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LISH Dec 2017
It might be cliche to say this but
Christianity saved me
I almost died and had a man watch me
Girl met boy and fell in love
Love is blind
Yes we get it
But this man loved me so much with a knife
Cut my wrists open and let me bleed
Slowly did the blood come out and drip
It was my sacrifice
I loved him so ride or die right?
I will die for him
Then made the cut deeper every once in awhile
Let me bleed even faster
Put me in the shower and start to run the water
My smile turned weak
My face became pale
But I loved this man
So i painted a perfect mask
Plaster it on my face
And it was so perfect he believed
He believed he was saving me
Saving the world from me
Loving me better than any
Was he sick or was I?
Letting me bleed right there to death
Then my mask starts crack
My voice leaks out
I am close to death
If I will die, I shall die alone
Be it my own destruction
Not one of a man
Kick him out close the door
Go to the comfort of the blood soaked shower and sit
Grab the vines from roses and a stitching needle
Sow my self up filled more with pain
Put on a sweater and act like they are not there
Remake my mask so perfect I believed it
Go out Smile
See people smile
Love life smile
Yes my mask is smiling
But his shadow never left me
Painfully rip off my mask
Proves he owns me
Drag me into the shower
Memories there still haunt me
Grab a scissors and starts cutting
Bleed more once again
I can't breath or speak
The shadow is choking me!
Tears roll down and im thinking this is the death of me
Then my lord came in
Defeated his shadow and took possession of me
So I may be cliche to say this
But Christianity saved me
He took me and stitched me perfectly with the right thread and helped me
I am not afraid of my scars
So when I say Christianity saved me
I don't mean he made me live my life right
He didn't take me from drugs and alcohol
When I say Christianity saved me
I mean he took me from living a dead life to I'm alive
When I say Christianity saved me
I mean he saved me from wanting to beat that shadow and run into that shower for real
Not figuratively but real
Made my life worth living
My death mean nothing
So it may be cliche to say this but my Lord God saved me
Kaitlyn Oct 2017
Organisation of Lifestyle
Electric colours and designs bring warmth within.
In sight, in every direction glanced.
Blissful celebrations through neon emblems
Like an uninterrupted New Year’s Eve party.
For a world stocked of colour, our instructions
are commonly interpreted in black and white.
Protocol offering comfort and pride
with our requested questions answered.
The world is invariably alive and glistening,
and brimming of adoration from all.
Our life is implemented with a frame
that provides a perspective for routine concerns.
Products are the key elements to run society effortlessly...
at least that’s what it says on the giant billboard.
Manufactured articles allow each day to pass with charm,
with satisfaction as we are personally filled with delight.
Products grant contentment through orders
on how to feel, how to talk and how to act.
The truth shared with us from producing companies
bring forth endless opportunities.
Respect is shown to what is given to our community,
it is avowed that all is same, we are the same.
Recognition is shown through the ability of proclaiming
our lives, equal opportunities
All done through terms of society,
must abide to obtain rights we bear.
Life is lived through the righteousness of companies
delivering organisation for our well-being and greater good.
Our surroundings administer a harmonious attitude,
to each other, to our lifestyles, to our producers.
Jay Jun 2017
Swimming into thoughts of suicide, Trapped in a dark cage on a bed wanting to fly but feeling my weak wings falling apart.. I'm trying to get up but my mind is controlling my body.. The demons are living inside me pushing the thoughts towards my body, I'm weak, I'm tired and I can't choose to either get up or retire..
My mind is controlling me. What is happening to me?

There's this thought that tells me to hold the knife and let it kiss my skin until my body drowns in red. Nah I never wanted death to come take me, I just want the voices inside my mind to die and set me free..
A soul once told me that the waves will stop pushing, the thunderstorms will stop screaming and the clouds will stop crying.. Trust me I'm fighting.

