I wondering if I forgive you what would happen,
You know both of our life is messed up,
It's kinda hard for me to explain our relationship together,

Are we going to regret our decision later?
I always ask myself do I really HATE you?
or is this to save me from hurting more than it was.

I have blurry memory,
People face, scenery and what the conversation is in the past,
Doctor said my mind just blocking the memory,
from flashing at my eyes,
Even my body protect me from getting this suicidal life.

I always ask why you do it?
Why can't you just cherish us?
In the end, I see myself 5 years old,
Standing with the fluffy red eyes,
tears streaming down the round cheeks,
hugging herself and whispering...
Enough..please no more...
No more...

And the end...
Some mistake gets made,
Some its alright and some are not..

because you are mine,
something inside me screams "no"
i need to be loved.

we met in a strange moment
now I’m sitting here as a poet

wish I could get to know you better
just enjoy the moment,
as if tomorrow wouldn’t matter

wish you could be mine
but first I will be away for some time

your brown eyes are art
and I hope life won‘t take us apart

just here to tell you that I like you
actually hoping you feel this way, too

man, life is too short
now I‘m sitting at the airport

please don’t forget my touch on your skin
to have met you is a win

we can meet again
just keep me in mind until then

I’ll be back soon
and then, together we will bloom.

- gio, 06.02.2020

My heart
swelling
in my chest,
trying to stop
my tongue
from destroying this,
from destroying everything

But


"I can't..."

and just like that
our hearts stop

and it becomes too late

to do the right thing for
the wrong reason or

to do the wrong thing for
the right one