I do love you,
                         but you not me,
                         this pain is quite distressing.

Emotions rush,
                           my face will blush,
                           yet your eye's gaze is chilling.

I have no writ,
                           my heart's in fit,
                           I hope my soul's not dying.

I don’t have love for my life
even a bit –––
But I’m afraid of suicide.
Oh! DEATH come to me.
Take me to you.
And pull me into the endless dark.
And set me free forever.
From the pain I always suffer.

In these times
Looking back at her in such great distress
Backing up sitting down breathing heavy now I rest
Walking through numb recollections
Impressions on the mind in every single action

Choreograph fake rain
Blood running from my swollen vein
Sweat running down my face
All because I’m thinking of her taste

Show number one is playing on the big screen
Reminiscing laughter together
And what I’m now missing
Tears dripping down no need to act out this pain
Good for them I’m thinking
Spare them from this place
Learning everyone can use a little amazing grace
This foundation I laid
Slipping on the mud in this heavy rain
Rain will come rain will go
But this bottom wasn’t meant to hold
I’m a soggy wash up
In need of a new resting place
One that shows number two on the big screen

Stuck in a daze just another phase
pushing through the maze just to get through the days
I won’t forget you only remember
Just moving on to find a new member
Mutual love will cease my shaky temper

Oh rage, oh rage, how long will we battle?
I have suffered your daily abuse
And I'm here to tell you: "this is your hour"

You know I can't hide
You know I can't fight,
Will you just let me fly?

Oh rage, oh rage how long will we battle?
I am destined to hear the sound of your rattle.

I'm sorry but I won't,
I won't share you
With your dreams,
Or parties or hours of distress
Because I want you all
To only myself.
So please,
Please don't ask me to
Because I won't share you
With anything
And especially not with her.


F.Z.N

******* pathetic
I lace my tongue with regret before my lips even open