
Fading in
Fading out.
Morning light creeps in
And I wonder if I've slept at all.

I've had grit in my eyes
for so long.
I've had sleep stuck in my
eyelashes for so long,
refusing to sink and rest.
This is the kind of grit that I cannot wipe away
not the kind of tired I can sleep away.
I've so tired for so long.
When will it go away?
It will go away, right?