I know you, you don't know me.
I sit here and read your poetry.
Daily basis, log in to check
See how you are,
carry on with the day.
You talk about wanting to reach out,
I think about doing the same.
You hurt me bad,
I hurt you worse
The systems been corrupted.
I read your pain.
I feel it too.
Throw my heart into the compactor.
I wish i could bring myself to say hi,
but solitude and alarm bells control me.
2 years is a long time.
we're slowly drifting to 3.
You don't know me.
I said it before,
just a hallowed shell, I'm empty.
It's easier to hate,
crippling to love,
emotions become catastrophic.
I think about the damage done,
all i have is "I'm sorry"
Maybe i don't know you.
Have you really changed?
your words are different,
but the tone is the same.
But, I'd be lying if i said i didn't miss it.
Lungs lined with salt from all the tears,
medications to try controlling the fears.
I type up the words to say hello,
I Paralyze.
1000 consequences all say don't.
back peddle hard, i click away.
Maybe tomorrow's another day.
Based off an old friend.