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Noah Ducane Aug 2015
When you die  I want to carry you
Through the lines of tears

And lift you up
On the wings you gave me

There are no oceans but yours
There is no music but your voice

And every day I can hear them well

When you die I want to die with you
And live forever
In the heaven you made
Noah Ducane Mar 2015
I could remember the song of your voice
Kisses held in the sun
And all that you signify
But not by choice
That's all undone
A glimmer in a stranger's eye

I belong now to no one
And no one belongs to me
But knowing now it's no salvation
To spend life truly free

You were love at last
Last love's first sight
Love belongs only to our past
Sundown before the night

It came and went
It was love for rent
The grass still green, the sky still blue
And in the end
I was just a friend
Someone you never knew
Noah Ducane Apr 2020
The night smells sweet,
The music plays far off,
The trees hardly swaying.
You walk with sad steps,
Soft stars glitter in the breeze,
The Chinese lanterns hang in the sky.

You are crying but no tears come,
Your lips don’t make a sound.
Your head is like a pitcher emptied of water -
In the distance on a pretty bench, a pretty couple kiss,
It is Summer again.
Noah Ducane May 2020
I remember we would play, play like kids in a warm spring day,
With hands joined, we rang in tune,
Our song together, night and noon.
We ran and rolled and locked our tongues
In summer hours, under bright warm suns,
With touch our time to hug and hold,
With hearts in heaven, and never grow old.

But every kiss and every word,
Every feeling in youth that stirred,
Every motion that you made,
Each will go, and memory fade -
After the flood, and friendship fraud,
Ash to ash our souls at odds,
After all our words and games under shirt and sheet,
After all to end up strangers on the street.
Noah Ducane Sep 2017
A bed is love, to hold me up and
sail me to sleep.
To sleep, my bed a ship is made,
out unto a sea of stars.
O'er the sheets spread I dream a dream of living
and thank my bed for being there.
I've had many beds, and all of them good
and none of them bad.
And this bed will carry me to sleep
like the rest
and for that you have my thanks
to be there for me
and pass
and hold me
where another will
where others won't.
Noah Ducane Oct 2016
Bittersweet in this prison where no one can touch me
I see people out there smiling,
And they're laughing at me.
Noah Ducane Jun 2017
My boy limbs
Strawberry flesh &
Bone-white all;
Protect me from whatever winter
And keep me glowing in the sun always

I take the deepest breath ever
And go nimble & quick-footed
Over every hill and green
Wanting nothing but myself
Strawberry flesh &
Bone-white all
And forever
Noah Ducane Dec 2015
My ghost and evil mind
My cast green shadow hand
Forgiveness in her hands
Forgiveness

My ghost and evil mind
Thinking of her
My love and only love
To live blindly

Tell me I wasn't wrong
For loving blind

My ghost and evil mind
My duty to mankind
To be myself

Who is god
To be born lonely

My ghost and savage mind
My wars and tattered heart
Like rose splintered
Wanted nothing

Man, in your perfect excellence
And impeccable squalor
My ghost and evil mind
Thinks of you all
Noah Ducane Mar 2016
My guitar strings are broken,
And I can't play without breaking,
Every verse comes out wrong,
But they're all for you.

I keep playing
But the notes don't change,
The sounds cry out
Like they were dying.

My heart beats to the rhythm,
But there's no one to hear
My saddened song.

My strings are snapped,
And they'll sing no sound forever.
Noah Ducane Apr 2020
What a fountain we made!
You moan like a **** ghost,
Howling when drawn back
Those curtains of meat.

Harmony is a hymn together,
Hot springs to splash,
Staff of diamonds,
Fountain flushed.
Noah Ducane Dec 2015
Year by year
Will shatter the mold
Of the last.

Goodbye without tears
But hopeful cheers
For the last hour.

And you'll pray
Day by day
Not knowing why.

And you'll look
For changes
Change by change
Not knowing how.

