Change.
I've changed.
I know I have,
but not for the better.
Burdened.
That's me.
Burdened by the past,
burdened by the pain.
Friend.
you.
or what used to be you,
I don't know how i feel.
Beaten.
Beaten down.
mentally, physically, emotionally..
Nothing but a shell.
Family.
Fights.
all the time, never quiet,
Just be gone.
Me.
Nothing.
Worth and valued,
I'm nothing.
Anxiety.
breathe.
I can't breathe,
suffocated by feelings.
Cry.
Niagara falls.
water falls,
Yet everything is bare.
Friend.
you.
I'm so mad at you,
triggered memories of insensitivity.
Father.
Love me.
I've achieved so much,
yet i'm still never enough.
Music.
Loud.
Drown out the yelling,
I can't take it anymore.
Food.
Comfort.
Let me hide my pain,
i'll just eat to fill the void.
Sleep.
Just sleep.
that's all I need,
yet my voice screams in my mind.
Friend.
you.
or what used to be you,
Cut me some slack because i'm drowning too.