I'm not the one who put my life on hold, my mind is sold.. Sold to the demons who still didn't give me my gold.
Marilyn Sistinas Dec 2016
When did conversation become argumentation?
This form of abuse derived from self irritation,
just drives me in the opposing direction of where you'd like me to go,
there's many destinations that I haven't been shown,
cultivation leading me to venture on my own.
You push and shove for me to grow up already,
but agitation won't make it easier to speed through others lined up in front of me.
If you could just see how much I've been through,
most of it alone, if you could view just how far I've kept motivation,
then someday we might actually get close to were we've been heading this whole time.
Line after line and you have yet to add any up,
you haven't seen my determination, for you just blame it on luck.
Whim did consideration become mediation?
I've lived every waking moment, just for your approbation,
now, everything I've done is incorrect?
The treacherous miles I've overcome are now obliviation I'm your head,
every turn I make just ends up being another mistake.
Something along the lines of aggretion,
which in turn left us were we orginally started, or stopped.
You always try and take me where you want me though I've come so far already.
Sometimes the places you unexpectedly end up are where you're actually supposed to be.
Angel Feb 2016
School is like a prison.
not in the traditional sense,

Students must do as the warden says,
completing work or receiving a penalty,
act a certain way or be punished.

And if they don't complete their sentence,
they are doomed to a life that could be better
Lajah Feb 2016
Tap
I will wait
and ache the pain
of leftover words
and unstable remains

And I heard feet tapping.
to the beat
humming this song
played on repeat.

I will hold grip
to what you said
when your mind was hazy
waiting for bed.

And I heard feet tapping
to this lingering song.
It is getting much louder
and I seem less strong.

I don’t think Ill fall
in love again
but I will forgive you.
Forget what I said

They skipped a beat
and the song kept going
they lost the tempo
but the world kept spinning.

I know you believe
I am to blame
but i am tired of giving
all to my name.

does this song move too fast
or I go too slow
The beat is everywhere
my head will soon blow.

So I guess they're right;
it is my mind that you reign.
Time for I to walk
before I go insane.

insane.
….

This song

oh this song

stop the music

it hurts to hear

the truth.
We have all been there.
Cody Haag Jan 2016
Abscond from your digital world,
Fall into the rhythm offered by Mother Earth;
Bathe in the glory apparent before you,
Endeavor to obtain a new birth.

To think one is living,
One must go through the motions;
To know one is living,
One must see the valleys, forests, and oceans.

A man spends days inside his home,
Completely and utterly alone;
Sometimes he delivers messages
Or uses his telephone.

Yet even then he is so integrated;
So controlled by technology.
Thoreau thought no man could live such a life,
And still be considered free.

"We do not ride on the railroad;
It rides upon us - "
These words from Thoreau
We need to wholly trust.

The creator is often imprisoned
By the creations he has birthed;
I think a life so wasted
Has very little worth.
Jordan Fischer Dec 2015
I want you to go to sleep with a smile
Thinking you at least got what you wanted
It makes my life unbearable
But my decisions never controlled you
A breeze that blows freely
Amongst the trees
Because of you, I will model my life accordingly
Free from all,
Never stopping
I'll just restart from the power you've given me
Move on, and bring any smiles to the friends I can, even if my power starts dropping.
Katherine Laslie Nov 2015
All my life
Starting young,
I was told
How to act
How to sit
How to dress
How to talk
Like some robot

I hate to say it
But I'm human
I will make mistakes

I never knew who I was
Because I was always told who to be
And no one could ever understand
To the extent that I mean

Kids hated me
Said I was weird
Because wearing skirts everyday
Well, it was weird
But that was my life
Sheltered and nice

But corruption found its way inside
Like a serpent
I was a place for darkness to hide

I acted out
To make a stand
Became the rebel
That I really am
Took a knife to my skin
With crimson red
I turned my purity to sin

"Katherine"
It means pure, yknow
And there was a time
When I could have been

Pure
Is what my parents wanted me to be

Perfect
In the eyes of everyone
Except me

Strange
Ostracized in my own world

I doubt anyone could even imagine
All the pain I went through
I was a freak
With the face of an angel
So innocent
More like ignorant
But without bliss

I was the angel
Who never smiled
The angel
Who never spoke
The angel
Who cried in her room all alone
Even when I was
Just five years old
The angel with shackles
Clamped to my ankles
The chains pulled me to earth

I am an angel
With broken wings
And no one could ever
Feel empathy
I was raised in a particularly strange way... but I didn't exactly turn out the way that everyone wanted me to.
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