It's already gone
But it won't be long
Before the next.

But know how much
You loved it
This time's over
And nostalgia will wrap it
In a warm blanket
Of sugary memories.
Noah Ducane Sep 2016
Look,
Ten eyes.
Tenno.


Lightning gods sheltered,
Look:
See ten arms.

9
9
9
90
9
All faces,
All disarmed.
Not
Noah Ducane Dec 2015
Not
Not starving
Not crying
Not tired
Not sick
Not dead
But dying
Noah Ducane May 2015
sadness shows
It comes and goes
And sadness grows
Despite the smile
Or frown for awhile
Behind all our lies
Sadness lurks in smiling eyes
Noah Ducane Nov 2020
All paranoia and panic
In a world so hungry
A fork and knife ready behind each pair of eyes
How many butchers behind every hello
When I step forward
Will they have their nets waiting?
With crooked smiles thank me?

And you know how cookie-crumble I am
Each cut felt so keenly
Each sting swallows me whole

And baby don't you know
You give a little of yourself up
Each time you step outside?
Like the moment you came out from the womb
You sacrifice a little safety for freedom
And the chance to be hurt
Hurt like any other degenerate
Hungry like the rest
Hungry and never safe
In the hands of *****

Cold boys like us may find any excuse to complain
To claw our own eyes out
Thinking how lucky we each are
To never meet
Noah Ducane Apr 2021
Not that I was born for you
I'm certain
And you don't say
But in the end, move further away
And we two ships pass in the night
Unseen to each
And if I could have been made beautiful as you, I would have
I would give all my long nights
And all the me there is to give
To be the sun just slowly falling
On the softness of your face
Noah Ducane Feb 2016
Now is the time to be sacred
And fill your halls with pedestals
Now is the time to worship
And open your eyes in prayers

Now is the time to ring the bells
That will call your saints to preach
Now is the time to love
And love's name will be your choosing
Noah Ducane Jun 2015
Oh it was good back then
Let me begin by saying
It was good
and never again
I was afraid to step outside
I never committed intellectual suicide
I never prayed but for myself
He needed more help than love or wealth
It was good then
I didn't know much
I couldn't feel pain
Or pain as such
But pain for pain's sake is the beginning and end
Boredom only after to boredom will lend
I was afraid yes of everything
And anything that said my name
For fear of nothing has fear to blame
Oh but once again
It was good back then
I wanted more and more I got
And with pride and faith and love forgot
Still I went with a bleeding heart
Thinking I should play my part
And be a part of life as an uneasy act
With numbed awareness too dull to react
Feeling nothing but for tomorrow's wake
Nothing there but for tomorrow's sake
And knowing better I know not how
But to be and be me right now
And knowing better later once again
Sighing softly," it was good back then"
Noah Ducane Jul 2015
Oft against the shy rocks
The sleep god sounds his horn
To the frost-bitten day.

The birds leap into frenzied flight
Like flames stretching forward
To the cracked blue of the breaking sky.

A hammer in his minds repeats
The recitation of rhyming prayers
A flicker in his fingers fuels the spark to
play the notes that need no singing.

How long tormented
He will to the forest wind
And desert winding walls
The sobbing bells
The maddening world-
How long tormented will his eyes set like the sun
In the ancient hills
And the black angels cry out ceaselessly ?
Noah Ducane Jun 2015
Nothing that breathes
knows the truth of being
but to be is simple

don't go on
without a thought
for yourself

living the same
and pacified

no hell in heaven
no ashes scattered
in youth

coming like a dog
from the dark
in some woods

go to conquer
yourself

and loving one's own
a vehicle of sweet sound
handed on a plate

oh go,
from rain and snow
a time where we are one

contact
and truth
some truth
we can believe

new england
france
ireland
go loving
soon to drown and die
Noah Ducane Jun 2017
Paired down in heaven, the hawk-eyed sun
Gleaming bitterly through five limbs sees
The jeweled moon behave despondently-
Say from man dream beats the foam and bleeds
Like Prometheus sullen prose on infinite Oregons.

