I really thought you'd see that I loved you.
In everything I did.
I really thought my begging would bring you back to me.
I thought you'd see I was addicted. Addicted to your presence alone.

And then you added kissing and I felt right at home.
I really thought you'd see I couldn't spend a moment without you.
Because if I did I'd feel hollow.
But you left out the door.
I don't think I couldve hurt any more.

My eyes said it all but you weren't looking close enough.
You breathed me in and you broke my heart.
I wish your life would fall apart.
Then you'd really feel exactly what I felt when you left me in the dark.

You monster.

A.F.

No, it's not the fact that I'm heartbroken,
that you're with him.
It's the fact that you didn't tell me
something so important,
even when you knew how I felt.
I feel betrayed, back-stabbed.
And here I thought you were my friend.

- { E.I }

I  no longer have room for all the hurt and sadness that you make
For the lies  that left me feeling betrayed.  
Leading me astray from the confident girl I once was
To a sad one who only saw her flaws
You will no longer have that power to make me feel so low
Because it's time for me to take back control
For I am not the things you say or lies you create
But a goddess who is filled with so much love
All thanks to the lord up above
For always reminding of the beauty of forgiveness
To not give into the ignorance  
For forgiveness is not for those who treapass against us  
But for ourselves  to not go nuts
I am the love and light of this world
Ready to rediscover that bright eyed beautiful girl
For God has opened my eyes to see
That I must leave it all in his hands to live, let go, and just be
So I can finally learn what it truly means to be free

Left to the storm...
Left for dead...
Abandoned...
Betrayed...
But not bitter...
Determined...

I can't cry.
I sit amongst pillars of stone
My mind is empty
The pillars whisper things unknown
I'm left in my thoughts
They scare me
Because they're empty
And I can't cry.

Stop complaining.
My head is shot by my heart
See its past took form
Made a solid pain tipped dart
That was true to its Mark.
Yes everything hurts
And I'm alone.
But I'll stop complaining.

I can't stop singing.
No, the melody is my rescue
From the ocean's sting
On fresh new cuts in me that ring
With dissonance in my mind.
Has my harmony gone?
Is that all?
I can't stop singing.

I can't stop thinking
Each thought brings new pain
To old wounds
That sting like never before
My skin won't stop crawling.
I'm infected.
My thoughts are parasites.
I can't stop thinking.

The hurt isn't leaving.
My mind tells me what I know
The things it says are true
But see I choose to act on them
And that makes all the difference.
No matter what I feel
I chose right.
But the hurt isn't leaving.

It should be leaving.
I made these decisions after all
But sometimes we do what hurts
And have to deal with side effects
That we never intended
My painful dialogue.
Your painful laugh.
It should be leaving.

Please, I beg it, leave.
But it won't
Another has set it loose
This cancer on my heart
No, now it's everywhere
Because it's a cancer
And it hurts
So I beg it to leave

This pain is mine.
I made mistakes in what I said
And in what I did.
Now here I sit in consequence
The greatest hurt I've ever known.
It's excruciating
And I started it.
This pain is mine.

But there's another.
Something has twisted the blade
Pulling more blood from me
I smiling wish I had more to give
But I'm dry.
I loved this thing.
I'd have given my life.
But there's another.

It's all the same.
The thing I love twisted the knife
See I put the knife there
Is it happy?
I stabbed myself. Why does it twist it
I don't know
I wouldn't twist that blade
But it's all the same.

Can't cry.
Musn't complain.
Don't stop singing.
Don't stop thinking.
Hurt won't leave.
Hurt should leave.
Please, hurt, leave.
Hurt is mine.
It's all the same.
It's all the same.
It's all the same.
It's all the same...

It was us against the world
Now and for forever
You had my back
And I had yours
How could you just throw it away
Like you didn't even care
I thought we had something
I guess I was wrong
You broke me
Then left me to pick up the pieces

I hate that I hate you
and I do ******* hate you
I hate how hate fills the void you left in me
and I do hate how you left
I hate who you are
because its not who you are
I hate how I have so much to say
but nothing to say to you
I hate that I love you
and I do ******* love you

You said you'll
always be here for me..

So why aren't
you laying next to me..