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Nov 2018 Maggsi

the dark circles under your eyes are cute, love

Nov 2018 Maggsi

Maya

the dark circles under your eyes are cute, love

i like seeing people when they're sleepy.
completely real
unfiltered humans,
yawning in their baggy nightclothes,
worn blankets wrapped like shawls,
and soft smiles
as they claim they aren't exhausted,
no,
their eyes are just tired.
their low mumbling gives them away every time, though.

people are wondrously beautiful in a
natural, peaceful state.

hey you, you know who you are, i love seeing you sleepy but you should get some rest. sleep is good for you. i love you a latte. go to bed. <3

#sleep #soft #tired #beautiful #natural #peaceful #humans #sleepy

Nov 2018 Maggsi

a way out of here

Nov 2018 Maggsi

Julia

a way out of here

i.
regret;

i long for the day when this doesn’t hurt,
when i don’t tell the story in paragraphs
always defending, always justifying -
that it comes out in simple sentences.
“i loved him, and i thought he loved me the same.
i was wrong. there was someone else,
and then there was just me. i wasn’t enough,
and i’m not sure if i am now.
i still love him.”
i long for the day when my decision
feels right.

ii.
acceptance;

other times, i long for the day
when we are only casual acquaintances,
exchanging pleasantries every few months.
we won’t talk about when we were so close
our roots were intertwined.
instead, we’ll talk about how we’re
happy for each other, and we’ll mean it.

iii.
growth;

mostly, i just want to be better.
the torn edges of my self
smoothed out like the
river pounds the rock,
so will the stream of time
round me out.

i want to laugh and love and live vibrantly.

i wrote this nearly a year ago after being cheated on. i wish i could revisit it to add how things are now but that doesn't feel right.

#cheating #relationship #love #heartbreak #acceptance #growth #happiness

Nov 2018 Maggsi

be kind, be kind, be kind.

Nov 2018 Maggsi

Julia

be kind, be kind, be kind.

soft, softer, softest.
kind, kinder, kindest.
pure, purer, purest.

as much as i want to succeed and have a career and a life of my own, i want nothing more than to be so kind it changes the world. my heart is stable shelter in a hurricane and i'll let you wait out this storm with me a while.

though ice is cooled by my hands, i radiate warmth. i've swallowed starlight and fostered it in my core and it bursts from me.

my gentleness has been tempered by fire and is my greatest strength.

#kindness #positivity #cold #prose

Oct 2018 Maggsi

Remember Me

Oct 2018 Maggsi

Words of a withering soul

Remember Me

Remember me when you feel all alone,
I'm always here for you, I'll never leave you on your own.
Remember me when your heart is broke in two,
I'll always be here to pick up the pieces and heal your heart for you.
Remember me when you feel depressed, stressed or angry,
I'm always going to be by your side through it all, please believe in me. Remember me when you're confused or lost,
Because I'm always here for you no matter what the cost.
Remember me when you're feeling ill in any way,
I'll always be here to nurse you back to health any day.
Remember me after I am gone,
And just for you, I'll be sure to ask God to leave Heaven's light on.
Remember me please, don't forget,
I'll always remember you, our friendship I'll never regret.
Remember me if you're in Heaven before me,
Maybe you can guide the light for me to see.
Remember me when you don't think you can ever love again,
Because I am here waiting to love you, but I can wait 'til then.
Remember me when you feel like nobody loves you,
Just so you know that I'll always be here, forever too.

©Words of a withering soul

Remember that u are not lonely... And I'll always be there for you

#love #broken #remember #friend #lonely #forget

Sep 2018 Maggsi

Does the Tunnel End Soon?

Sep 2018 Maggsi

Tyler Smiley

Does the Tunnel End Soon?

I haven’t weighed myself in weeks. I have this incessant itch inside of me longing to know what numbers I ring up to be. But everyday I hear another gnawing voice say,
“You are not a number, you are a person. A number does not define you. What defines you is your kindness, your efforts, the way you live your life.”

But what happens when the way I’ve been living my life for the past year and a half has been nothing BUT numbers and scales and nutrition labels and dysmorphia. What happens when my efforts have only been reduced to reducing myself? What happens when kindness overflows towards others, but I cannot even look in the mirror and say “I love you.” What happens when you are completely consumed by something that refuses to let you consume?
-Does the tunnel end soon?

#eatingdisorder #dysmorphia #anorexia #recovery #progress #prose #poetry

Sep 2018 Maggsi

Midnight // Reset

Sep 2018 Maggsi

Tyler Smiley

Midnight // Reset

I love the way your voice sounds at night.
Raspy whispers of the drunken moon.
Asking for the slow and stale
out of bed kisses.
I reach for your lips,
picking up the tastes
of all the dreams we never got around to.
Connecting the dots on your skin,
Little Dipper on your back.
Scars are slowly turning into stars,
and I’m realizing that healing
is easier to do in the dark.

#love #missingyou #healing #night #moon #poetry

Sep 2018 Maggsi

The Price of Self-Worth

Sep 2018 Maggsi

Tyler Smiley

The Price of Self-Worth

I could not survive you again.
Your storm ripped me limb from limb;
I was strewn about, losing pieces of myself in the wind.

Lightning struck: the blow of your hand on my cheek.
Black and blue cloud-shaped bruises,
thunder rippling underneath my skin.

I used to like the rain, but my heart was sopping wet and
you were mad because I needed the sun more
than I needed you.

I was ready for flowers
to be planted within me,
not to be constantly uprooted instead.

I gained strength and freed myself from you,
but that also meant I finally gained the strength to let go of the worst parts of myself too.

#selfworth #selflove #worthy #loveyourself #lettinggo #strength #poetry

Aug 2018 Maggsi

Pure White Emptiness

Aug 2018 Maggsi

Benjamin

Pure White Emptiness

Gracious god, I Am
handcuffed to the bed
(white wine and
cigarettes)—
I will not forgive regrets.

This hornet’s nest, a home—
I choke on church bells,
starved of faith—
an empty sternum, bellyache.

Among the living dead,
I speak the language:
“Let me in!”
But I cannot betray my sin.

Aug 2018 Maggsi

No more lonely hours

Aug 2018 Maggsi

Adam Holmstrom

No more lonely hours

We lie awake
at afterparty hours
with fragile hearts
that scream silently,
violently,
why do we feel alone?

Why do we feel alone
with so many of us here?
We carry a torch
in its fire our feelings flicker.
We pass it around
breathing the ember in.
We inhale the flames
And exhale dark ashes.

Each breath keeps it ignited
as we share this light inside us.
We feel it's familiar warmth
when we pass each other by.
It bonds and it heals us;
all walks of our lives together.

We lie awake
at any fragile hour
with open hearts
that scream loudly,
proudly,
we are not alone.

Thank you for listening

#selfhelp #self #help #happy #sad #depression #depressed #therapy #cure #improvement