Lying here next to you,
Is the closest to love I have ever been,
And yet I am so far
From your heart.

You kiss me,
As if you wish to be as free as a dove.
Yet you push me away,
Because you are afraid of love.

Oh darling,
If only you knew,
That I am in fact,
Afraid of love too.

You look so fragile,
As I fall in love with your eyes,
But can you see,
The terrible things in my dreams?

The days pass,
Yet I haven't heard from you,
Can I say something crazy?
I love you too.

But you'll never know,
As you read this letter,
I am going away,
I know that will make things better.

Please do not shed a tear,
For it will not be long,
Before you realize,
In my nightmares is where you belong.

In the back of my mind,
Away from the world,
Just the thought of you,
Makes me want to hurl.

You lied to me,
You betrayed me
Can I say something crazy?
I loathe you too.

I was invited by my friends
To hang out in a nearby cafe
With that toffee nut drink that he holds
“His drink is the same as his name.” They said

It all started there
You started to visit me
In my school, even there
At the place where you first met me

Then you started courting me
I didn’t have any regrets
This feeling that I will never forget
Hope you will always stay with me

But all of that were only at first
My heart is uneasy, like it’s gonna burst
You didn’t come to shine me through
But I’m still into you

We went to a trip without you knowing
I thought you might care enough to look for me
They said that you did look for me
But I never received a sign of you looking

Then you gave your attention to someone
I don’t receive those long messages that I enjoy to read
Not a single “Hi” or “Hello” or a blank message is done
All just because she said that she liked you, you started to leave

I kept waiting and waiting
Even if I stat to fade in your heart
I kept waiting patently
What was the meaning of all of these from the start?

I told you to stop all of this nonsense
Thinking that you might for our relationship and stay
But you gave up and let go
Like you really want to get rid of my presence

Despite everything, I want these to be clear
That question that you ignored to answer
Why does it have to be ended?
*"What happened?"