I love you
Even if I'm not supposed to

I need you
Even if I convince myself that I don't

I want you
I know you will never be mine [ again ]

And ... I crave you
Even though you're a breathing sin.

All I’ve ever wanted is to be loved the way I love everyone and everything around me,

And perhaps that is the most dangerous thing of all because to crave that affection with all your heart

Leads to reckless acts and treacherous situations to gain that attention and warmth that you’ve wanted all along.

My eyes yearn for your face, just as
My ears long heavily your voice;
My mind craves your essence dearly,
Tormented through this lack of choice;
Why is courage not passionate
Like desire entangled by
Anxiety that erupts in
Every cell--just answer, why?
Cruel fate has imprisoned me,
Bound within joyous misery.

I need you.
I crave you.
I feel you.
You haunt me.
In the darkest hour.
On lonely nights.
Inside my head.
Trapped in a spider's web.
So many words kept unsaid.
You make my heart weak.
Your words touch
my soul so deep.
You are keeping me awake
when I can't sleep.

You do not understand,
I have never known love
I have had many lovers
But none of whom have loved me
Nor have I ever loved in return.

You do not understand
You puzzle me
With you, I am like a child learning to walk
Learning to speak
This is all a foreign language to me.

You do not understand
I am afraid.

I know I might never have you
That you might never be mine
But in my head we have adventures
We travel the world
And we lie singing in your bed
Staring up at the ceiling
Where we have painted stars
To remember that time we slept outside
Or was that just in my head?

I know I might never have you
But that doesn’t stop me from dreaming
Or quietly whispering your name
When no one is around to hear
It doesn’t stop these cravings I have for you
It doesn’t stop my fingers from itching
Or stop me from wanting to run my fingers through your hair
It doesn’t stop my curiosity of what you smell like
But really, I would be happy just breathing the same air

I know I might never have you
That you might never be mine
But that doesn’t stop me from dreaming about you all the time