Take from your time the frost-eyed sun altogether
Staring sharply through a blind and smoldering world,
A love of truths so tried and secret.

Shall we in mercy take our gains under the rose-lit morning
A trial for time and truest?
Sense for the sun is swimming in our heart
A love of radio and silence.

Bleached like my Albatross,
Come in quiet a world safest
That burns black embers
In the woods of our soul since forever
And sound.

Sound down the heavens
In the silent hour of their hell,
The tide of time on a bone-white beach.

From what high altar looking in his place,
God of man,
The god-man and holy to his place
To forge the eye of seasons,
Seven in their number,
And stretch out solitude
On the blistered ground.

Shared down in source,
The last of the kings,
Holy in his crown
Of bodies that smile
So wide and honest each.
Pan
Noah Ducane Mar 2015
Pan
In the dense, dark wood Pan is heard,

From the gravity of the darkness Pan runs naked.

Pan with his laughing mouth caught fire and drew the sun down from the sky

Pan had a hungry heart and ran with killers

Pan sounded his pipes through the dark wood

He called forth the whine of evil from the desperate earth

And wine suckled from the stillborn sea

Pan ran naked and Pan ran free

In the dense, dark wood Pan is heard

And now you can hear the trees tumble and the dark wood burn
Noah Ducane Oct 2016
Gaping, their chasm
Red
Like silver bullets,
Pink and purple.

Flashing like fires,
Through the shrub and trees.

Eyes run,
Feet catching the ground
Fast.

The spots are running,
The wind with them.
Noah Ducane Jul 2016
Pray in words
That will reach angels
Kissed between sweet dreams
These few notes
From life trapped in death
In moments of sleep
We usher in the day to begin
And end again
For our prayers are simple memories
Circles in the sand
Noah Ducane Apr 2020
That sight broke down these starving doors
Saying, "all desire can be yours"

An image clawed into my brain,
Yes hold up your crosses, dear.

To gain the whole world and lose it all,
Then all that walks be made to crawl.

Ninety-eight bursting wounds,
Now carry low all your crosses, dear.

Love that dies young dies slow,
Bitter love you may never know.

No floods will follow from these stone eyes,
Now see how common ghosts go walking.

One flash to fire thunderclap in head,
Kingdom dust and paradise dead.

Hands that meet in dreams alone,
Now see how all our ghosts go on.

Sweet sight broke down these starving doors
Saying, "all desire can be yours"

Fasting heart and hollow head,
Love made on buried bed.
Noah Ducane Jan 2016
Sail
My sailors
Row on
And **** the wind
And the rain.

And blast your way through
Through and through
And snap time's stubborn neck.

Sail on for infinity trials
Trials not worthy of you
And your judgement eyes
Are the stars of the sea.

Sail not with vanity
There is no desire
Worthy of desire
Open is the ocean
To the end and over.

Sail on to the end
And forget the end
The sun sets
But it's truth is tomorrow.
Noah Ducane Nov 2017
While walking
Two feet talking to the
ground
Only to say
Like yesterday
All ears align equal

And paint the rain
A grayer color of blood
That's yellow
And I chase the leaves
They are falling
Until the last
And there are none

So scant the shadow
that hides beneath the tree
And tidal teeth sink
in the autumn sun

Where to trace outside
be made the last
to the end
so stripped
with tail-ends
and teeth
all gleaming
so scant where the shadow hides lo
Noah Ducane Jun 2020
Sometimes

