I sat there in the wooden office chair
My boss sits across from me
A dark wooden desk sits between us

Outside the window
The buzzing of drones serving the queen
Thoughtlessly focused on their tasks

My boss snaps me back
Another warning on my “productivity”
Maybe this time I’ll shape up

Bees leave to find flowers
But they are never far from the hive
They are shackled with a purpose to the whole

I sit in my car just before leaving for home
My wrists and neck stiff from another day's worth of tasks
I’ll be back here tomorrow
And the next day

I emerge from underneath the ground
Dust off the dirt on my body and hair
When was the last time I came up for air?

I walk down the street and realize I’ve missed so much
My friends and family are different, grown, changed
The job I have has piled up more and more tasks, I guess I missed them

I make it home, it’s the one thing that hasn’t changed
The same rooms the same furniture the same clothes
When I look in the mirror I see a sorry face.
When was the last time I saw myself?

I keep walking in a dizzy haze
It’s all so different, I’ve missed so much of the world and the people I knew

I crave something familiar
Something comforting
So I turn my back on the world passing me by

I go back underground

Cotton candy kisses
Your breath dissolves at the tip of my tongue
Sweet sayings slip away during pauses for air
Gold honey droplets swirl around in your eyes

A cool mint winter night
But together we are hot coffee with cream
The way our love fogged the windows like melted sugar glaze

Sweet

Sweet like the first box of chocolates I bought you
Sweet like those gummy worms you love so much
Sweet like caramel drizzled over an apple I would wait an hour in line to get you even when I don't like caramel apples

Sweet like you

Staring out my windshield
Eyes are numb to the roads
Street lights start to blend
Swerve
Roll down the windows
Blast the music loud
Bring your head back to earth
Swerve
Didn’t see that one
Ok no music
Just focus on th-
Swerve
The fatigue seeps in
Too many late nights
So many bright lights
Swerve
Arms drop to my side
Eyes close and my head falls
A loud blare still echoing
Crash..

It's been too long since I last kissed you
The last time was really something new
Who would’ve ever knew
Something so real and so true

And I remember how you tasted
The taste of salt on your skin when we were naked
The taste of passion as we devoured each others faces
I tasted love that night and no it wasn’t wasted

But now the weeks gone bye
For some a quick blink of the eye
Why am I trapped in the sands of time
Thinking of our time together every hour not gonna lie

Baby it’s been too long since I last kissed you
And when I see you it’s the best view
I know you miss me too
Cause when we’re together that’s our best mood

I wanna hear you shout my name
The way you say it doesn’t sound the same
I hear the sound of someone who’s not ashamed
The sound of our hearts as we exclaim

Now it’s almost Sunday
We’ll probably meet at the café
Not long until we make it back to my place
I mean what more can I say

It’s been way too long since I last kissed you. ;)

Three am
A faint glow that steals me from my dreams
An eerie light, I stare with bloodshot eyes
I try to peel myself away but find no solace in my bed
The machine calls to me
It's inhuman humming floods my mind from rationality
Exhaustion appears at four
But sleep eludes me still
I scroll through the endless distractions to tire my brain with stimuli
The headphones now causing my ears to ring, harmonizing with the inhuman hum
The sound of the insomniac, I can almost make out the words
By five I have conceded
Pointlessly laying down while begging to the ether for at least an hour of rest
Six I pass out
Seven time to get ready for school

I just wanted to be happy
And in your eyes I saw the sun
Do you think that's why my wings melted?

I got too close
And my walls came undone
With them did my heart have to crumble?

I have to wonder
And feel free to be honest
Was the pain intentional or are you that oblivious?

I just wanted to feel
And now I am only numb
I can't rebuild my heart, will it matter in the end?