When most people think addiction,
They think cigarettes and nicotine,
They think Alcoholics Anonymous and pain killers gone wrong,
They think gambling, ***, and ****.
They think addiction and they think of use versus abuse
After all the dictionary definition of addiction is:
"a strong and harmful need to regularly have or do something"
Something
Maybe that's why it's so hard for people to see that my lack of use is just as much abuse as the overuse of something.
They don't know that it is just as addicting to keep refusing food, as it is to keep drinking alcohol.
They don't know that keeping too small clothes in the back of the closet,
Hoping that one day your body will mold into them again,
Is just as dangerous as meshing oneself into someone else just for the night, but someone else the next.
They don't understand that counting the calories is just as consuming as counting the grams.
So don't tell me that my eating disorder is not as addicting as drugs, because cravings to be thin can be just as strong as someone's cravings to be high.
The feeling of an empty stomach, can be just as great as the feeling others get while watching ****.
Don't say that my eating disorder is just for attention, because just like addiction it could very well **** me.
