Looking back at what's happened is hindsight looking into the present moment is insight looking ahead into the future is foresight but looking in all three ways at once is all-seeing; OMNISCIENT and the way that God would see. ------------------ Glory and praise to You Oh Lord. Please bless, guide and protect us all now and forever more Amen. __
Written early October '23. The last seven lines in the form of acknowledgement and prayer added while posting.
she asked for a birthday calendar simplistic in design quite endearing nonetheless to collate each and every important date mark them down in her neatest clearest handwriting she thought that if she hung it in pride of place on the wall by the kitchen door her eye would be drawn to it each time she left the room she would not forget to send the appropriate message of congratulations and many happy returns when needed or expected; although the calendar may coincidentally be showing the correct month it has remained on that page untouched ignored or unheeded for the past eleven months
the trouble is sleep doesn't ever seem to last long enough no matter how many hours are lost to its nothingness discarded willingly to the vague and the vacuous some might say for dream's sake but debate remains around the benefit relevance or reverence to be found in that logic waking up always brings with it a desire for more for a return to a form of non-being where presence and nullity have equal sway to be and not to be ego id superego free of interference from that backwards rationality of consciousness
Every thought I conjour is venomous Specifically hot and pressed 'insensitive' Literally lost in bottled hot headedness Weighty when I slog a verbal cosh with these sentences Hasty without thought at a cost to everybody's detriment An onslaught with no relevance... I wish I'd stopped... If only I'd stopped...
forgotten are those bright autumnal colours of the freshly fallen no longer able to offer a crisp rustling with each step a whisper that invites child and adult alike to kick and shuffle playfully ignoring the bite of frost unwelcomed by noses and fingertips
those downbeat leaves lately of such seasonal delight have been rejected by bough and branch drifting meekly without protest or wrenched from arboreal familiarity by gusting wind or gloved hand turned to mulch by constant downpours muddily trodden upon without second thought clinging to any passing boot trainer or shoe only to be scraped and scuffed on pavement or curb stomped in a puddle left behind
i was late through no fault of my own at least that's what i tell myself just one of those occasions where try as you might the universe won't allow you to leave on time standing at the threshold one final pat of pockets to check i had all that i needed looking up to gauge the need for coat or umbrella i witness an inhumane globule of avian faeces viscous and creamy in colour and consistency exploding upon the path two steps ahead of me i see no sign of the culprit hearing only its cacophony of enjoyment or maybe disappointment drifting into the distance
wading through the shallows a dip in this sea does not at first look particularly appealing beneath the surface is a microcosmic tempest of shingle and sand dashing upon toes upon ankles upon shins
a tickle of seaweed leaves paranoia burning where sense and logic should reside suddenly i'm wondering where sea snakes are usually found
tiptoeing against each swell to keep shoulders above water somebody calls out jellyfish and laughs clearly they are not surrounded by these alien forms drifting ever closer leaving me no option but to struggle to remain statuesque as they pass too close for comfort
when the depth forces me to give up my toehold of sand or shell to tread water and embrace the solitude finally i will see how truly clear the waters can be
even if i could go back in time make changes to the things that didn't quite work out the way i wanted have a second third fourth attempt at putting something right even if there was an opportunity to make the entirety of everything better i can honestly say i'm not certain i would
i've seen far too many films and tv shows about time-travel to make me think it's probably a lot more effort than it's worth