I'm buried beneath
Unfulfilled Dreams, the rapids of cracking hearts—broken streams
That left me, falling apart at the seams
They removed my aegis
Then left me with nothing but
Cut me deep
I have no more resistance, 'gainst the end of my existence
~My head is sinking
Legs treading in waters
Lost in the moments that have taken my happiness
More than knee deep
Lost in the deep-end
within my thoughts—an ocean
In the late hours,
I am drinking against the current
Whilst my body is sinking.
Thoughts, & dreams in every heartbeat - yearning to be set free,
they've stayed within my head—full of what could be, full of what I had believed.
How can someone be so full, yet feel so empty?
With last hopes pushing my shaking legs,
the night stars led,
& I followed them, through mind fields, a mind filled with flowers paved in stems
Following the stars in constellations - connected like bridges, & traversed,
like dreams - at first,
they were my friends, then ~
They devoured me.
I woke, veins filled with love & lead—silver, I bled.
They left me
with broken wings
Shoulder blades bleeding, & flapping like a sick circus of ominous scarring.
My answers must be at the end.
I can't help what I think, I can't help what I dream, dreams are pretend.
I'd rather be pulled in—reality's current, a riverbend.
A razorblade, made a longer stay - never refused when I begged.
Broken skin, was a better friend
Broken skin, unlike a heart, can mend.
By: Ashton C. Amstutz