I always

think of the perfect thing to say

long after I said something else

Sometimes

I don’t have the strength to get better

and it takes the world to change

one person

give someone an inch

and they’ll take a mile

Sometimes I feel like no one at all

I hide from the eyes of others

to feel at home with myself

sometimes I feel scared

when I know

I don’t know

anything

at all
Noah Ducane Oct 2015
"I love you"
I wrote.
"Ok"
It read.
Noah Ducane Sep 2015
The face is a war mask
And the eyes are made for crying
The mouth is poison
And the skull a cathedral
Dreams are dreamt
But are not seen
And sleep is slept
But is not solid

Blue is the sky
Only in day
That veils the black of space
Blue are the eyes
But only in circles
That surround the black
Of our bodies
Blank souls
Never hiding

Words like clouds
That hold only rain
To wash away
And souls
Like words
Are too much alike
Noah Ducane Jun 2017
The godhead shakes from sleep
The thin film of memory
Shakes from his memory
The thin veil of sleep
Separated by endless stars
And shakes his head sleepily
Having just awoken
Fresh as a budding flower from the earth
As he has been already
Endlessly
Searching for the answers
Grasping at the limbs of a larger tree
Just before falling
Awakening from that dream
Hopping to the next
His infinite cousins
Who are all us and him together
Each unknowing to the end
Strangers to ourselves
Noah Ducane Mar 2015
The nagging sleep claws into pink flesh begging it's death-like manner into a call to action

Biting cold with the death dream, fickle imagination setting fire to decency

And the little dreams dance about in your head, mad children lurking, orphaned-

Then the rattling of the rafters with the years behind,
Their black mess still lingering-
Feeding off the disease cast aside

Poor dream,
The ugly nightscape has been sobered up
The pangs were left in poverty

No I do not need your fetishes..
And the parasites flee
Noah Ducane Mar 2016
With the heavy burden
Of every day
****** not to sleep
For the sun-bells toll.

Off into the world
With eyes still sleeping
With mind still dreaming.

Demands demanding
Of your petty need
To live and to die
So comfortably.

Don't believe in the words in books
Or the speeches of the free,
Or the faces of friends
That smile so casually.

With the heavy burden
Of waking up
Unchanged
Except by age,
Threat of our precious time
And boredom.
Noah Ducane Dec 2015
There is nobody
But you
And when the show is over
And the theater clears
There will be only you

There is no life in my dead eyes
But for you
And for you all my songs will sing

There is no love
But love for you
And the love for you
Is the love of life

And when the stars fade
And the planets are washed away
And the sun goes out
There will be none but you
Noah Ducane Jun 2015
Hopeless sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
******* desires forget my strength
Fearing death and life at length
I know little but what I know
Will carry on and forever grow
I've sold my soul and mortal being
To say "yes" without agreeing
I see boats on the horizon sink
And people cower in fear to think
I've seen books burn in great bonfires
And evil men the devil admires
But I'd like to build a Jerusalem with pillars of gold
A place to sin and never grow old
I want more by the day
The impossible, trite, and things I cannot say
Yet I lack for nothing now
Having killed the sacred cow
And finally to stand on the world's end
Crimes behind I cannot amend
And still with tears in my eye
Breathe not a word and quickly die
Hopeless the sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
Noah Ducane May 2015
Hopeless sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
******* desires forget my strength
Fearing death and life at length
I know little but what I know
Will carry on and forever grow
I've sold my soul and mortal being
To say "yes" without agreeing
I see boats on the horizon sink
And people cower in fear to think
I've seen books burn in great bonfires
And evil men the devil admires
But I'd like to build a Jerusalem with pillars of gold
A place to sin and never grow old
I want more by the day
The impossible, trite, and things I cannot say
Yet I lack for nothing now
Having killed the sacred cow
And finally to stand on the world's end
Crimes behind I cannot amend
And still with tears in my eye
Breathe not a word and quickly die
Hopeless the sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
Noah Ducane Mar 2015
The tree with a hundred years goes
Fires, wreckage, wind and snows
And bears so well it can't be heard
Not by men, beast or bird

The tree gives as a giver should
It's beauty among us and faithful wood
And the tree, silent to our woes
Stands tall when after all else goes

And the tree with patience practiced as an art
Lives better than us without a heart
Noah Ducane Sep 2016
Beginning in the evergreens,
Where the waters run sweet as wine,
The skies sing out shattering,
The ground spins down below
His marching feet.

