I replaced you with my dad, yeah that might sound weird but he is one to listen. i talked to you as if you were my therapist but actually it was more than that. I opened up to you. I shared all my darkest thoughts and darkest moments. I know at times you were not a good listener but when i asked, you always would. here I am today, I feel like i've been talking to deaf ears for years. so now i'm just blank, i'm quiet, I just keep things to myself.  I never used to be this way, I was the loudest kid in the room. I was always the nicest too. one thing that hasnt changed is, my pain.  it still remains and it burdens me every step along the way. I ignore it like the hatchet in my side, sometimes it hurts, sometimes i bleed, sometimes i dont notice it. but its there. it hovers me like my own shadow, and it becomes overwhelming to breathe.
I'm a sensitive, passionate person. and my heart leaks when i need to speak. I share my thoughts with my dad, and sometimes it makes him sad. I go on for hours, its the only way to get the heartache out. I have issues, I have problems. but I have a past, and i've stopped running from all of it, I'm open into talking about it. I just wish someone would listen.

Your love is poison,
It spreads all through my body
Just like each goose bump
That remains on my skin,
Its the one thing that i can prove
That every inch of me
Is disgusted by you
You give me the coldest look,
I've never shivered so warmly.

You ripped my
Dark beating heart
Out of my chest
Held it in your hands
Admired the feel,
Gave it a kiss
Then made the cold pain
Turn to warm love,
Then threw it on the ground
Stomped all over it
Leaving it with fingertips
That once held my heart
And is now left with scars
And bruises that
Can't be healed

I could, write to you everyday.
I think you're so so so great.
You deserve more than just me,
To tell you that.
Everyone should be trying
To treat you like gold.
And cherish you, like diamonds.
I look into your eyes every now and then.
And, looking into them. just you.
Pull at my heartstrings.
I basically become a bit lovesick.
Your smile, wow your smile.
It's like the sun lighting up the sky.
So when I look at you,
I see everything I'll ever need.

When I'm with you,
My worst anxieties go away.
My tears turn to laughter.
My wrath turns to bliss.
You make me smile,
Till my cheeks begin to sore.
I've lost track of time
Because being with you,
And the enjoyment i have
With your company
Makes time fly

I love you.
I crave for your touch,
the air you breathe,
your lips,
the smile you're gonna have
while i kiss you,
I crave seeing your eyes staring into mine,
your fingers interlocking mine,
and of course
I crave to have my arms around you