First the illicit thrill
Becomes routine habit
Run of the mill
Like you're invincible.
Once, your heart beated
Feverish, hesitant,
Now you swagger, unheated,
The cheat can't be cheated.
The check-out girl, Lizzie,
Is trusting and smiling
Then she turns away, busy
And you're suddenly dizzy.
To your pocket inside
Go the chocolate bars -
Though it's undignified
There's a strange kind of pride.
Then - out of the blue,
In front of the world,
One day she asks you....
And what can you do?
...But collapse to your core
Like a worm-eaten apple
Pray to fall through the floor
You are Named, evermore.
Oh - the shame! she's disgusted
You're a thief, you're mistrusted
All that shock and self-loathing
For those moments you lusted.
Poor girl, she won't be aware
That her face and her voice
Will feature forever
As worst memory, lowest nightmare.
You'll be chilled to the bone
And you'll ask yourself "Why?"
Without job, wife or home,
Foolish, guilty, alone?