One thousand and one years
Left him in the earth,
And raised up Typhon,
Come lightning staff,
Come thunder breath.

Moving through the mountains,
Purpled by the sun,
Floods cutting through the rock,
Come traveling through the caverns,
Through the cloud's rain that tear down.

Eagles eating gods,
And green, green trees stretching hands,
He stumbles through the paths,
Going all martyr in the shades.

Eventually, his progression meets the sun,
That scorches shadows from their place,
Plumes of fire preaching,
Here he finds the meadows,
Melting all gone in the red and stubborn sand.

Oh and there he fights the priests,
Oh and there he summons hell,
From the sun that never dies,
And the seasons never change.

There go I,
Through the paradises of elephants,
(White and rouge)
Palaces of sultans in the sultan shade.
Armageddon heavens twisting,
Where the spindle-bound spires raise.

There go I,
Vagrant feet forging,
The miles in meter
And the deserts in their damnation.

Eventually, the vagrant finds the rivers.
Eventually, there he claims all Moses,
Running wild through these waters,
Cutting heel into valleys pale and pink.

Golden Hordes, and god-kings,
And paisley patterns branded in the eye;
There are the journeys going unhindered,
Where the snow meets the soul.

The vagrant with his body,
Naked in the mind,
Storm by boat in the dead of winter,
Warmed by sails in the dead of spring.

The vagrant going east,
Then around again and west,
There shores of silver,
Horns of plenty fallen found.

One thousand and one years
Gilded in the green,
Fluorescent accents smiling,
Sounds smelting in the foreign forests.

The vagrant meets the sea
After his trials in their numbers,
Blankets thrown up,
White sheets waving,
Clairvoyance in antiquity.

The sea is blue and washing,
The vagrant's eyes are marbled,
As the notes progression goes
The water kisses the air.

Pillars taller than the stars
Stretch to heaven forgetting,
There oceans rising,
And the tranquil music dancing.

Tripped out not wanting,
Rise and risen,
The scavenger surface
And the molten mound.

Poor traveler,
In his vision where all eyes meet,
The savage and sacred nature,
The hurricanes and blissful storms.

Poor traveler,
Not meet your end,
One foot in the grave,
Where a million, million angels
Carry you down.

And poor traveler,
King in concert,
There hills and crevasses crawl to him,
Call to him,
Leave all their pasts searching.
Noah Ducane Sep 2015
The will to live
Is as simple as knowing,
"I don't want to die"

And if you have the will to live
You have the will
For anything
Noah Ducane Nov 2017
A glass of sun,
The circumference of the world,
the entire infinity.

The deep brown,
Warm umber,
Quiver and smirk.

Between two chasms,
Dark like the space-deep,
Shattered like starlight
Leaping off shards
Of white glass
All singing stars
And glass shattered off-white.

The width of a circle,
A soul locked within
A perfect deep-
Within a glance pained
By sublimed, sustained silence.

The width of a circle,
A soul sealed within
A perfect deep-
Therein a soul stained by
Touch,
By memory,
By touch,
By memory.
The frames of a face.

A soul sealed within a perfect sleep.
Noah Ducane Sep 2020
To say, “I’m sorry” to the air

the thin air, against the weathered stone

cold as bone that you are always

never permitted to speak again

to move those saintly smiles through

and through you are grinning at the void

and lost, where I will not meet you

because I was lost in myself

enough to forget you

and no simple word in sadness will meet those muted ears

or sun swim in those stony eyes

to be closed like a book once read

never opened again

no more soft words to follow

no more aches in your ache-beaten back

you have fallen to the side of sleep

and only dreams of silence will take you

far from me, and my endless apologies

like fire in the sea

I will pray to the wind
and find flowers
for my failure

In all our million days

dusk to dusk

like an open wound you will smile again

and like death itself be forever.
Sometimes "I'm sorry" comes too late
Noah Ducane Jun 2015
To us a coroner is already a dead man
For he has seen the face of death and wept.

