my mind may have layers stairs and levels twisting and turning halls and rooms but don't be fooled my mind is not a building my mind is not a home in fact my mind is where i get lost the most I can't find refuge not even in my own head
Last night I couldn’t sleep I knew I eventually would somehow, but I was worried about My health again. Things like Will I die too young? Sometimes things just happen that way. I don’t think I’d be as ready to embrace death as I think I would But then again I’d be dead, remembering what I am, then coming back to life ready to lose myself once more. thats an ultimate embrace. One turn. I just think I don’t want my mother to cry. Ok I was trying to fall asleep with this half worry about death health and habits I noticed a clock ticking something I’d overlooked over my 2 day stay. This was good. Anything but. A small light flashed. It flashed every 5-6 ticks of the very loud clock. I closed my eyes, Uncomfortable They sprang open, not ready to shut just yet I let them shut on their own. Immediately I heard bells It doesn’t matter And then it came closer. I dont let that bother me too much. As I finally drifted I saw flashes Of dark images. Horrible things. Things that made me ask “how do I come up with this ****? Is it the bells?” I became a bit frustrated that I was coming to irrational conclusions. I tried to replace the images but they Smeared themselves in blood And ate their own heads I hacked their bodies with my mind. I’m sorry. I’m just trying to get some sleep. Eventually I did.
I slept at the expense of my imagination characters lives.
I started from a small seed blown by the wind Thrives in your rooms That you should've killed me Before i grew wild at your place I'm beautiful behind a thicket Which bloom of fragant Because of a touch of tenderness I hope warmth And view all of kindness Cause of your soothing care, I grew wilder Forgive me being a wild flower I'm sorry to be bad sight at your place Forgive me to be destroyer of your harmony If you destroy me before i bloom, maybe i'm not going wild, Cause i'm black behind of grayness Stand across and see... Always hope... No more become tangledess But become a part of happiness