one word depicts the deep and hollow feelings unto which the human senses cannot touch.

teardrops flowing down her cheeks.
words too hollow to even speak.
eyes that are no more but once proud.
surrounds you when alone and finds you in a crowd.
dissipating footsteps of a departing friend.
wishing for everything to just end.

it'll not listen to the pleads of the broken heart.
it'll stay and torment until anew comes and shatters it apart.

while we wait for hauntings to befall.
one word. loneliness. represents all.

The note rang loudly
in the night
piercing my heart
opening a chasm in my soul
pouring out memories
met with old feelings
an aching deep within
soothed and scarred
all at once
lyrics
notes
speaking things
I didn’t know even existed

I just wanted to be happy
And in your eyes I saw the sun
Do you think that's why my wings melted?

I got too close
And my walls came undone
With them did my heart have to crumble?

I have to wonder
And feel free to be honest
Was the pain intentional or are you that oblivious?

I just wanted to feel
And now I am only numb
I can't rebuild my heart, will it matter in the end?

By Arcassin Burnham

Pretty eyes cover up lies,
But i doubt you'd do that to me.
Late nights encounters were good,
A distant memory.

I put a bunch stickers on the wall,
Keeps the demons at bay.
Your voice is like heaven,
Just please take me away.

Only if we grew up sooner,
We'd take life seriously.
The sky gets bluer,
And we stare ominously.

I could go though life with you,
My queen to be indeed.
To find a distant calmness is all I ever
really need,
Love the way you talk to me.

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Come to me.
Talk to me.
Be the only reason.

Learn from me.
Walk to me.
Through every season.

The pride that she holds on,
Pretty shy , but spot on,
The beauty is spot on, her lips, that I taste,
And its great, Smoke in the air,
Could hide the feelings we awake,
Not safe , to be safe in this space,
No games , but we play,
No games , but we play,
No games , but we play.

Come to me.
Talk to me.
Be the only reason.

Learn from me.
Walk to me.
Through every season.

You are hell-bent,
nostalgic of the stitch in my stomach
and the simple repetition of my words.
A different season,
the same fears,
unknown intentions.
A lovers kiss feels like your drunken mistakes.
Fight-or-flight
perfectly masked underneath sarcasm and closed eyes.

life is never fair;
why is it that
the good die young
& the bad live freely?

that's why people give up,
why people break down.
nothing they do is good enough,
why people end their life too soon.

the irony is
that the good
will continue to die young
because their whole life
they've been told
they aren't good enough
or worse,
they are 'too much'

too sensitive,
too quiet,
too observant,
too introverted,
too curious,
too independent,
too careful,
too blunt,
too caring,
too honest,
too, too much.

but really,

they are too little of everything you are too much of.

It's all fun and games until u get stuck
With ur future, bare, trapped by lady luck
And the Russians, as u bleed water slow.
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until friends become ur end.
With my end in ICU, I C's to follow U
trends.
All alone the end seems full of sorrow.
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until u realise
That it's the one in the mirror who you truly despise
Changes on changes but ur still broke.
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until you disappoint
The only thing you passed was a ******* joint
1 pull, 2 pull, hold in blow
How low can you ******* go?

It's all fun and games until you fail
Making mistakes like you're just a day old
Excuses the same old "I didn't know"
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until you go psychotic
Actions and movements start to seem robotic
When you say it nobody seems to understand though.
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until you free your mind
From the bliss in ignorance you will find
Frost bite from ignorance like a blissard of snow.
How low can you go?

It's all fun and games until you can't pay the bills
It feels like never-ending steep hills.
Sleep pills make these feels go
How low can you go?

could it be?

it’s been almost a year since I opened that door
the bolted, scared and chained door that boxes my heart
he carelessly lied all over it
he let it whither by refusing to whisper back to it

could it be you creaked it open in a year
i didn’t know what you’d do
could it be I feel something for you
do you do too?

these smirks and glances
could I play my chances?
your affection and care seem more
or am I so empty i pray they are
am I so deprived of feelings since being a ***** that your kindness is mistaken for more

could it be you want more than what we have?
because I sure do
When you left her, I knew it before you told me
my stomach dropped and ached
swirling like Poseidon’s pools, trapping victims in its gushes
I thought, I hoped it was for me
but you must still love her

I think about you, about us, about words left unsaid in our lingering goodbye
when you called me your best friend - you paused- you looked into my eyes and opened your lips- why didn’t you just say it
why didn’t you tell me more
instead I defend our friendship
I’ll make you a dozen playlists darling if it helps you feel lighter

could it be you feel something more for me?
because I’m afraid to say it out loud
but I may have fallen in love with you

I think it's sad that
everyone sees and tells me
I'm special and extraordinary
and my own mom
can only tell me what
a horrible daughter and person I am