To us a priest is parent
While he does his best to comfort
He must honorably fail.

To us a teacher is a student
Learning from the young
All things
He was taught to forget.

To us a light is a light
If it can be seen
And that's a very good thing
To us.

To us life's a walk in the park
Through sometimes this stormy weather
But before sleeping on the dark grass
(Lepers that we are)
We send a prayer up to the sky
In wishful thinking
Maybe we'll wake up
Noah Ducane Feb 2016
For you
A kiss
Not for being loved
But for loving
Not for loving yourself
But for loving me
Noah Ducane Feb 2016
Venom dreams of waving smiles
Circled suns all caught in a line
Made of lead tears
That wished you were made
A promise that broke the earth
In a perfect peace.

And then the rain of blues
And the words of white
That washed against the sea walls
And flew kites
Fast against the childhood skies
And made music
For the deaf.

Sunship dreams of *** in rivers
Of ***** that flowed like milk
In a harmony Hellenistic
Like mosaics of the buried past.

Venom dream of number nine
In the ways you will be mine
To hold and love forever.

Serpent sails for the guns of tomorrow
Not bullets in your ironclad heart
That cannot pierce no love or feeling
But rhyme always
Against the fallen grain.
Noah Ducane Mar 2015
Hey!

Do what's forbidden.
Who cares if you get caught?

You can laugh it off
(Satan laughs)

You can cry it off
(it takes strength to cry)

You can even smoke it off.
And who cares if they don't like you smoking?
*******, I say.

Don't hurt,
Don't get hurt,
Wouldn't have it any other way.
Noah Ducane Mar 2020
Thrill me with kisses,
I
hate
To
wait

Cover me in your blankets, your frothing sea.
Drink of me like a happy drunk would,
Sleepless nights and sleeping days.

In a dream I found again
Your sacred touch,
Like a fire thrown into my void,
With life that licked at every chance,
Every sweet, electric sting,
This child soul
That in your flowered flesh
Found a home
A home, a shelter, and escape.
Noah Ducane Mar 2017
Sadness is the wine of the soul
You, when looking down on me didn't know
How I've made mine perfect
Through many years
Effortlessly.

Pain that has every title,
Seeps like the rain to my roots
And gives me fear of nothing
But fear of feeling anything at all.

And I wait in the dark of life
Still like in sleep
Until the hour
All clocks stop.

When with you,
All clocks stop.
When with you,
Sadness grows
In saying goodbye.

Four simple words I'll give:
Goodbye,
I love you.
Still like in sleep
Until the hour
All clocks stop.
Noah Ducane Sep 2015
Wise beyond words
Is the mutual feeling
Love unto death
At time's cruel pace

Thought after fear
Faith beyond thought

Hunt in wild woods
My cruel heart's spear
That paints the night
With the truth of it's victims

Search for the hour
At last
When all is right
And numb my soul
To extinction
Noah Ducane Apr 2020
In my pocket, 5 sad dollars.
I turn, I turn, I turn to sleep.
A day is spent
For monthly rent
I turn, I turn, I turn to sleep.

Ashes in my clothes,
Wake, shower, smoke.
5 sad dollars in my pocket,
Window open,
Window closed,
I turn, I turn, I turn to sleep.
Noah Ducane Feb 2016
No escape from each other
No escape from ourselves

I'm bored
And tired
And sick
Of breathing

Oh why should I be afraid to live my life
Stuck with myself
And no one else?

The hope for love
Gone forever
With my tears
That once seemed endless

But my eyes are dry now forever.
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