Oh Lord help me find away
In my head to be ok
Let my emotions and my fear
From now on please disappear

Let your Spirit always stay by me
Never let my demons find me
Let me have a day of peace
Let my emotions and anger cease

Help me be like all the others
Like my sister and my brother
Let me please have days of laughter
And my night with rest here after

If again I should elapse have a fit or an attack
Please hold my hand Lord bring me back
To calmness and a place of bliss
You know my Lord that this I miss

Bring me to a place of normal reasoning
To happiness and no more screaming
Happy moments gentle kindness
Take away the evil blindness

Help me Lord to make it through
Help me Lord to say near to you
May I stay stead fast and determined
To follow you and not be blinded

Forgive me when I'm at my worse
And have my moments full of out burst
To the ones I hold so near and dear
Because I'm lost and confused with fear

When my mind is running crazy
And I lay crying and I'm so lazy
When I'm like a spoilt child
Throwing tantrums and going wild

Let me feel your arms around me
Let me always pull towards thee
Thank you that you paved the away
So one day by you I'll always stay

Let me never loose my meaning
Even when I'm asleep and dreaming
When I'm in a rage and temper
Help me always your word to remember

When I'm in my place of anger
And to myself could be a danger
Let your presence and your peace
All this evil within me release

I do not understand my anguish
Forgive me for my out burst and language
Help me not to be so cruel and nasty
Full of hatred and so crafty

I don't want to be like this
I just want to keep my wits
Only you can see with in me
Oh Lord Jesus please do help me

I know you see the bigger picture
Your my helper and my fixer
Help me Lord to stand my ground
When the evil one is abound

Give me strength and stamina
To leave it to you Lord my only planner
Give me faith and understanding
When voices in my head are rambling

Give me courage and determination
To face my fears and my delusion
Let me stand fast hold my ground
Till the quiet and peace is found

Lift me up and carry me through
My nights and days of utter blue
Thank you for your life at calvery
Thank you Lord for your life you saved me

i'm beyond stressed.
i can't help but wonder when the good lord will let me rest.
the pressure is building upon my shoulders.
like the ocean swells that crash upon the cliffside boulders.
all of these tiresome, daily meddles.
i'm waiting for the moment it all comes crashing down and the dust finally settles.

He sees right through me to who I am
Yet He loves me with all my faults as I am
He cries for me when I sit quietly alone
As I sob for broken hearts and a faraway home

When things aint worked out quiet as planned
He sent Jesus my saviour and my Lord the Lamb
To fix up my mess ups and plans that’s gone bad
He lifts up my spirit and blesses me when I’m sad

He feels my frustration and takes me by the hand
And shows me tomorrow won’t be so gloomy and bland
When all has gone wrong and all else fails
I know my Lord is mighty and above all He hails

If I stand back and let him take lead of my life
All will be over from worry to strife
When I rejoice and jump with glee
I know my Lord is smiling with me

At the darkest moment of my life
My Lord my God was by my side
He strengthened me and held me tight
And lifted me high with all his might

In times of pain and suffering
God’s love and mercy was undying
He feels my pains and agonies
And carries them along with me

Because my Saviours time is Right
I’ll keep on going with all my might
With Jesus in me I have the fight
To make it through each and every night

The road I've travelled thus up to now
I've made it through only Jesus knows how
It’s been a journey of endless fights
But Jesus raised me to new levels and heights

All though the laughter I've had lots
Sometimes happiness came at a cost
My pride and dignity I sometimes lost
But I clung to Jesus for all it cost

I sit right now and wonder how
I’ll make it through another hour
As I lay here full of fear
My operations very near

I pray to Jesus to comfort me
He whispers softly you will see
That through it all and from now on
All your pain and suffering is gone

From here on out and ever more
My loving healing on you ill pour
I’ll stay with you and keep you strong
I do not care however long

Until that day you know will come
And you will have to leave your home
But fear not dear
For ill be near

Right next to you
To take you through
From this here place of misery
To what you know is your destiny

Your home up yonder where I do dwell
To be with loved ones and have peace as well
Where all your hurt and worries fade
It’s a perfect home for you I made

I don't know what to think
I don't know what to say
I never thought it'd happen
But it happened just today

I've liked him all these years
I watched and loved and prayed
He never, ever noticed me
So I lingered, quite dismayed

But now the tide had changed
And pulled me right along
So here I document the change
In this poem, my heart's song

It seems he saw me watching
It seems he sensed my love
It seems an even greater one
Heard my praying from above

So I don't know what to think
And I don't know what to say
I never thought it'd happen
Yet it happened just today

My lord
Oh, my God my landlord
you are my life
you are my everything
I'm nothing without you
Now I offer my life, my soul
from you to me and to you
You made me
I'm just giving it all back to where it's worthy
To where it belong
And to where it for so long have longed

I love you, oh Father
you are my family
and your children are my sisters and brothers
I am yours, let it be

I will sing praises to thee
Wherever, whenever
I will always thank thee
Wherever, whenever
and i will always love and worship thee
Wherever, forever

Hallelujah
Nothing I can say but Hallelujah
I believe and declare you are Yeshua
Jesus Christ, my God, my Saviour, my Lord
To where my life is dedicated for ever
oh Hallelujah
Nothing I can say but Hallelujah!