A poem to my People:
"I love you all dearly,
but I know that you have gone;
I see you all here daily,
but I know that you have gone.
I don’t blame you, I understand you,
And I know that I bring shame;
But I also understand,
that I was not to blame.
I know I won’t be welcome likely
ever there again,
And although you may not believe me
I don’t want to cause you pain.
I hope for your forgiveness,
Although I did no wrong;
I hope someday you'll understand
that I did no wrong.
I have tried to make contact,
but you never spoke again;
And because you are so many,
this causes so much pain.
But I guess that you have gone now,
and forever that may be,
If he only hadn’t hung himself,
you might have believed me.
But now that I know,
that I’m not the only one,
I understand the "dark side"
more than anyone.
I understand the culture,
its different where I live;
And although I hope for change for all,
I as yet can just forgive.
I hold nothing against you,
as I said - I understand;
but I hope that in the future,
heads won’t be buried in the sand.
I rarely write poetry,
but this is all I can do;
as a way to get my thoughts across
to so many of you.
I live here in Scotland,
I don’t need to be ashamed;
here on this "Isle of Arran",
I am never blamed.
I hope that St Helena
one day will see it too;
that "there is no excuse for abuse"
no matter "who is who".
It’s sad to lose the RMS,
the most loyal Saint of all,
but she is serving us still by
opening the island to the World.
Opinions might be questioned,
from cultures far and wide,
but with that I hope you'll see
that I have nothing to hide.
Through my bad experiences
I have gained a lot as well,
I have an understanding of
all the people put through hell.
I know I’m one of many,
I know I’m not alone;
together we share this deep connection
to a place that some call "home".
I hope one day you'll forgive me,
as I forgive you,
for treating me the only way
that you knew.
The RMS is serving us,
by opening up this land;
If she stayed forever-
you might never understand.
She may be just a ship to some,
but to me she’s so much more;
She has a soul, a personality,
she had to leave our shores.
We have a lot in common,
both feeling as if "disposed of";
but I do hope we won’t end up scrapped,
and still receive some love.
I'll love you all forever,
even if I hear nothing again;
and I don’t regret my visit,
even though I "caused you pain"
You may not understand just yet,
but I hope one day you will;
and with more education,
the Island will be better still.
I stand by the others,
as they have done for me;
and I’m forever grateful
to my "extra family".
I wish you well for now,
as I’m tired and can write no more;
and I just hope that one day
Such darkness shall leave these shores.”
Take care,
love **
A desperate plea to "my people" who never spoke again, after I was subjected to assault. They disappeared from my life completely.
