U p   w i t h   t h e   b i r d i e s .
O u t   w i t h   t h e   l a r k s .
W a l k i n g   t h e   s t r e e t s .
T r e k k i n g   t h e   p a r k s .

F i n d i n g   a   r a t h e r .
S u i t a b l e   p l a c e .
B e g g i n g   f o r   m o n e y .
T h i s   i s   m y   d i s g r a c e .

N o   h o m e   I   c a n   s p e a k   o f .
U n l e s s   I   b r e a k   s o m e   l o c k s .
S o   m y   e v e n i n g s   I   s p e n d .
I n   t h i s   o l d   c a r d b o a r d   b o x .

A t   t i m e s   I   g e t   h o m e s i c k .
M o s t   n i g h t s   I   s o b .
W h a t   h a v e   I   b e c o m e .
A   d o w n   a n d   o u t   s l o b .

I   d r e a m t   o f   t h i s   E n g l a n d .
T h i s   p l a c e   t h e y   w o u l d   g i v e .
M o n e y   t o   s p e n d .
A   n i c e   p l a c e   t o   l i v e .

P i c k i n g   u p   b u t - e n d s .
W h e n   I   w a n t   a   s m o k e .
M y   t o i l e t s   a   b u s h .
T h i s   i s n ? t   a   j o k e .

I   f o u g h t   t o   g e t   h e r e .  
T h i s   l a n d   t h a t   I   s e e .
N o   o t h e r   p l a c e .
W h e r e   I   w a n t e d   t o   b e .

T h o s e   r a c i s t   c o m m e n t s .
W a t e r   o f f   a   d u c k s   b a c k .
D r u g   d e a l e r s   a r e   r i f e  a n d
P o l i c i n g   i s   s l a c k .

B u t   w h e n   y o u r   i l l e g a l .
Y o u   c a n t   p i c k   u p   t h e   p h o n e .
Y o u r   p r o b l e m s   y o u   h a v e  
  y o u  m u s t  d e a l   w i t h   a l o n e .

I   w i s h   I   h a d   n e v e r .
B e l i e v e d   a l l   t h e   c r a p .
T h e n   I   w o u l d n ? t   b e   h e r e .
I n   t h i s   a w f u l   t r a p .

I   l o o k   e v e r y d a y .
F o r   a   w o m a n   t o   s h a r e .
T o   m a k e   m e   a l l   l e g a l .
T h e n   I   s h a l l   n o t   c a r e .

W a l k   a r o u n d  h a p p y .
N o   m o r e   t o   s o b .
G o   w h e r e   I   l i k e .
G e t  a  r e a l   j o b .

I f   t h i s   d o e s   c o n t i n u e.
T h e   s t r e e t s   I   m u s t   r o a m .
I ' l l  r o b   a   r i c h   w h i t e   m a n .
B u y   a   t i c k e t   h o m e .

A n d   n e v e r   a g a i n .
W i l l   I   e v e r   r e t u r n .
A   l e s s o n   i n   l i f e .
I   h a v e   f a s t   c o m e  t o  l e a r n .

I think of how you put me on my knees.
     Begging for you to love me.
You touch my face the way you always do.
     Trail your thumb along my lips.
Its a different type of  love you have for me.
     The kind that breaks a heart into millions of pieces.
The kind that would wipe the tears of my cheeks
     But will never understand they are the cause.
--
I know you will do anything for me.
     But love? No.
I could never ask you for that.
A part of me thinks you already know how I feel
   But you have chosen to look into my eyes
and ignore the pain that haunts my Iris's.

I dont blame you.
     How could anyone love someone like me?
Some one who falls in love with a person
     who will never love them back.
  
I'll just keep it to myself.
I have no choice.
My tears will turn silent.
My heart will eventually catch up to my mind.
and I'll learn to accept the silence.

The silence that is with out you.

I want to shrivel like a raisin
Curl up into a ball
From your rounded little basin (of friends)
Of all the torturers, you're the most cruel
I wish to stand up to you
But my knees are to bruised
For begging for forgiveness
And my lunch money too
But I can't and I shan't
And I never shall
As I'm the weak little girl
Bullied by *all

Will someone please help me?
I'm begging you on my knees.
Give me some inspiration,
'Cause darkness is all I can see.
Someone lend me some courage;
There's a noose around my neck
It's itchy and scratchy and always at mind
the thought of the end
Sounds simply divine
I've got it all planned
But if you'd give me  hand
Maybe I'd start to live again.

Yesterday
you had all of my heart
today
you have broken that sweet heart

I have no rhythm
nothing
to keep me standing straight

You
stupid fool
hold out your heart
begging me to break it
to make it stop

And I say
"No - someone else can do that for me"