6 years old loves barbies plays outside learning to ride a bike shes getting taller
9 years old loves chapstick flavors walks outside rides her bike everywhere she is the tallest in her class
14 years old loves mascara runs outside to burn off the cupcake bike sits alone she is the biggest in her class
16 years old loves black runs lines down her arms, she doesnt see the sun she drives around for hours thinking about everything but nothing she is shrinking
18 years old loves loneliness runs and runs and runs from herself she drives around hoping that she will be strong enough to make it home she is breaking slowly
20 years old loves skipping meals goes running until she feels like she's going to pass out, then runs another mile she drives around thinking about her suicide attempt and thinks about heading home she doesn't even know if home is a place or a feeling or if its real lines going up her thigh now because she found out that wrists make people worry
23 years old loves medicine and **** and alcohol goes running and then to work and then tries to sleep but never can so she turns on phoebe bridgers and goes on a drive at 3am she decided that home was a place on her childhood roof looking at the stars but her parents sold the house she got a tattoo instead of making her own scars because if she’s going to be in pain anyways someone might as well make art out of it- but she found the tattoo didn’t hurt her at all so the grid on her thigh came back anyways.
people don't understand the process of self destruction it started a long time ago and it will never end until she does.
burn all the study notes smash the greenhouse windows destroy the lab equipment and flood the basement storage
shell anything personal shuck any valuables abandon this invested waste become unpossessed unburdenable unpossessioned
you think your heart is broken ? her token is silt in memory take it to the streets at night sully it thoroughly and file off the organs remaining operations make it un-abusable and option-less
what about your face ? bleed away you recognize nothing bleed actual jail from your eyes and crawl from the fight that mauled you claim your part in the background a pant of the great huffin' lose yourself in the noise the trade the interference the indifference
find you're a vile version and drag this edition to it's rotten point the lowest style of limb where you needn't fend where you are securely unmended
a gentleman approaches... - PEDDLE YOUR WORTH AFORE IT IS TAKEN ?
you peer from pinhole - THANK YOU ; I AM DONE
he looks 'the you' over - RIGHT YOU ARE
you pass the city border beyond the last streetlight you have earned ghost now you may be of some use now 'you' are not