I tried to reach your expectations
But all it did was put me into frustration
Felt like I had been locked away, with the key thrown away
Locked away just watching the day go by
day by day, covered in dust. I didn't know what to say
Dust covered, body decay. What the hell should I say
How do I even say it, If I say it he'll loose it
If I try take it back, all he’ll do is use it and abuse it
We used to be able to share and care, But then I turned it to ****
Everything turned black and white, I didn't know who was right
Fight or flight came over me that lying in bed that night
I didn't know if I should fight or run from him again
Thought he was my friend, but then again I can be wrong
I wonder what he’ll do if he ever reads this
If he’ll ever forgive me for what I did to him
His life over mine, I was just in a bad time
I spun his life into lies and I put him on the line
My life over his starting making me go blind
Had his trust, then if faded away like rust
Every lie I made up was a kick in the dust
I know he wont forgive me, but trying is a must
I now talk to him day and night
Just trying to make things right
Im starting to talk to him again as a friend
Hoping hating each other wouldn't be our end
Time and time again I tried to look past the lies
Time and time again I always asked myself why
Why'd you do it, why'd you do it, just why…
Started dating awhile ago, we went and rushed into it
Like little kids trying some new ****
Thinking, oh yeah this is gonna last
Month in, then it ended and shattered like glass
Then going and spreading lies, having to sit beside you in class
Wondering how much time had passed
I didn't even want to see your face
It was never the right time or place
You're a party girl, while I'm just a simple country boy
The kinda guy who doesn't go around saying, who shall I destroy
It was funny when you acted like I was a golden boy
Telling me I was a good kid. Its not you, its me
Could've just told me that you wanted to be free
But then again, I did get one hell of a story
I could abuse the story, But thats not me. Ill turn it into poetry
Lets get down to this forgiveness business
Would I say I forgive you? to an extend, yes
You were just going through some ****, been there done that
I just don't know how much trust i should give you back
You did just take it and throw it around, thats a fact
Maybe next time we talk, I’ll actually give you some eye contact
But right now, trust is what we lack
That’ll take time for you to earn back
Thought I should make things a little less black and white
But right now, I’ll see you under the next spotlight…
